
Dira continued to look at Nisa who had not said a word since. His heart rate is also increasingly uncertain whether the sense of what is enveloping him. There was fear, curiosity, even disappointment.
"mi', so what's the content of the news?. Why do so many people ask if the news about him is true?. But, when they search for the news. The news has been erased. Did the kean remove it?".
Seeing the stare from him. Making nisa even more confused and difficult to open her mouth. How does he explain kedira, nisa is afraid that she will be down again. Afraid that he can't remember what he's forgotten, and it will make him..... But, if nisa does not tell the truth, she will certainly try to find out and fear that what she finds is not the truth. Although it was difficult, Nisa informed the news with her.
The sound of the heartbeat is getting louder. So, the news is true, but why can't I remember what you said about it. Dira closed his eyes and recalled the incident.
"dir... You why?".
Hearing nisa who called out to him dira opened her eyes.
"umi what really happened to dira?. Why can't you remember the day?. Why umi?. And what is explained in the news is true?. Dira asked who was starting to be unsettled until a clear circle dripped from her eyes.
" bd.... You calm down..... Istighfar has many children... Umi will tell you everything you want to know. But, you must calm down, so that you do not down again. But, if you still don't remember anything. Don't be forced okay!.".
Hearing nisa's words. Dira tried to calm himself down and continued to say Istighfar's sentence. Astagfirulah.... Astagfirullah hal adzim. Dira continued to say that sentence, so that he would calm down.
Seeing her who was starting to calm down, Nisa continued speaking with her.
"dir is not all that is on the news is true. You never cheated, but you really have experienced kdrt from your husband. So when 6 years ago, when Umi met you, you already have psychological trauma. But, at that time you can still remember all those events very clearly. Until finally 5 years ago, there was an event that made you experience dissociative amnesia. Where you forget all the things that traumatized you. So, when you can't accept a reality and can't remember something you're forced to remember. You will be confused and depressed.
Dira was surprised when Nisa said that it turns out that she had been suffering from dissociative amnesia. He always thought that he only lost some of his memory because of amnesia in general. But it turns out.... Dira is just a nutritionist. But, he often read medical science and psychology books belonging to lean. You know what dissociative amnesia is. I just forgot what happened 5 and 6 years ago. So, I've had kdrt? How was my marriage life? To the extent that it can make me have trauma and psychological problems?. Dira let out a long breath and closed his eyes. Trying to remember those memories back. But, only pieces of such a painful event flashed quickly in his mind. He suddenly nodded and opened his eyes again. Cold sweat began to wash over his skin, the roar of his Breath was panting, like someone who had done physical activities.
Seeing someone like that. Nisa felt anxious, and also worried.What has Dira remembered? Until it becomes like this.
"dir... You why?".
"do you know the story of my married life?".
Actually, Nisa also does not know exactly how the story of marriage first. Because dira just told me that she experienced kdrt because she knew her husband's secret. And the incident with Ken. But, nisa doesn't want to tell you about Ken. Because nisa was afraid she couldn't accept it.
"dir.... Umi just hopes you won't continue to be stuck with the past. Umi wants you to go out and not remember it again. You know, what is the reason Umi never explained it to you. So, please son, live your present life well with no shadow of the past. Okay fine! ".
" where are you going?. You just recovered, and Umi's afraid that..... ".
" umi need not be afraid and worried. Dira will take good care of himself". Dira tried to convince uminya, honestly his feelings today are very tired. The air needs fresh air. So, he wants to go out.
Since Tega did not see her expression, Nisa allowed it. But, on the condition that nisa will accompany him to come out. Nisa is not allowed to go alone, and must go undercover. No one can recognize his face.
Nisa's attitude makes her more curious and curious to know what has really happened. Because since getting out of Umi hospital, lean, kean even risa, their attitude is all strange. Like they were hiding from him. Especially about the events of yesterday that happened to him. It must be that all of these events are connected. But, now he did not know where to start to find out. because it seemed like Lean had deleted all the information. Why are they hiding it from me?. Am I that weak?. Until they're all so worried about me?. Inner dira.
At first he had a little objection to nisa's terms. But, he still does. Because you know, nisa did all that because nisa is very affectionate and worried about her.
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The wind was so calm and soothing. Like the calm that comes after destruction. At this time his heart and mind are in turmoil, Dira closed his eyes enjoying the wind that continues to blow to his skin. My mind is back to what happened 5 years ago.
*I don't know who I was 6 years ago. In my memory, I was just a 20-year-old girl who was still studying in college. A girl who's never been close to a man, who doesn't know what love means. When I woke up from sleep I was surprised by the fact that I was a mother with two children. Surprised?. Of course I was surprised! . Did I remember a little bit about when I got married? Who am I married to? Then where is my husband?, why isn't he there if they are my children! .
So many questions I asked the beautiful woman with the hijab on her head, she was umi nisa. Yep... Umi Nisa also said that I was divorced and kicked out by my family. That statement once again confused me and wondered. But when I asked, Umi didn't want to tell me. He just said, if I forget about all that, it's a sign that I don't want to remember. So, no need to remember anymore, and just live with the twins happily. At first I couldn't accept it. But, when I saw the handsome and funny faces of odd and lean, somehow my heart said that I loved them so much. I finally lived my life with umi and the twins until now*.
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