FOREIGN DESIRANT

Episode 19 Doubt

Alif sat down to accompany Hasan's grandfather in the living room while watching the news on television that night, after his prayers. His face was not excited, he was still thinking about Kirana, there was such a deep regret. This is the first time he likes a girl, but he also understands how he must be able to set his heart so as not to dissolve in the feeling until he let everything be hidden, but he also understands how he must be able to organize his heart so as not to dissolve in the feeling until he let everything be hidden, admiring Kirana in silence even though in the end she was unable to stem the feeling. Truly he convinced himself that he could be a good priest even at a young age and when that hope came up he prepared to know Kirana further, Kirana has chosen Rehan. Alif regretted, he was sad, for the first time he expected something very valuable but for the first time also he had to be disappointed. He tried repeatedly to persuade

her heart was sincere, and accepted the fact that Kirana was not for her. He tried to resign even though regret still bothers him and whenever the feeling of regret overwhelms Alif's mind and heart, he immediately took a deep breath and threw it away. Grandfather who realized the change immediately understood, Alif is depressed.

"You have to beat that disappointment. A lot of beristighfar, at first it feels difficult, but later you will understand the disappointment that makes you realize that you really like the girl. This is also a good experience for you, later if you meet someone who makes you really want to protect him, make you feel comfortable, do not waste it. Now that you are not a match, it means that Allah still gives Alif the opportunity to organize yourself better. Ato' sure, you can." Ato's advice to Alif.

Alif nodded slowly, he was well versed with his grandfather's advice. It just takes time to accept that reality.

"Ato, I don't know why there's this worry about Alif for Kirana."

"What's the reason?"

"Either, as Kirana was worried unhappy with her decision, Alif did not want her to do this because she had to."

"Alif once asked him to accept Rehan, Ato', at that time Kirana thought Alif did not like it." continued Alif.

Grandpa who heard that patted Alif's shoulder.

"None of the leaves that fell on the face of the earth without the knowledge of God, He has planned everything including your story and Kirana, keep thinking, pray also Kirana and her choice. Whatever happens in the future, God knows better. Kirana was forced to be unhappy

later, it was the destiny that he had to live from every decision he had chosen. Alif just needs to pray for the best."

Alif agrees with grandfather.

"Will Alif still be able to meet good girls like Kirana, Ato?"

"All depends on Alif, the soul mate is a reflection of ourselves, if Alif is good, then Alif's soul mate is good."

In his heart Alif whispered, "Yes, Ato, a good soul mate like Kirana."

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Not from the bone of the yam

For it is dangerous to leave it in flattery and puja

Not even from the leg bones

Because nothing makes him trampled and enslaved

From the left rib

Close to heart to love

Close to hand to protect

It was then that Rehan first started to notice Kirana. Seeing her get along, judging her appearance, praising her intelligence and admiring Kirana's principle of not wanting to come into contact with the opposite sex. For Rehan it was all special and he finally knew, he liked the girl in a deeper sense.

Rehan remembers every moment between himself and Kirana until he emboldened himself to propose ta'aruf and decided to propose to her. Rehan smiled and looked back at Kirana's photo. Staring at every inch of Kirana's face. His heart began to be sad as he looked into Kirana's eyes.

"Did you really choose me out of your heart?"

"Can I replace Alif there? Wasn't he the first for you?"

Rehan's getting anxious, Kirana, are you happy with all this?

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