From Dinta
3
"already, I don't have to convoluted use the reason of the stale cake mitu mamah know himself, mamah already see use the eyes of the head mamah himself"
"Your friend is too much, I've obviously done it all but you still don't believe"
"How could you believe that you keep acting like that if you don't...."
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot I melt
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my best-est
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention.
Jason Mraz's song I'm Yours came in to my ears. I really don't want to hear the throws of words with high frequency. I'm tired of all that.
Those high tones have really been heard for the past 3 years at that time and in those months my parents really made the debate and opposition like a hobby and a necessity because it was not lagging behind a single day when they met at home would definitely be a relentless fighting war.
I feel like I want to run away from home wanting to go anywhere far away from those who keep arguing like that.
My song was done I turned, outside was drizzling apparently, I could see it from the window of my room. The debate is no longer heard, but as usual I see Dad's car is not there. It was like that after easing one person would disappear, they disappeared on their own in their own ego.
I went out of the room with my yellow sweater to eat whatever I could eat, this afternoon I did not eat meatballs because I was upset with Arkan who was convoluted not to be honest with me. If you think right now I shouldn't be like that because Arkan is also just my best friend but believe me I don't like Arkan's attitude like that because I think Arkan should be honest with me because of us friend for a long time, he should have believed me and been able to tell me everything. That was my thinking at the time.
After I ate the toast I asked from Bi Nani I came out with my umbrella without knowing the destination.
I walk with a mind that thinks far ahead. Thinking about the future of my family later, while now my father and mother always fight because of unnatural things.
I continued walking and reached the third of the way that came out of the path of my home complex. I became dizzy myself at that time did not know where to go with full awareness I immediately squatted and bowed my head on the folds of both hands and cried.
Maybe about 5 minutes or so I cried in such a position. Until finally my legs and back were quite sore then decided to stand up and suddenly one person with a yellow sweater also stood in front of me.
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" I shouted as loud as I could and quickly the owner of the hand closed his mouth.
"Good God, it's noisy, it's a malem" he said. That's Arkan.
"Arkan" I said with a loud breath.
"It's me, Arkan. Don't be hysterical until I see that I'm used to seeing every day too." Said jail.
"Our fiction is the enemy!" I said then left while seizing my umbrella that he had held because I let my umbrella lay down when I started crying again the rain had subsided actually at that time.
"Had Din hey, wait" he said behind me he seemed to be walking half-run because not long after he had walked parallel to me.
"Aaaahhh cape Din slowly dong his way" he said.
"Weakly" commented.
"H Dinta, still angry? Hmm? Hemh?" Ask while now he walked backwards "sorry yes I want to explain but you want to go away"
Lo berkelitnya. My inner.
"Dintaaa sorry well, come on dong, or are you horrified to explain me everything now well? yeah? yeah?" Ask.
"No need" I replied.
"Ish how do I keep? I know you're angry with me because I'm not honest when I shouldn't hide the trivial matter from you." He said and I stopped while he was still walking backwards and walked forward because I saw him stop. "In sorry?" Ask directly.
"So why is everyone's permission?" I asked him to sniff while he started his way back and he walked backwards.
"I help you sort out Nano's problems with Vino, they were fighting over the girl, until they wanted to fight jotos said the Nandan, who was not involved, I know they're not the same school as me but they're still me. I was in Nandan's chat all of a sudden with him saying that Vino was carrying Piso, he said, I panicked also that's why I went straight there and it turns out they were all right just the enemy that I helped finish. It's just that Nandan made it dramatic." Evidently. Vino Nano and Nandan were friends of Arkan Junior High who were both suspended for smoking in the toilet.
"OK doang?"
"Continue?" I was kind of funny about Arkan's behavior back then.
"No. So sorry, right?" Ask and I stop walking him too.
"Yes" I replied.
"Yeeeeeee thanks Ding dong, I can't help but you ding dong" he said as he moved to my side and rested his head on my shoulder.
"Ah heavy-heavy look out, alay again "I said.
"Hahaha has returned to the usual Ding dong. Why we wear clothes" he said. We wear the same sweater.
"I happen to" I answered.
"They've started to be too small for your sweater, but one year also has not been well" he said.
"Don't know, even though I don't have weight" I replied.
"So wrong shirt?" Ask
"Yes" I replied again.
Actually the sweater is a birthday gift from Arkan last year, the price is not how much but that he inserted from the pocket money and the rest of the cigarettes he said specifically to buy 2 sweaters so the same he said.
"The price is not how much Din is but full of struggle to buy it, I can just ask Bubu and sure will be given but if you ask from the order the effect is different. So I'm sorry it was just that." He said it made me feel overwhelmed even though my feelings were not so far away.
The color of the sweater is yellow, a color that I hate and he chose that color for me to wear. He said deliberately let there be nothing I hate.
"Basic girl. Okay, uh Btw, you cry Din? What's up?" Ask.
"No, who's crying"
"I mean it wasn't now"
"Yes, who is crying isn't ah"
"Well now you're hiding the problem from me, no cry how the person I've been standing in front of you since you first squatted too." Said again.
"But no problem, seriously." My answer.
"yes, why cry? For what? Um same aunt fight again?" Ask slowly.
Arkan knows father and mama who always fight a long time ago but maybe when I used to often story the incident has not been as severe now.
"Always" I replied with a bitter smile.
He grabbed my back with his burly hands and his palms rubbed the ends of my shoulders.
"Maybe there is a problem. Don't think too much. Maybe in the home it is like that. Bubu same dad also likes to fight but definitely better again. Om same Aunt also it's certain they will improve again later" he said like giving peace to a child who lost his candy.
Hearing that from Arkan at that time I just kept quiet with tears that began to fall back like feeling jealous of anyone who had parents who got along.
"Hemhs? Crying again?" Ask and I just sob. "Udah dong Din" he said as he continued to rub my back.
"I'm just as sprained as they are why they always have to fight" I said not too clearly maybe he sounded because I was talking in the middle of my sobs.
"Yes yes I understand, I have not been ko" he said again and hugged me. I don't know what was on my mind at that time but certainly when he hugged me I was even more crying instead of even calm and he just really hugged me at that time without saying anything more.
At that time I realized that Arkan had always been there for me, I felt worried about him whenever there were things that were not good and vice versa, Arkan who was always attentive, I felt worried about him, Arkan that I think is perfect everything I've felt and he showed me a long time ago. I have admitted since long ago I loved him as my best friend even though sometimes I was confused because I felt I did not like if there was a woman close to him besides me and that night I finally admitted everything because it was understand and know more than love as a friend.
That night in February in front of the gates of my house and in the arms of Arkan I decided to anchor my heart to him confessing that all this time the feeling was true Love even though I knew it might not be reciprocated but I still decided to start falling in love with my own best friend Arkan Mahendra.
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