EPOCHS

Chapter 52

“Alief, your body is hot, son. Oh my God, forgive Mama dear. Mama apologizes.” said Kinza panicked when she found out that her child had a high fever. Kinza hugged Alief tightly while crying over his stupidity. Kinza really felt guilty and deeply regretted his ego.

Kinza hurriedly called her husband, Al. Hopefully Al will answer his phone even though the relationship between the two is still not improving. All Kinza had in mind was one, the safety of his son Alief.

“Hallo, what's up, Dek?” ask Al across the phone. His voice sounded softer.

“Mas go home now, yes. Alief high fever!” reply Kinza with a panicked face.

“Yes, Mas's home now. You are ready, yes, once Mas comes we immediately leave.”

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Without waiting for a response from Kinza, Al immediately turned off his phone at that moment. He rushed home and picked up Kinza and his son to be taken to the hospital.

While at home, Kinza was busy putting on a thick jacket for Alief who kept crying. Kinza is crying now. He was panicking, anxious, and feeling scared.

Moments later, the sound of the roar of the car was heard, along with the rain falling to the ground. Al opened the door immediately and patted Kinza as well as Alief.

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“Why can I think of this? Alief was fine this afternoon. You don't do weird things, do you?!” al asked coldly when they got home. Alief was sentenced to high fever because his stomach did not get food intake for nearly five hours.

“M - sorry, Mas. I forgot to feed Alief. I'm too busy on my own world.” reply Kinza with fear. Al's hands clenched, emotions leading her now.

“Yes Allah, Deck! Why did you forget that anyway? You know that was a fatal mistake?! Good thing Alief only has a fever, if something worse happens how?! You still want to put your emotions forward, huh?!” Al seemed to raise his voice a little. He was really disappointed by Kinza's arbitrary actions according to him.

“Sorry, Mom. I'm khilaf, I forgot all the things.” said Kinza while shedding tears.

“No need to shed your crocodile tears, Dek! You cry so I don't get angry with you, right? So you can't blame me, so?!” al-tandas is getting emotional.

Kinza wiped away her tears. “Ngak, Mom. That's not my intention at all! These tears are proof of my regret for abandoning Alief. I'm really sorry, Mom! I admit my terrible mistake. I know, I was wrong here!”

“Yes, this is all your fault, Dek! Your mind is still a child. You are not an adult yet, you cannot be professional and think clearly! Your job is just jealousy and jealousy. This is wrong, Dek! Your bad prejudice is too great on me! That's not good for a relationship! Your ego will only ruin our love story!” Al let out the emotions that were in his heart. They were fighting in front of a poor baby who was sick with a fever. Both are deeply absorbed in their emotions. They were both at the peak of their highest emotions.

“Iya, Mas, yes. It's all my fault! I deserve to be blamed now! You're right, I'm wrong. You are holy, I have many sins. Now what do you want? What do you want, Mom?! You want a divorce? You want us to split up?! Does this want you, Mas?”

“Honestly, I don't know what else to do. My heart is already hurting, Mom. I'm heartbroken. Very! Moreover, get a clash of you who bertubi tubi. Don't you think, Mom? Your attitude can even more damage our relationship quickly. That's more fatal! Because you have hurt my heart. Talking in a high tone and making me flinch. I'm disappointed in you, Mom! You have disappointed me. You're evil!” Kinza was crying. Her chest feels tight. He felt that no one cared about him. Kinza really felt the world was unfair to him.

Kinza covered her face with both hands. She cried while covering her face which was already in tears.

The sound of crying echoed throughout the room. Along with raindrops and dark nights. Of course it was getting into Kinza's heart. It made the girl dissolve in sadness and regret.

Al speechless. He was silent after hearing all the words that came out of Kinza's mouth. Now his heart is like it's on a hundred daggers. So painful and painful.

Slowly Al's body approached, he squatted in front of Kinza. Holding Kinza's hand on her face. However, Kinza quickly brushed off the touch of Al's hand.

“Don't touch me! Go, Mas!” throw Kinza out while hugging his own knee. The woman continued to cry while sobbing.

Al felt guilty for hurting his wife. Her emotions could not be held back causing anger to be vented on Kinza. Al really felt guilty.

“Mas sorry, Deck. I don't mean to be rude to you. Mas wrong, please forgive Mas.” said Al while pleading. Her eyes were wet, Al was crying.

Kinza silently did not reply, she mute a thousand languages with tears still present.

“Udah lah Mas, do not need to be discussed again. My heart hurts because of your words. Now what do you want? You want to split up? You want us to divorce? Or you want another one, say the same to me now!” Kinza wiped her tears violently.she then got up and sat on the bed.

“Ngak Deck. That's not what I wanted. I don't want to separate, I don't want to divorce. Please, Dek never say that. I really don't want that to happen. I love you so much, Dek. I can't live without you.” Al pleading on Kinza's knee. His position was still crouching in front of Kinza.

Kinza silenced as he threw his face the other way.

“I need time, Mas. I need time to heal my sick heart. I need to be alone and away from you for a few days. We must be able to calm our minds each.” said Kinza with her lips shaking violently. He said that while shedding tears. Again she cried. Her heart hurts.

Al frowned. He was too shocked by Kinza's unreasonable desire for him. “Dek, what do you mean by each, yes?” al asked a little confused with his thoughts. Could it be that what was on his mind was the same as what Kinza would have wanted.

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Kinza Irsyania Malik POV

“Yes Allah, Deck! Why did you forget that anyway? You know that was a fatal mistake?! Good thing Alief only has a fever, if something worse happens how?! You still want to put your emotions forward, huh?!”

“No need to shed your crocodile tears, Dek! You cry so I don't get angry with you, right? So you can't blame me, so?!”

“Yes, this is all your fault, Dek! Your mind is still a child. You are not an adult yet, you cannot be professional and think clearly! Your job is just jealousy and jealousy. This is wrong, Dek! Your bad prejudice is too great on me! That's not good for a relationship! Your ego will only ruin our love story!”

“Mas sorry, Deck. I don't mean to be rude to you. Mas is wrong, please forgive Mas.”

“Ngak Deck. That's not what I wanted. I don't want to separate, I don't want to divorce. Please, Dek never say that. I really don't want that to happen. I love you so much, Dek. I can't live without you.”

It hurts me to remember this conversation. It feels like the world is against me. No one cares about my feelings.

I was wrong, but should I get a long stretch from Mas Al? Do I deserve that treatment? Am I worthy of Kasari? Am I that low and sehina?

“I want to leave this house for a while. I want to calm my heart and mind, Mom. So, let me get out of this house for a while. Alief let me take her!”

Did Kinza Irsyania Malik really say that? Is she really ready to face all of her alone even if it is only temporary? Is Kinza really going to do that?

Yeah, correct. My determination is complete to leave this house. Although it is temporary, but my wish can be so useful. Very handy. My mind can be peaceful and peaceful without looking at the troublemaker.

I'm not just avoiding Mas Al, I'm not just trying to calm my mind. But also, to heal the heart wounds that were scratched by Mas Al's speech. Her taste was so painful at being snapped by her own husband. Pain is not playing!

Mas Al looked at me in disbelief. He was very surprised by my words that were considered playful by him. Though I'm serious, my determination is already unanimous about leaving this house for a while. Of course Alief will I take with me.

“You're kidding, aren't you, Dek? You're just pretending, right?” ask him to make sure. I'm shaking.

“Ngak, Mom. This time I'm serious. I really want to get out of this house for a while. I want to clear my mind and heart.” said I kekeuh will still go. But Mas Al's face was riled up.

“Dek, where are you going? Can I just come with you? Can we take another road? Please, don't do this.” racau Mas Al begged me to stay here. But again, I made up my mind and wanted to leave.

“Ngak, Mom. There's no other way. This is the only way to make me feel better. Whether you agree or not, I don't care. I will definitely leave here!” I still insist on staying away from Mas Al. He looked chaotic, his face looked frustrated.

“But where are you going, Dek? How-how long? It's interracial, huh, honey? Mas will not let you go alone.” said Mas Al while pleading with me. But I don't mind him. I got up from my seat and walked over to the wardrobe. Put in a few pieces of clothes for me to bring later. Don't forget to include some baby clothes for Alief. I put it all in one suitcase.

Mas Al continued to follow my steps as he continued to plead. But I don't care at all. Until in the end, sreekk, he pulled my hand forcefully so that my activities stopped.

“Stop, Deck! Please stop! Tell me where are you going now? Otherwise, I will never let you go. I won't give permission to you one bit. Remember, Dek, breaking the husband's orders is his law of sin!” firmly Mas Al while gripping my shoulder firmly. I was in pain because of his actions.

“I want to go to Mama's house. I made sure my heart and mind would be calm. Peace and peace I will find there! Not in this battalion, let alone in this house!” my toilet was quick to rebel. I released the grip of Mas Al's powerful hand. Despite losing steam, but I kept pushing it and in the end could.

“Let me drop off, huh? Let me take you to Mama's house. I don't want you to Deck. Moreover it's already night.” Mas Al offered help. I want to refuse, but I can't. I'm sure Mas Al will never let me out of this house alone unattended.

I shook my head weakly, “Ya!”

I hunted down the body of Alief who was fast asleep. His sleep was peaceful because he had just been given fever medicine. Alief seemed to be enjoying his sleep but had to be disturbed because of me.

I'm sorry, Mom, yeah, kid. Mama really has to do this so Alief doesn't get hit by his rocks. Forgive my selfishness. Really, Mama didn't mean to starve Alief. Mom feels very guilty. Please forgive your sins, yes, Lief. Mama loves you! I said sedu while hugging the body of Alief who was still a little hot. He seemed disturbed, but not to the point of crying.

After that I left the house. Outside there was Mas Al in the car, as well as one suitcase and milk bag belonging to Alief.

I stared at Mas's house carefully. Watching every inch of the house I leave behind. Although temporarily, but of course I will miss him. Every moment.

Goodbye to green houses. Goodbye to bitter memories. Fine, yeah. Take care of Mas Al. Let no evil eye enter this house.

See you next day.