FORCED TO MARRY PARIBAN

You're cooling my heart (Grow)

Tara POV

I don't want you to be just a speck of dew accompanying me for a moment, after which it will evaporate or fall to the ground and die.

Sometimes, there are people who just come and go from your life. Like dew that appears in the morning and then evaporates when the sun rises. Even so, it doesn't matter because at least he had time to bring happiness and coolness, right?

Dew, allow me in this short time, explain to you everything. That your hatred for me is mounting it is a misunderstanding. I will sincerely give you to Ardhi, if you truly forgive me.

Be us as Paribans who have a good relationship. Full of brotherly love. Because, I dare not have you, because of your rusty hatred for me.

Don't dare to hope and dream again to have you. When I knew there was a good man who loved you very much and you loved him too.

The hard pat on my shoulder shocked me as I stood on the balcony of the room. I looked to the left, it was Rose. I glanced at him in surprise, confused by his presence in this house. Why is he here? I trust him to take care of our new company in Medan.

"Why are you here?" ask me by raising my head a little. After I turned around and supported my body by holding both my hands on the balcony guardrail.

Rose took a deep breath, then she threw it away violently. Both of his hands held the balcony.

"Our great project in the city of Medan, which handles it now is not Mr. Ardhi anymore. He left everything to his subordinates." Rose said with a little frustration. Staring at me who was now turning around, so that we both met.

"Do we cancel the cooperation? you see, I'm less sure of the trust he appointed." Rose said, still looking at me who looked surprised.

I was wry, Ardhi was really serious about the deal. Closing off his access so as not to deal with me in the least. Because after six months, Ardhi must have asked me to return the Dew.

"Let it be, of course Mr. Ardhi has thought about the consequences. If the work is not good, then we follow-up again." My words are flat, lazy to talk about Ardhi. Remembering that man, makes my heart ache.

"Eeuumm Tara, I accidentally opened your laptop. I'm curious about the name of the agreement file. So I opened it." Rose's words stopped, as I turned to Rose.

"Why is that? is the man whose name is Ardhi in the letter of agreement is Mr Ardhi our business partner?" ask Rose again with a dumbfounded face. I nodded and took a deep breath.

"Waaaahhh why so coincidental. And strangely why would you give Dew to Him, after Dew became your wife? you're still sane, aren't you?" rose asked in disbelief. He put the back of his hand on my forehead. Quickly I took Rose's hand off my forehead.

Rose shook her head. He may feel I'm a bloon, or a madman times huh.

"You should have discussed this with me first. Before making a decision. You base sucked. It's a pleasure to throw a woman out of your life." Rose said in frustration. I glanced at him with a cynical look.

"What do you mean?" many confused.

"Yes, you like to ignore women. For example, I am the one you never responded to and now his own wife is in almsgiving to her boyfriend. That's called crazy. You're normal, aren't you?" Rose was disappointed, maybe Rose thought I had an abnormality.

Naturally Rose judged me like that. Because all the girls who approached me must have retreated on their own, because of my cold attitude.

"Do you not want a family? have friends share in everything?" ask Rose.

"Why do you always repeat that question Ros? looks like we've already talked about it." I said, getting bored with this topic. I need to be calm. Because today is a sacred procession that I have to go through.

"Yes just weird. Not that Dewun is the woman you loved a long time ago." This time Rose laughed at me. I would love to hit his head.

"Look, you want to be a widower." Ask with curiosity. He held my hand that was about to leave him.

I turned around too. "I have to do that. In order not to cause a commotion. Mr. Ardhi and Embun insist they must be together. Mr. Ardhi will bring Dew, however he may

"You put where my handsome face is. The day of the wedding the bride ran away. Am I that bad, so that the bride doesn't marry me?" I said with regret. Who would want to make that ridiculous deal. But, that's the only solution that exists at this perfect time.

"And I could be his successor's bride!" resolute Ros with mimic face meledek. He's such a bitch. Laughing at my suffering.

"Aakhhh it's up to you to say what. Obviously, shut the fuck up. The only ones who know this deal are the four of us. Just so caught by the big family, I'm not reluctant to throw you out of work and no longer want to be your best friend." I said coming back to him. Putting my index finger on her lips clenched.

"Do you not think long, the effect of the covenant is ahead. If you hand over the Dew to his beloved. Surely his family will hate you." Rose's words made me feel sad. Right he said. But, I don't want to think about it first. What matters now is safe.

"I don't want to talk about this Rose. Don't make me more confused and unsettled. Ten o'clock I'll do kabul ijab. It takes extra energy and high concentration to do that. Right now, my heart is already dag dug seeer....!" I said with a peck of annoyance, leaving Rose on the balcony. Headed to the bathroom.

Arriving in the bathroom, I looked at my insecure face in the sink mirror.

I'm completely worthless in the eyes of Dew. I am like filth, which he considers disgusting and unclean. It felt like this chest was so crowded, every look at his hateful gaze. How am I going to live with him for six months?

I still remember, three days ago when we had to go to the Religious Affairs office. To get direction and tausiah from Pak KUA. There was not a single smile on her lips. He never even looked at me. All the questions of the KUA officer were answered correctly. He already knows the intention of Mandatory bathing and procedures to carry it out well. It seems that He had learned it for his preparation if he were to marry Ardhi.

Eehhmmm-again pessimistic myself.

If he wasn't my brother. Maybe it won't make my heart hurt. But, he's my brother, my cousin. Paribanku. Being hated by your own brother, it feels very painful. I had to pretend to be tough, pretend to smile, bring out an impromptu humorous nature to cover up this pain in my unwanted heart.

A loud knock on the bathroom door, rattled me from my slump.

"Tara, take a quick shower, son. We want to eat together with big families and indigenous figures. In a moment, a messenger from our family will escort you to the Dew's house." Mama said with a sad tone. He who knows that Dewun did not marry me. Of course it hit him too. Though Dewun is the woman that Mama coveted to be her parumaen (His daughter-in-law).

"Yes Ma." I replied loudly, immediately speeding up my showers

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At nine o'clock in the morning, we reached the grounds of the house of Dewun. Envoys from my family members quickly took their respective positions to sit in the provided place.

It turned out that Mr. KUA was present and sat dashingly cross-legged. The young-looking Mr. KUA smiled at me as I shook hands with him.

"Just relax Deck, read Prayer, let it be smooth when Ijab kabul." He said, then let go of our hands. I also returned a smile Mr. KUA no less warm.

I'm sure Mr. KUA said that, because He knows I'm nervous and tense right now. It was clearly visible from the expression on my face and my suddenly cold hand.

How I'm not tense. I'm getting married, just an hour away. The ijab kabul. A marriage full of falsehoods. Is this wrong?

For some reason the time is approaching, I feel like my actions are wrong. May I play with a holy promise to God. I should insist on canceling this marriage, let there be a world war. Than the sins I have.

Astarghfirullah..... Oh God, give me peace of heart. Should I cancel today? why do I hesitate to continue this fake marriage.

I still remember Mr. KUA three days ago

'Marriage is not just a faithful promise made before guardians, witnesses, or invited guests when the qabul is spoken. However, it is a promise of love before Allah Rabbul ‘Izzah.

'Wedding is not a spread of charm as many people see weddings need to be celebrated with a festive luxury. However, the true promise of faithfulness contains a very noble purpose that fulfills His Shari'a, runs the sunnah of His prophet, and carries out a great vision, mission, and orientation of love. It is a manifestation of servitude to his Lord, a worship to attain the ultimate happiness of inner birth, the afterlife. If one steps wrong then the consequences are not only miserable in the world, but in the hereafter he loses.' Mr. KUA's advice continues to ring in my mind. I was scared because I made the wrong decision.

Should I cancel it, before it's too late. Yes at least Dew can go back to Ardhi and we are not guilty of playing with this sacred event. It's a fake marriage.