FOREIGN DESIRANT

Episode 30 A Heavy Decision but Should

Rehan meets an invitation to visit Kirana's house. Along the way he tries to strengthen himself, reassure his choices and persuade himself to dare to convey his gratitude to Kirana. He did not want to get immersed in the guilt that would continue to torment him, which would continue to haunt him.

He cried in long prostrations because he felt he had taken many wrong steps to hurt many people even though he did not intend to and this time, he did not want to, one big decision he will make again. The decision he hopes is better for everyone. In the end, he is the one who sacrifices

a feel. In that case, at least only he would be sad.

Arriving at Kirana's house, she couldn't help but stare at the girl. The girl who first filled his heart. His logic forced him to be firm on the final decision he would pass on to Kirana as his heart raged unabated.

Kirana who was insensitive to Rehan's state greeted the young man kindly. The contents of his mind and heart were very different from Rehan's. Kirana was persuading herself that the man before her was the best priest candidate for her. Kirana smiled sweetly as Rehan once again looked at her.

Rehan was fascinated and sad as it seemed that the smile was Kirana's sweetest smile that she had seen for the first and last time. Rehan's body began to heat up, his hands shaking out two notebooks that he had been carrying. One of Kirana's records and the other one Masyita's.

Kirana wondered why there were two books? His premonition said there was something Rehan wanted to say and it was probably very heavy.

Kirana picked up both books. He put down his book and began to open another. Kirana was curious to see Rehan's expression that night. Rehan's eyes were incessantly staring at the book that was in Kirana's hands. Sheet by sheet he read, each sketch in it tells more than just writing in notes

feet on each sketch. Until Kirana finally closed the book, she realized the contents of the book had represented what Rehan wanted to convey.

“I understand now. Rehan doesn't have to say it anymore. I know up until here you're confused. I don't want to be the cause of someone's happiness. Perhaps, It is Masyith who deserves your attention, receive your heart.”Kirana's tears fell along with the words she said to Rehan. Instead Rehan grabbed Kirana's notebook and opened a certain sheet there. He reached out to Kirana and asked her to read the page.

“Looks like I'm the most damaging to the happiness of many parties here.” Rehan's voice said that.

“I don't want my selfishness to ruin more things. Although this is very heavy but I have to convey.”

Rehan took a deep breath trying to calm the rumble in his mind and heart.

“I'm sorry, Kirana. I didn't mean to hurt you and hurt your family. I just can't afford to see a lot of people hurt if I continue my relationship with Kirana.”

“Only that's the main reason?” ask Kirana.

“Because I know Kirana accepted me only as an excuse to forget Alif.”

Hearing that sentence, Kirana complained that she could not refute Rehan's sentence. Because his own heart justifies. That from the very beginning he received Rehan, his heart still and still ticked calling Alif's name.

“Then after this Rehan will choose Masyita? Is that what Rehan wants to say the most?”

“For so long I tried to get a place in Kirana's heart and ventured to propose but somehow the more days I hesitated not being able to make you like me and would not be able to make you happy. There was a heart waiting for me for a long time. Was it wrong of me to choose that heart Kirana? The heart that most wants me to be happy and unharmed?” Kirana realized, what Rehan said was right. Living with the person who wants our happiness the most will be much better than living with someone whose heart still cannot turn away from someone else. As he was on

Aliph.

“I don't blame you, Rehan. That's the best choice. A young man like Rehan deserves a girl as sincere as Masyita. I'm sorry if all this time can't do the same thing Rehan did to me all this time.”

Now he feels guilty for making Rehan disappointed. Rehan's a good young man, it doesn't feel right for Kirana to hurt Rehan. Maybe by ending the ta’aruf process this is the best way. Rehan and Kirana forgive each other and wish they could be happier in the future. Rehan then meets Kirana's parents. With full responsibility he apologized for disturbing the family's days. He bowed his audience and asked Kirana's parents' prayers so that he could become a better young man in the future. Kirana who witnessed it all could only fall silent. Mom hugged Kirana,

strengthen the girl. I know Kirana is having a hard time while Kirana's father is hugging Rehan.

“Rehan deserves to get a lot better. Maybe Kirana who still has to learn more and improve so that later she can accompany young people as well as Rehan.”

Rehan was moved to learn how wise Kirana's father was. He immediately paid a farewell to the Kirana family. He promised to keep his friendship with the family.

The burden on his heart slowly disappeared. He convinced himself that this decision was the best and he was aware

liking Kirana is not a wrong thing even if you can't have the girl. Kirana smiles her story with Rehan ended well even though she did not have to be together. He is grateful to have been liked by the young man as well as Rehan and the premonition that always bothers him lately was answered. No matter how hard man tries to remain God determined. No matter how hard Kirana tried to accept Rehan and Rehan who never gave up expressing his heart to Kirana, if it was not a match, they would never be together.

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