Getting Married through Tradition
84. Sorry, I Love Him
Hana held her lips together to keep smiling. Hana is confused as to whether he will let Miki in, or leave her outside.
"Can I come in?" miki asked once more while rubbing both of her arms that were goosebumps from the cold.
"Em, Hasan's not home, brother! He just got out,"
"I don't want him. I was out there muting, keep going this way so you guys stop by. Can I not come in? It's cold outside" Miki said.
Hana who felt bad finally allowed Miki, to enter. They went into the house together.
"Hasan said he wanted to go home to see his sister. If you are here, it means that he will not meet dong," said Hana while opening the kitchen door.
"Leave it. I want to play first. By the way, what food is there? I'm the laper," Miki said as she held onto her rumbling stomach.
"Oh, that's abis. The rice doang. Hana and Hasan ate outside. Brother want me to cook noodles?" ask Hana.
"May I not take it" Miki replied with a smile.
"You know, brother sit down first. Hana makes her noodles," said Hana.
Miki then sat on the bench of the dining table. Hana started to light the stove and cook instant noodles for Miki. Not to forget, Hana made a warm sweet tea for Miki.
"Wait for noodles, Brother drink first," said Hana while offering her warm tea.
"Thank you, Han," Miki replied as she received Hana's tea.
Hana continued her cooking. Miki looked at Hana from behind with a smile.
"If you were now my wife, Han! I must be really smart. I will never leave my dispute. I will never get tired of being with you. Come back to me, Han! I still love you," Miki's inner self in her heart.
Hana stirred the noodles and noodle seasoning in the bowl. After evenly, Hana gave it to Miki.
Hana pulled out a chair and sat down in front of Miki. Hana felt bad because she was at home together with Miki.
"I need to tell Hasan, don't you? But he said he wanted to go home. Later if you know Brother is not at home, he must immediately go home. Let it go, "inner Hana.
"Still hot, be careful eating her, brother!" Hana.
Miki smiled at Hana's words, which seemed attentive to her.
"Aren't you eating?" ask Miki.
"I'm still full" Hana replied with a smile.
They were silent for a moment.
While enjoying her instant noodles, Miki tried to organize her heart and mind with the sentence she was about to ask Hana.
Hana herself seems awkward because, besides Miki is the brother of Hasan, Miki has also been a part of her past.
"Han, how long can you spare me?" miki asked while sipping the broth.
Hana smiled at Miki's words.
"I don't mean that. I asked how you felt,"
"Everything just flows, brother! Especially after I met Hasan. Brother will forget the same feelings brother, if only brother would open his heart to others,"
"It's not easy for me to forget you, Han. Although we have never met, but the shadows of your face are always in my heart and mind. I thought, you're the same as me, but I was wrong" Miki said softly.
"I was hoping. After graduation, I'll come to your house. Want to express my seriousness to your parents. But I'm late,"
"Sister, sister don't regret the problems that have happened. Brother just needs a move-on. I'm sorry if I made your heart hurt. I'm sorry for disappointing you. You should forget the feeling of that brother. It's enough that there's only a sense of being a sister, not another" Hana said, rubbing Miki's back.
"I can't yet, Han. Don't force me,"
"I don't want to make Hasan disappointed and sad, Brother! So too with my parents' hearts,"
"Then what about me, Han! I feel sad and disappointed. Are you the same as me?"
Hana took a long breath.
"It's our destiny, brother! The road for us has been stopped since you left Indonesia. You don't expect more from this feeling" Hana said.
Although Hana herself still keeps the taste even though sedikiiiiit, but Hana never wanted to express it in front of Miki. Hannah was unwilling to give false hope that would never materialize. What is, Miki will instead be more hopeful and wait without certainty.
"Hana, divorce Leo. Come back with me," Miki said expectantly while holding both of Hana's hands.
Hana is shocked to hear Miki's wish, which is sudden.
"Crazy of you, brother! Hasan is your brother! You should support his happiness, not ruin it!"
"But what about me, Han? My happiness is just with you. Not with the others. Please, come back with me, Han!" miki pleaded.
Hana did not get out of thought with the sentence Miki said.
"Sister's arrival here just want to discuss this issue. Hana's sorry, sister. Hana will never be able to leave, Hasan,"
"Did you love Hasan, Han? Do you like him?" miki asked seriously.
Hana was silent. He himself did not know his feelings at this moment. Clearly, he still felt safe on Hasan's side.
"Take me, Han! The marriage was done without love. If you don't love Leo, you stay with him. That love can't be forced, Han! I'm sure, Leo would also understand if you didn't love him. He'll agree if you leave him,"
Hana is getting upset to hear Miki's words. Miki did not support his relationship with Hasan at all. Though without love, their marriage is sacred. Hana tries not to play around in her early marriage. Even in arranged marriages, Hana will try to stay faithful, and be a good wife.
"I love Hasan, I love him. So, this marriage is not just a matter of matchmaking tradition," Hana replied while looking closely at Miki's eyes.
Miki shook her head in disbelief at Hana's words.
"I can't believe it. You don't lie to me, Han. You don't lie to yourself" Miki denied Hana's confession.
"What am I lying to, brother! If I didn't love him, I wouldn't have made it this far. Stay in the same house without any feelings, bullshit! We're in love, brother! We will not be separated. You have to accept this reality. Accept me as your sister. Not your boyfriend!" hana's speech is full of emphasis.
Miki releases both of Hana's hands. He smiled while shaking his own head. Miki was seen throwing away faces and occasionally looking down.
