Forced Flow of Life

The Heart that Speaks

On a hill in the city, Yosse sat on the rocks. He straightened his legs, his hands propped his body on the rocks. He stared at the beautiful painting of the Creator. A pinch of orange is visible there. Beautiful but only lost. That was the feeling that had once perched in his heart before evening hit his life.

Yosse kept staring at the slowly disappearing sun. He smiled wryly. So acidic, that he yearns for sugar to neutralize that taste.

"Lord, may I ask? I want to be the old Yosse. The cheerful Yosse, the one who did not hide behind the mask I made myself. I ran, I hid. It can help me hide but only for a moment. I want to take it all off, I want to give it all away. But why God? I still can't."

"Feelings of love, love, disappointment, guilt, and fear, haunt me every day. I don't know what to do but lament."

Yosse had his own monologue.

The mood starts at night. Yosse was still there looking at the darkening sky.

It's really dark. Yosse went from there. He was waiting for his driver in the car.

"Road Sir,"

They drove the car to the Mellano Family residence.

****

"Just got home? Where's Rindang?" mellano asked as Yosse approached her.

Yosse kissed his mother's hand. Then sit next to his mother.

"I had a little business, Ma. Keep shady can not go home. He said he was staying at his friend's house" Yosse explained.

"Okay okay. What do you have to do, Bang?"

Yosse is looking for the right answer. There was no way he could tell the truth from where he was. Because his mother knew it, it was customary for Yosse when he was upset, that Yosse would go to the hill. The hill had become a medicine for Yosse.

"So Yosse nolongin the old man Ma. He needs help. He passed out in the bathroom, Ma."

"Who is Bang? What kind of guy is a girl?" asked Mr. Mellano who came to them.

"Ihhh Papa kepo deh same with the affairs of young people," said Mrs Mellano sewot.

"Lah Papa doesn't kepo, Ma, just nanya. Can't you ask your own child? If it's a girl, who knows she's her boyfriend Brother," seduced Mr. Mellano.

As far as they know, Yosse has never dated. So Mr. Mellano lured Yosse to tell him about having a girlfriend or not.

Yosse's face changed. His love is gone. How is she going to have a boyfriend? thought. Mr and Mrs Mellano caught Yosse's change of face immediately shifting the subject of their conversation.

"Don't you eat?" ask mama.

"Not Ma"

****

The clock shows at 21:00.

Nisa, Okta, and Rindang were laying their bodies on Nisa's bed. Although small, but enough to accommodate the three of them. They slept on their backs while staring at the roof above them.

They decide to stay at Nisa's house, while Dhika, Bagas, and Ivan decide to go home after dinner.

"Ta, Rin" said Nisa. Nisa was still staring at the roof.

"Hem?" muttered Okta and Rindang together. They waited for the continuation of the word that would come out of Nisa's mouth.

Nisa is back. Think of a word that is suitable for him to say.

"Do I have to tell you about my current predicament or not. If I keep it, will I be able to eliminate it myself? But if I tell you, can they help me heal? " he said in his heart.

"Emm you know why I passed out, right?" Nisa bounces her heart to tell stories.

Okta and Rindang were still faithfully silent to listen.

"So I was locked in the toilet. I don't know why I feel like someone is purposely locking me up from the outside. I'm really scared."

The three of them had assumed that the one who locked Nisa was Cecil. Okta and Rindang are still waiting for the continuation of Nisa's story.

"I don't know what happens next. When I realized all I was doing was crying. Something calms me down but I don't know who she is."

Nisa's story makes them feel how beautiful it is to live in the shadows of the past.

"How do I get out of that shadow Ta, Rin? I'm tired, every time I get out of the house I'm scared. And now, when I want to make things right, he comes back to my life, interrupts my life again. I should how?" lirih. His eyes were reddened, clear liquid had already accumulated in the eye fertilizers, ready to be shed.

Okta woke up from her sleep. He looked at Nisa with pity. Okta hinted for Nisa to wake up. Nisa wakes up and hugs her best friend. He cried, but he tried to muffle his voice so that it would not be heard by his family. He did not want his family to know and was sad because of what Nisa experienced. Rindang hugged him. Nisa spilled all her burdens on her best friend.

"Calm Nis, you still have us. Don't think of it as just yourself. There we are, there is Kak Dhika, there is Kak Bagas, there is Kak Ivan Nis. Let's get through it all together. Don't keep everything yourself. Pour in, we're ready to listen." said Okta.

"Yes Nis. Give us your hand, and we will take you with us so that you will not fall."

The words of the two of them managed to make Nisa cry again. This time it was not a sad cry, but a happy cry.

He is grateful to have a friend like them. They are children from the upper class, but they are considerate and care for him without caring about Nisa's background. They embrace him like a brother.

"God thank you for presenting them at this time. God, if I may, I want to have a friend like this God. Until old age," Inner Nisa. He cried while praying and gave thanks in his heart.