GIRL UNDER THE MOON

the peak of a taste

one thing that does not want to happen in life, namely separation, things that are difficult to forget are memories, let alone sweet memories.

arriving in time, not just a time that leads to another meeting, but a day that leads to a culmination of a sense.

morning has arrived, raised to wake up. Look up there the sun is dim, the horizon is not visible, but is present behind the black clouds.it does not discourage to fight. it is a day that needs to be underlined, because tomorrow, reality no longer leads to being together.

at 8 am. I was in front of the house leni. not for longing, but wanted to greet my lover who spent the night in the house. 

I knocked on the door of his house. "tok tok." The rain began to fall very heavily, knocking the door until inaudible.I repeated the same thing, but a little powerful.the door was opened, the door was opened, not by leni or meera, but by ce romlah. how surprised he was when he saw my presence. "eh. a danu it turns out!" ce romlah reflex. 

ce romlah is a housekeeper in the house.his devotion has been almost more than 20 years, more precisely when leni was still in the womb.

   "em. mentang mentang no non leni, just come to this house again." said ce romlah quipped, remembering as long as there is no leni at home, I never came to that house again. 

  "ce Romlah knows, why did I come here this morning?" my many.

  "yes, of course, because there are non-leni." replied ce romlah.

  "not that I miss the same ce romlah. hehe" I said.

  "that handsome guy can!" praise ce romlah.he invited to enter! he also told her that non-leni was still asleep in the room with her friend. 

before ce romlah went to the kitchen, he had offered "want to make a drink what?"

I warned him not to bother. I followed him to go to the kitchen, looking for food for breakfast.I am no stranger to him, ce romlah served me a cup of coffee, and I have a, he will also make toast for me. While making toast ce romlar many ask me, like "who sleeps with non leni? ce just saw it?"

I told him that he was meera, my future wife.ce romlah even intrigued not to believe it. he knew that I liked jokester. "if the woman was his future wife a danu, he knew that she was a, trus non leni who will it be?"

  "let her be single."

   "ikh. can't ngedo'ain rich that way! according to cece, a danu equals non leni it actually fits, one case, the other is gelis! not kayang if you have children later will be like what.why the hell a danu same non leni never dating?" the parable and question ce romlah quite tickled. I felt comforted over his behavior.

  "if I and Leni were dating, it could be, ce romlah could not see back my presence in this house."

   "why?"

   "yes. if the relationship does not last long, it will be separated and even hate each other, then the former deh. the kindness given by Leni is too great, too big, until Danu was confused how to reply, if not able to reply, at least try to make him happy."

an hour had passed, I accompanied ce romlah in the kitchen.but leni and meera never woke up. I told ce romlah to wake them up, because I'm afraid meera will be late for school to teach.

ce romlah immediately rushed towards the room leni would wake up.

   "if they're up, tell Danu to wait in the backyard!" my message to ce romlah.

waiting for them to wake up, I read a novel in the backyard.

before long, there was a voice "duh. mentang-pang his girlfriend is here, early in the morning has been visiting people's homes." said Leni from behind while approaching.

  "where's meera?" ask me for his existence.

  "there's a whole lot inside, I don't think he's still bathing." leni replied in response. "lo know nu? if today I am still single, I do not want to know meera! because I must be hurt.The feelings you give meera are quite big, I don't know, if your relationship can't last long, what happens in life after that!" keep leni. 

  "don't think negatively!"

  "gw know, you are a difficult person to fall in love. you are not looking for beautiful women let alone rich, have you ever thought? had meera never been born on this earth, what kind of woman would you have loved?" 

I did not answer the question from the linen, because meera keburu came. Only then, I did not give praise for his appearance, but laughed, because meera looks strange. 

shortly after I asked, the adoration of my heart came to me. Only then, his presence did not reap praise from me, but laughed at. no matter what happened to him, he showed himself, dressed in a leni.  his appearance looks strange, that's what makes me laugh at him. Meera and leni's posture is very different, leni a little fat and tall, the shirt was like eating meera's body.

  "don't laugh!" exclaim meera ngambek.

how could I not laugh to see it? the clothes he was wearing was quite large, it looked stark like he ate his own clothes.usut had a stretcher, the clothes worn by meera turned out to be his clothes leni. understand meera did not bring a change of clothes. meera's body and Lenin's body were very different, leni was slightly fat and tall. 

  "i'm not laughing, but it's just a single moment last night with him, it looks weird." I replied pointing at Leni, because she I meant her.

leni brushed off my index finger, then denied: "what the hell?" 

  "listen, there are those who don't sleep like friends.so important I am well, so willing to stay up just to talk about me." continued my words mocking them.

  "well, because leni, now I know all your ugliness." answered meera. 

   "you should know! if Leni talks about my vices, then that means she doesn't agree with our relationship. But, if she talks about kindness, then she agrees. But does she admit, if she ever fell in love with me?" 

  "ems.." meera muttered for a long time, her eyes twinkling rapidly at Leni, as if playing with code. leni who noticed the meera signal then responded by shaking her head while closing her index finger to her mouth."suttt." told meera to shut up. 

  "don't get from rich kids, from simple families, which women don't fall for Danu!'' meera said a little praise.it does not make me feel like a handsome person, but rather feel like a lucky person.

by noon, meera remained relaxed in the house, then what about the students at school, that makes me wonder then ask: "you don't teach ra?"  

he replied "no." "already permission" he said. I don't want just because he was busy courting, he forgot his responsibilities at school. I asked the reason for his permission, it was, he gave me a surprising answer, not because of me, meera permission from the school, but he had planned to accompany his mother in the hospital.His mother had diabetes, as well as complications with heart disease, but he had planned to accompany his mother in the hospital, so that you have to check up once a month, it happens that day is the schedule.

  "nu. lo must be temenin! it's your chance, to get your touts in-laws' hearts." leni suggested.

no need to make excuses, just to get his attention. 

  "gw no need to look for face, people have met. without asking I have certainly offered, if he does not want, I will force him." 

  "how is Ra, we're leaving now?" my many.

  "but it is raining outside" answered Meera.

  "we're raining, we're rich."

  "later sick again."

   "since when did you become a gini-rich bego? there is a car I, you just use it, do not take the motor." said Leni suggested.

   "later in the rich again!" my answer.

   "hey.. does everyone who uses that car look like a rich man? look, someone who works as a private driver, everywhere he drives, right down, the people who look can tell which driver, which employer." 

   "if I had a car with me, what would people think of it?"

   "lo gk's face has the look of a rich man."

   "that's the case, ready to go." replied I concluded after several times involved joking with leni. Actually, leni really wanted to come along, but unfortunately he was a lot of tasks. before leaving, leni really wanted to come along, leni provided me with 200 thousand money.he said the money was to buy fruits, let my future in-laws be happy, do not buy cigarettes. Before leaving, I told meera to change her clothes. meera changed clothes with hers, even though she used it yesterday, she wore it again, to remove the smell, she sprayed a little perfume.

  the atmosphere in the car. This is no longer between me and him, but between heart to heart.The atmosphere in the car is a little awkward, confused, have to issue what other words, what more, in order to melt the situation.whether why I suddenly stiff, I play romantic music, in order to get inspiration from the song, as from earlier meera silent, the look on her face like storing a myriad of questions, as if she had, what I expected, he was thinking about the fate of his mother, so I did not dare to utter guyon words as usual, even though it only comforted him.

 "ra.. Nothing happened last night?" my many.

 "overnight, I've heard something extraordinary." answered meera. "there are so many questions, which I must ask! please answer the questions honestly!" keep saying meera.

  "when did you hear me lying?" 

  "hem." meera let out a trivial sigh.then looked at me sharply. "your words are all lies nu!"

I was confused, what he said, I tried to think what kind of lie I had told him.

  "you seem to be pretending to be stupid, just to fool me!" meera's words are increasingly making me not understand. 

   "the first thing I want to ask.why, do you not love leni or devi, but they are much better and more beautiful than me?" meera asked the first one. I wanted to smile and even laugh at her question, but she asked very seriously.

   "for me you're better and prettier than them, you know why?" answer and ask me. Meera muttered "ehem." the look asked why.

  "that's because I look at you with liking.leni and devi, they will look good and beautiful, in the eyes of people who like it. That determines love or not it is not from a speech, it is not from a speech, but it was from my heart that my heart was shaken, and it even churned to the point of losing balance, when I made peace with it, and then he said gently I loved him, and I didn't feel it towards them."

  "if I hadn't returned that love, would you have regretted loving me?" 

  "love is a gift, comes not knowing the time, anchored not know who! if you don't return my love, then I'll make sure to keep loving you, until that love is really bored with me."

  "of course you will be miserable living in that waiting, why don't you go to find another port!"

  "the harbor is a temporary dwelling, while I'm just looking for a place, where I can live in it."

some of the questions asked by him I can answer, whether it can be understood or not for him. 

   "next thing, what's the reason you didn't take the scholarship?" meera asked back.I can not give the reason, I was silent very desperate.I shook my head, then apologized to him for not giving the reason.meera was very understanding, very understanding, there must be another reason that I cannot tell other people, but the reason is very simple just because devi. but I am reluctant to tell meera. later he will discuss it prolonged.

  "then, why did you refuse Leni's father's offer, which would get you to go to college at ITB?" 

  "if I had been to ITB, maybe we wouldn't know each other like this, let alone love each other!"

  "i~h..seriously answer!" spoiled sermon.

  "my father taught me that life cannot depend on humans too much! because, the goodness of man is nothing pure, man will always expect the reciprocal, other words there is nothing free bro. if fate leads me to success, he will remind, remember! you're successful it's because of me. It's the same way I stand on someone else's feet."

  "according you? wrong if I don't love you?" meera asked. he said clearly, but I wanted to hear it more clearly. I turned off the music in the car, then asked him to repeat the words earlier.meera also repeated the word cepa and loud: "you think it's wrong not if I don't love you?" 

  "i'm not forcing you to love me! it's just that you need to do this for me, which is: answer every word I ask, be present when I miss and be willing when I take you away!" 

  "akh. that's the same as the lawyer tau! yes, if that's what he asked, mending all dating aja.but honestly nu, I have never been in love before.although ever come some men ask me, I do not know about love, I do not know about love, but I have never been in love before, and I didn't learn about it. But since your presence I just understood something strange happened to me. I love you, too." said meera admitted it. 

  "that's a sure thing!" I said arrogantly. "i've been very sure, since I first saw you. It's just that I have to wait for time, until you realize it." continued my arrogant words in front of him. 

   "huh. nyesel I've admitted it." 

  "what time" I said suddenly, "want I to write, if I admit it too."

  "haven't be silly! he wrote it later, how about it?"

  "we will die in love.'

the expression of love that comes out of her mouth, as if to be a beautiful jewel, a shield for loneliness and and happiness as a cover of sadness.Life taught me about confidence, patience, and happiness, it is beautiful for those who continue to fight.

it's good that Lenin didn't come with us that day, if he had gone, maybe meera wouldn't have revealed her heart in front of me, let only her car bear witness to my love and meera. 

  arrived at RSUD BEKAH PANDEGLANG. a location that was on the way.I think his car, outside the rain was very heavy.I looked for an umbrella in the trunk of the car, there happened to be one umbrella available. as the rain wafts the earth, I take shelter under an umbrella with meera, with each hand holding her back, it's just that we don't sing while dancing.

in front of the room where her mother was being cared for, Meera knocked on the door saying a greeting: "assalammualaikum!" "greetings waalaikum." answered his mother and father inside." then meera opened the door and entered, I followed him.

his father was sitting next to his mother who was lying weak.

  "ra.." said his mother weakly. "who are you?" keep tanyanya.

  "the same strange person!" answer meera.

  "strange why?" 

I immediately appeared in front of his mother, to grab the answer to the question. "strange ma'am, meera until I can like it!"

  "ekh. You must be meera's boyfriend huh?" ask her mother about me.

  "ikh. mama pinter really when it comes to guessing." I replied praising. from behind meera pinching my stomach. "do not just talk!" he said he was upset.

behind the sprawled body, stored in the face of a wishful and hopeful.His mother pulled out the palm of meera, so that sitting next to her.meera clenched her mother's hand back with both hands. 

actually I want to close my ears, so as not to hear the conversation that meera did with her mother, but what is the power I have to watch it in front of my own eyes. 

what his mother said to meera was an important message, a will that required me to go along with it. 

  "mother's age, it won't last long!" said his mother made my hair goosebumps.

  "mom don't talk like that!" meera replied suggesting.

I didn't want to hear that word of sadness anymore, I planned to get out of the room, but I held back, she wanted me to stay with her listening to the will delivered by her mother.

 "you are the only mother's child, before she dies, I'd love to see you get married, and make sure my son is happy with her."

  "yes. but married to whom?" meera replied loudly, as if to be heard by me.

  "is the person who comes with you very doubtful? so who do you ask?" asked her mother to meera to point at me.

if only time synergized with the situation, I would not think long, if need not think again.at that time I was just a child, unemployment is not clear the future, he said, what I'll guarantee for him.

meera and her mother stopped talking, meera pulled me out. when away from her father and mother meera asked me that question. "you listen to her, right nu? what did my mom say?" tanya meera.

  "i heard it, even very clearly!" 

  "lantas, what do you think?"

  "everyone must dream of being able to live and be with the person he loves.When God brings me and you, you become his goal so that I can dream of it. I suddenly became the one who used to complain to my god, only to ask that I could live on his earth with you. Know that I came not just to know, but to know, but I want to live while waiting for death with you." 

  "your words are very long, difficult to understand.I just ask, are you ready or not if you have to marry me?"

the question was either ready or not, meera wanted me to answer it that day. I was very confused about the emphasis, it was a serious problem, not just ready or unprepared, it must be considered carefully, because a marriage not only involves me and him, but involves two families. seeing me stay quiet for so long that I called me a "coward."

I am not a coward, it's just that readiness takes time.I asked him to give time, meera did not respond again to it.

his mother and father came out of the room, it was time to go back home.

  "mom and dad want to go home, how are you?" ask meera her mother.

  "meera comes home first." 

   "lantas, how was your school?"

   "it's easy to get permission again" concluded meera.

   "if so, all of you and antherin get home!" kataku.

    "not to be taken later?" ask mother.

    "don't! what the hell doesn't make a future-in-law?"

before driving home, I whispered something in meera's ear: "if you run out of gas on the road, you pay for it! I don't bring money."

meera whispered back: "don't bring any money, or do you have no money?" tanyanya.

 I can only give up while scratching my head.

I drive, meera sits on the side, while her parents sit behind her. During the journey her mother told her a lot about death.she said: "a disease given by God, "a disease given by God, contains wisdom in it. Besides being able to reduce the sins we have ever done, there is one thing that can be understood from life, that we are just waiting for death to arrive. in a state of pain, he said, all that is in the mind is to die, die and die.in the remaining time that is still there, he said can be used as much as possible to do good."

I responded: "lucky ma'am, for those who can repent before his death comes!"

the time before the magrib, I just arrived to take them to his house. Both of meera's parents told me to come in! where do I ask?" they said "get in!" "where deep?" "akh. don't ladenin ma'am! he's a freak!" meera cutting.

meera, meera and her parents, performed the congregational magrib prayer, with her own father's faith. After the magrib prayer, there was a meal together. at the dinner table, I sat opposite meera. "ra.." my broom. "hem." she replied. "if you are a magrib, I want to be a isha!" I said I'd make a fight. "what's the matter?" ask meera. "because between magrib and isya the distance is always close." I replied.

"again eating too, had time to make a muddle" said meera. both parents can only smile to see it. 

night at the meera house. actually I will return home, but his parents suggest to stay overnight, considering the time is already night. I feel no objection, even happy, let alone can sleep alone with meera. 

in the living room, her parents invited me to reminisce.Told meera about her childhood, her cute, innocent behavior and many others.laughter in the house, laugh, as if making me already part of his family.in the midst of cheerfulness, that night the arrival of guests. none other than his guest is risma [wife of science] with both parents.every time he came home from the hospital, he said, risma's family routinely looked at meera's parents' house.

stupidly, I didn't realize that night was the forerunner to a breakup.

I asked the inspiration to his wife.Risma forgot, that I was a cousin of her husband. "you're from the menes too?" asked risma. I let it be. then meera added: "he and you're inspired that cousin knows!" meera's confession began to respond to his father risma. "really you are still brothers?" asked his father risma. 

I confirmed, if me and the inspiration was very close.even our house was only blocked by the guardrail.meera's mother also revealed that me and meera were planning a wedding. all who heard the news were happy, except for his father, he also smiled, but the smile was just a charade to cover up his disobedience. 

before going to bed I was restless, thinking of a marriage. I didn't expect it to be that fast, from the bottom of my heart I wasn't completely ready.if I backed off, I didn't, automatically I will lose meera forever, considering her mother desperately wants meera to marry before she can. 

early in the morning, meera tried to wake me who was asleep on the sofa. Considering I was visiting, as much as possible to wake up even though the situation was still very sleepy. "how does it feel to sleep in the house of in-laws? comfortable right.?" ask meera. "it would be very comfortable, if you sleep in the house of the future-in-law alone with you!" my answer.

"if you're ready, it'll materialize quickly." 

"do'll, may god be meridhoi." 

"get up soon! take a shower, we have breakfast together." 

the weather in his house was very cold, I was not used to bathing too early, I decided to wash my face, what I did not get insinuations from him "rich goats, rarely showers!" the insinuation said, "brisik.." I replied.

after breakfast, meera and I say goodbye to her parents.we will return to Pandeglang. 

"mother wait well I'm goodwill from you! I hope you can come to this house again soon, but not alone, please come with your family to propose to meera." said his mother to me as saying goodbye.I can only nod while giving a smile, I can only nod, I was very proud, expecting me to be his son-in-law, but I was disappointed in myself, for fear of taking the risk. 

I have written at the beginning, but I remind you again, meera house is located in the sub-district carita. carita is a coastal area in the pandeglang area.

no matter what was on his mind, meera invited to stop by the beach first, before returning to pandeglang. "what about your students?" much

"later, I'll have another teacher fill it up!"

"wow..why are you so rich now?"

"it is also your evil influence to celebrate our anniversary!"

meera and I stopped by the white sand beach. The atmosphere is very quiet, understand not a holiday. if on holidays, the place will be filled with visitors. 

that day was the last stanza I could pour into a memory swet book with meera. I could still see her smile, watch her laugh, watch her dance and hear her singing.

with his hands still very tight, when he pulled me to run. his pranky hand pushed me into the waves.I immediately got up to reply, but he tried to dodge while running off laughing. 

why does that day have to happen, if tomorrow has to be forgotten? I was so unaware, that behind happiness, there is a sadness. Behind the laughter, there must be a cry. Behind the meeting, there will be a farewell, I don't know if I like it or not.