
An empty box was filled again. Like a lost memory has returned to its original state. The pain that was so deep, as well as the suffering that he had experienced before had been very clear in his memory.
What cruel treatment they had done to him. So that makes himself have a deep trauma, and make him a cold and closed woman. But, Dira also felt very grateful to be out of that hell-like life.
It turned out that God was still so good to him, after he had committed a very great sin. God still gives strength and happiness through his twins.
Since Dira recalls only a thousand languages, Will He be able to live life with that memory, or vice versa? Only He and the creator know what is really in his heart and mind at this time.
Dira continues to drive his car across this jammed street, to pick up Kean and Lean. At first Rian offers to escort Dira, but Dira refuses. At last, she reached Kean and Lean's school.
When Dira meets Kean and Lean He can still give a smile that expands, but actually the smile holds a thousand meanings in it. Although Dira smiled but Kean and Lean knew that it was not a happy smile. A smile is forced to hide its true meaning.
Dira invites Kean and Lean to get into the car immediately, because the weather outside is so hot and stinging. Kean and Lean simply obeyed him without commenting anything.
Dira continued to drive his car slowly. Since getting into the car, the look on Dira's face turned flat and silent a thousand languages. It's not like the usual Dira, always asking a lot about what Kean and Lean are doing in school today.
Kean and Lean also fell silent with each other looking at each other in the passenger seat. Dira who noticed his son's attitude from the front rearview mirror that was mutually awkward and staring made him open his voice.
"You why? How come we're so fucking nudged into each other? Is something wrong? " he asked, who is still focusing on driving.
Hearing Dira who asked, Kean and Lean stopped their activities and ventured to ask.
"Is mom having a problem? Why has he been silent since?" ask Lean.
"Oh…. Mama's okay!"
"Seriously!" kean.
Dira just nodded. "What do you want for lunch? Let's all buy?"
"Isn't the oxtail soup at home still there? We can eat that!" chirp Kean.
"Are you sure? Don't want to eat anything else? Or go to the mall first to play?" he gave it to the two twins.
Kean and Lean frowned at them, and looked at each other again. Not understanding the attitude of his mother who was so strange according to them. Does the sun rise from the west? Why did her mother suddenly take her to the mall and play? It's not usually like this! . Usually mama will invite us to play, only on weekends only, there must be something that mama hid deh!. Inner Kean and Lean.
"Why are you just quiet?"
"Em .. Lean wants to play in the mah mall, and luch Lean's favorite Japanese food. Can't you?" concluded.
"Alright.." Dira still continues to drive her car to the mall. After a few minutes, they finally arrived at the parking lot of a fairly large mall.
Arriving at the playground, the three of them played as much. Dira does want to divert his mind by playing with his children, so they do not suspect that Dira is currently in a condition that is not okay.
After the dzuhur prayer, they went to a Japanese restaurant for lunch. After lunch they went back to the apartment.
Arriving at the Apartment, Dira went straight into her room to lay down her body that felt very tired. Dira began to close his eyes, to rest his mind but he could not fall asleep. The shadow of that bitter past continued to dance around in his mind. Makes Dira wake up and want to take a shower.
After entering the bathroom, Dira turned on the shower and sat curled up under the shower that continued to flow like old times. It turned out that I was a dirty and cowardly woman!, I could have forgotten such a great sin. Turns out Kenzo is the man who took away my honor! Why can I meet him again. Not remembering the incident made me think that he was truly sincere and in love with me and the children. It was only fitting that he did all that, because he knew that he was the father of the twins. Why are you so stupid Dira ... Dira continued to curse himself and cry under the shower that continued to flow.
After being in the bathroom for hours. Dira finally came out because his skin had wrinkled everything, due to taking too long a bath under the shower. Dira also started sneezing from the cold, then she stepped into the kitchen to cook hot water to make the honey water warm so that her body feels warmer.
The sound of slippers and floor beats continued to sound and grew closer and closer. Lean continued to step into the kitchen to approach Dira.
He saw Dira was standing shivering with his body wrapped around a blanket, cooking water.
"Mama Why? Is mama sick?" ask lean who is walking closer.
Hearing Lean's voice coming, Dira turned her body.
"What is your mom?" he answered with a cold hold with a wide smile.
Seeing Dira's face so pale, indicating that the woman was not okay.
"You don't have to lie to Lean, try to duck!" with a gaze that said that the order should not be rejected.
Dira frowned when he saw his son's gaze like that, it made Dira forced to follow Lean's orders. If not, it could be a long affair.
After looking down to balance their body height. Lean began to examine Dira's slightly feverish forehead as well as her hands that were so cold and pale.
"Why did you end up anyway? Why are his hands so cold? The feeling was gapapa noon!" tanyanya.
That question, makes Dira confused to answer what. There's no way she's said she's been crying under the shower for hours. Lean could be more asked and suspicious. Fortunately, a hot water teapot rang, so it could make Dira can divert Lean's questions.
Lean continued to stare at her mother who put the hot water into the thermos tumbler. Dira also makes warm honey water to warm his body.
"Mommy hasn't answered Lean's question!"
"Mama doesn't end doing anything. Yes, yes, my mom wants to go back to the room. Lean also went back to the room again yes.." said Dira who only rubbed Lean's hair and went breezing into her room.
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Okay guys.... In this part, Dira's condition is still carried away with the taste that he has been through before.... So Dira still needs time to digest and see that Ken is really sincere. Because it's not easy to accept one of the people who has won the honor that he has been guarding all this time. So wait for the next chapter.... In the next chapter we will see how Ken struggles to be able to convince Dira and melt this iceberg.... The author hopes you won't be disappointed okay....
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