Fazila Titipan From Heaven(2)

Disappointed (Matthew)

Time showed at 23:09 when Matthew arrived at the Apartment. Slowly he walked to the sofa and then threw his tired body there. Compared to the pain of getting rejection from the girl of his dreams, he actually felt a deep pain because his confidence had been shattered into pieces. How not, this morning his mother called and urged him to immediately formalize his relationship with Kadek.

With a voice Matthew rejects his mother's request, he says he will introduce the woman he loves next week. And look what's happening now? Matthew was devastated. All this was too painful for his heart. All He knows is that love brings happiness, but right now his world seems to be destroyed just because of love and He does not know where to stand.

"Lord... Are you punishing me for not acknowledging your existence all along? Or are you so angry with me that you can separate me from the woman of my dreams?"

Matthew took a deep breath but the tears could not stop coming out of his net shade.

"Why would you let me live if you knew a wound of this magnitude would cripple my soul and body? I've never felt this much sorrow before." Matthew said again, He tried to get up from the sofa and walk to the bathroom to wash his pathetic looking face.

"Lord... I'm shattered. So devastated that I dare not look me in the mirror." Again Matthew spoke to himself, hoping that the wound in his heart would heal along with the silliness he said.

"The Miss I have, the love I keep, the woman I adore are all useless. I'm so stupid I can't see any other love in my woman's eyes."

Ahhhhh!

Matthew shouted harshly. His right hand moved quickly then hit the mirror that was in front of him.

If other people see the childish behavior of a Matthew Adyamarta, then they will definitely think Matthew is very stupid, when in fact love that makes him feel such a big wound.

"Lord... Why don't you just predestine me with her?"

"If he was not created for Me, then why do you cultivate this useless love in my heart? Why?" Matthew yelled again, He didn't even notice his hands that were starting to bleed. Instead of pulling out the broken glass that stuck in his hand, Matthew clasped his hand instead, because it was not his hand that hurt but his heart.

"He slapped me!"

"He ignored me!"

"He ignored me!"

"For him I'm just a storm that will destroy his quiet life. Should I curse myself because I am so easily in love with her beautiful charm?" For the umpteenth time Matthew spoke in a tone of despair.

He came out of the bathroom and walked back slowly. There was nothing else Matthew wanted to say in his anger, because the energy He had would not bear the weight of the rejection he got tonight.

"I'm ruined. I've been ruined!" Matthew muttered as he walked slowly towards his room located beside the living room, The apartment that had been clean now looks like a broken ship, regardless of anything, Matthew began throwing things that could reach his hand, even in some parts, drops of Matthew's blood began to hit the floor.

Debukkk!

Matthew again threw his tired and tired body in a large bed. He was crying but making no sound, there was a wound but it was not visible, there was anxiety but did not know what to do.

It hurts!

It hurts so much, that's how Matthew feels now.

Time passed, love became dusty, and in his veins flowed the throbbing of disappointment, growing together empty.

With you, falling in love is a death that waits for time. But one thing you need to know, I still can, and I'm still strong enough to miss you even though it's obvious my miss is never a reply from you. Inner Matthew while forcing himself to close his eyes, He hopes that this night will pass quickly and not leave a gaping wound, He hopes that tomorrow will arrive with a new story that brings a happy network. Would that be possible? I don't know, Matthew himself doesn't know the answer.

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