Guardian angel (best secret of my life)

Cowardly

Morning Sunlight blinded my eyes, I was still sleepy rubbing my eyes. I sat quietly in my bed, staring around me. I smiled at the plates and cups still lying there. Well it was me and Rega eating last night, he asked me to joke around with a laugh even in a small voice. Because it can be caught by him if caught in the room girls people through the window.

I rushed to get my towels and my change of clothes, today is Sunday so I don't have to go to school. I immediately set my foot in the bathroom and started cleaning myself. When I finished I was wearing clothes complete with a towel that was coiled on my head immediately struggled in the kitchen. I started cutting vegetable motogs and as her, for almost an hour I was struggling in the kitchen. At the end of all my cooking, rice, gulai, and also sambal. I set it up on the table, then took the plate.

"What cooking, brother??" Ask my sister.

"Sayur lodeh, sambel terasi same fried salted fish!!" I then took a plate for my sister.

After he got his food he immediately rushed towards the front of the tv. Well it is his habit to eat while watching tv. I took the rice and side dishes for myself and started eating. After eating I wash the dishes I used to eat and then go back to the room.

"In the booth kayak yah!!" I cried while looking in the mirror.

I looked for something in my closet and finally got a black bando. I immediately put it on, not forgetting I slightly polished my face with a little baby powder. Then give lipgloss on my lips so as not to dry and look fresher. When I finished I grabbed a sling bag containing some items and then went out of the room.

"Sister, work first!!" I shouted at my sister.

"Yes..." Keep focused on the tv.

I did not take a headache and immediately rushed away from there. As usual, I work early on Sunday at the cafe. I walk while humming, today the weather is really sunny but not so hot.

"Hi Na.." Someone greeted me in the middle of the road.

"Eh.. Reno!!" I was shocked to see Reno walking along with me.

"Where are you going in the morning??" Ask Reno.

"work!!" I cried not so much to respond to him.

"Jutek is so buk!!" Ketus Reno's.

"Well, what's the matter with me??" Ask me who stopped my steps then turned to face him.

"The cave just wants to know Deket more with you Na!!" Reno said frankly.

"No interest!!" Ketus ku then back walk.

"Eh Na wait!!" Reno Yanh continues to pursue me.

"What do you want seriously??" I stopped my steps again.

"Udah the cave says the cave wants more Deket same you..." Reno said with a really serious look.

"Nga!! after all, there are many noh girls who want you to do what is looking for me!! I have nothing!!" I said back to walking.

"Your color is different Na!!" Excited Reno who made me stop my steps for a moment but then immediately walked back.

How not Reno's voice was so loud and now it's in the city park. And it has become a common sight every Sunday this place many people who jog or just relax. After we looked back and forth and it was true that we were both at the center of the spotlight right now.

"Jeez, a guy can do it!!" My inner self is infuriated by Reno's behavior.

"Na, cave seriously likes you, you want to be a cave girl!!" Said Reno while holding my hand but I immediately clasped.

"Not to Ngadi Ngadi deh Ren!! I don't want to be in a school gosipin any more fans you're still nyeremin!!" I tried to resist but again Reno pulled my hand.

"Gua doesn't care about them Na!! The cave likes it you, the cave will protect you!!" Reno Exclamation.

"Sorry Ren, I can't!! I want to focus on school instead of dating!!" Reject me while letting go of Reno's hand.

"Why Na?? Less cave what??" Ask Reno protest.

"You're not lacking anything, I'm lacking Ren.. Our relationship will not work!!" I cried then wanted to leave but again my arm was choked by Reno.

"Please Na!! You can ask for time, you can answer when you want! But give the cave a chance to Deket same Lo!!' Said Reno and her gaze was so sad in my opinion.

Actually I can't see it like this, but I'm round too late. I want to focus on my education, I want to learn not play with feelings. Feelings are not important to me right now, the most important thing is that I can show that I can. If I don't count on anyone, if I can be proud of my parents. And being able to realize all my dreams that others consider are just wishful thinking.

"I can't Ren!! Sorry!!"

"Why the hell Na?? What because you like other guys!!" Said Reno while looking at me with a difficult gaze to understand.

"It's nothing close to anyone Ren!! it's a matter of my own heart that refuses so hard to get in touch!! I want Ren's success, I want my future, I don't want it just because the feeling of making it all mess up!!" Obviously me and hope Reno can understand.

"The cave will support you, the cave will keep you all!!" Excited Reno sure.

"Sorry!!" That's all I can say.

Then I left just like that leaving Reno who was still silent there with the gaze of the people who were still fixed on her. Actually I can't bear it but I have to be firm in my stance so as not to ruin everything.

"Gua will keep u Na!! Don't care if you want to or not!! The cave will prove to you if the cave really likes you!!" Shouted Reno in such a loud voice.

Namub this time my determination was round which made me ignore his words. And choose to keep walking away from there. Stay away from things that might ruin my future. I may be able to keep myself from promiscuity, but I may not necessarily be able to control my day. When it's been set, and surely all of it will be chaotic. Let's just say I'm too cowardly to take a risk.

"Lu coward Na!!" My inner.

"Lu saw Reno's gaze earlier, he was sincere!! But you're too cowardly!!" My monologue with my own mind.

Let me be a coward this time, I really can't take the risk. Nothing is more important to me than my future. I want my parents to love me as much as they love their other children.

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