EPOCHS

Chapter 51

Kinza Irsyania Malik POV

Al has gone to the office. Now I'm the only one left bathing Alief. This gimbul is very happy to play water. So, it took a long time to bathe her.

“Da - da di - di.” (shower cuttings) said his arid while banging water. Hey, get all this wet. Take a shower again when I've had a bath, huft. Alief is indeed fond of playing gini water. Long time in the bathroom. Forgive me!

“Honey already, yes, take a shower. We'll take part in Persit's activities first, okay!” I said while lifting and wrapping his gimbul body with a towel. He cried, not stopping.

“Eh eh ko nangis, the shower is done, son. Later in the afternoon at a later date, yes.” Alief remains crying, he is still not satisfied soaking in the bathtub. Gustiii, it could be late this mah.

“Da - from - diii.” (Dedek bathiii) said as he thrashed asking to be put down.

“Iya, dear yes. Five minutes is fine, yes. Tumben once asked for additional. Mama can be late, you know.” said I resigned while lowering his body into the bathtub. Alief was excited and immediately hit the water.

Five minutes passed. Once I felt enough, I immediately lifted her body from the bathtub. And yes, she is not crying anymore. Like knowing and obeying my words. Very smart Mama's son.

Then I deftly dressed Alief. Short sleeve t-shirt bear motif, complete with his matching pants. And his favorite knitting hat. Alief is getting handsome. A little viewed especially in kiss. She's super fragrant babyiii.

Today I set out alone, because Mbak Amira and Bu Yonathan have gone to the hall. They didn't leave me, but I was the one who told them to go first. Because, Alief is still not ready for me to bathe. She's still a mess, just like me getting wet again and having to shower twice.

“Ma - ma da - da ma - mm.” (Mama Dedek ate) she kept babbling while eating her favorite milk-flavored Promina biscuits. Scraping everywhere is okay, the important thing is that Alief's stomach is full, hiks.

We started to leave. Walk through the houses of married soldiers. The houses are all green and overgrown with green plants. Some are small, some are big. Anyway different.

“Alief has taken a shower, yes, very handsome.” greet a girl in white ash uniform. The son of one of the soldiers in this dorm. Son of Jonathan's Mother.

“Iya Della's sister, thank you." said I imitate the style of baby language. The girl named Della kissed and pinched Alief's cheek in a fit of anxiety.

“Kakak Della just left? How long is it?” ask me kindly.

“Iya Aunty, today enter noon school. But want a meeting OSIS so leave at this hour deh.” reply Della immediately. I nodded in understanding.

Ah yes, leaks about my closeness to the residents of the dormitory. I can say that I am the friendliest person in this dorm. I am respected for my kind nature and well-come to everyone. Yes how the hell, Mama and Mother-in-law always teach to be humble even though the rank of husband is high. Keep up good relations on all residents of the dormitory. Indiscriminate and status. Because, all of them are equal.

Not only amiable and well-come to mothers, I am also friendly to the children who are here. Starting from the baby, until the already college even once. So, no wonder if when passing through these green houses, I was greeted by many people.*when the original must greet each other, ups.

“Bella leaves for school first, yes, Auntie. Assalamualaikum. ” saying goodbye to Della while kissing my hand and kissing Alief's cheek.

“Wa'alaikum sallam, be careful brother Della!” reply kurama while waving Alif's hand.

“Ta - ta.” (Drug) said Alief with a smile. Uh, it's funny this kid.

All right, let's continue the journey. It's been a few minutes late, must have reprimanded Mother Commander, hiks.

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Thirty-five orphans have been recorded. I made the report and I handed it over to the commander's mother. Also, some proposal sheets, I leave them to the treasurer so that the money can go down soon.

At one noon the agenda of the Persit meeting this time is finished. My body was tired and tired, because it was quite far away to walk down the house to the house of the people who were around the outside of the dormitory. Added by seeing the closeness of Mas Al and Mbak Amira. Instead of working, they were busy talking haha hihi on the side of the road. Without caring about me who was already burning jealous flames.

I entered the house in a hurry. Want to quickly drink ice water to dampen emotions. I feel jealous, my heart is burning hot. It felt unethical to see my husband and his letting sister chatting so idly. Even they did not care about me who was looking at them with anger.

I know, Mas Al was just told by the commander to pick us up. But, what happened Mas Al instead chat with mbak Amira. So that Madam Amira forgets her obligations. I wanted to rebuke, but Jonathan's mother forbade me. He said dampen my emotions first, let them be like that now. The problem of Ms. Amira, let the commander mother herself who cracked down on her directly.

I just resigned. I don't want this problem to be too protracted anyway. Maybe they were just chatting normally, so there was nothing to worry about. But still, my heart was burning hot flames of jealousy. I don't accept my husband being close to another woman. Because, which woman willing her husband close to other women. There's no, is there?!

“Dek, Alief cry it out. How do you keep?” tanya Mas Al stopped my activity drinking ice water. I don't mean to silence an Alief like that. I'm just being emotional. I don't want my emotions to escalate and hurt my own feelings. I don't want Alief to get hit by the rock.

Al went into the kitchen with a sigh. Maybe he doesn't know what makes me like this. Or maybe pretend you don't know. I don't know, I'm confused myself.

Long enough to wrestle with his activities, Mas Al returned to my room without taking Alief. Maybe Alief had gone to sleep because he was too tired after walking a long distance. I understand.

Al sat next to me. He then opened his PDL shoes without staring at me at all. “Mas knows you're angry. You know you're jealous. But can you be a little professional, Dek?” said Mas Al without looking at me. He remains focused on his activity of removing PDL shoes. I'm rattled.

My brain reflexes were filled with questions. “What do you mean, Mas?" I asked while turning my head towards Mas Al. He stopped his activity.

“Dek, are you angry because you saw Mas talking to Amira? According to your vision, did you seem to enjoy the conversation? Laughing all the way around, haha hihi by the roadside? Mas tau, Deck. Because Mas also pay attention to you.” firmly Mas Al cold. His face looks flat.

“Think of being positive first. I never enjoyed our conversation. Amira just asked about the dormitory and what events are usually done in this battalion. I swear, no other language!” her splices were cold even though her face looked flat. Maybe I was disappointed with my ABG-like behavior.

But I stick to my stance, I do not like to see his closeness either on purpose or not. Especially while laughing without regard to others. Pain is not playing watching it happen. I'm so jealous to wear it!

“Keep why are you laughing so much, Mas? Haha hihi on the roadside without caring about me who stares dislike towards the two of you. Indeed there is, the discussion about the dormitory that needs to be laughed at? You think this is a joke, Mom? You enjoyed the conversation, didn't you, Mas?! What do you think my heart is made of, huh?! I'm jealous, Mas, I'm heartbroken!” wash it off while shedding tears. My emotions exploded and finally took out everything in my heart.

Mas Al remained silent as he gulped his saliva forcefully. She's upset.

“Keep accusing me as you please, Dek! Everything that happened to me and Amira, it all goes against everything on your mind! I didn't enjoy the chat at all, I just answered and behaved like a soldier to the mothers of Persit. That's enough! There's nothing else!" it's cold.

“What to do while laughing so?” ask me.

“What should be stiff? Like talking to soldiers? I also have an estimate, Dek. I know the conditions, know how to deal with a lot of people. There is no way I judge when someone asks for an explanation and an answer. You are so weird!” reply Mas Al to reverse my words quickly. I lost a landslide.

“But, Mas, your chat with Mbak Amira is unnatural. You seem to enjoy it. You guys got swept up in that chat!” I said I blamed Mas Al. I still don't like it, no matter what.

“You only dissolve in the flames of jealousy. I swear by anything, I didn't enjoy the conversation. I answered only Amira's words. There is no other purpose than to enjoy the conversation! You're wrong, Dek! I'm nothing like what's on your mind!” Al went out from in front of me. He nodded after saying so. Am I wrong? I'm not reckless, that's what I caught based on my observations. I can't be wrong!

“Mas where you going?!” ask me a little raise his voice, he's indifferent. Not answering or turning around, not even looking. He's really mad.

“I do not want to see you until you can think clearly and your emotions have succeeded in redam. It's free to talk that your ego and emotions are still enveloping your heart. It's never gonna be finished, Dek! What is there is just muddy the atmosphere. I don't want to make a rift in our household. You finish your emotions first.” said Mas Al while going to his workspace. He left me alone befriending ego and emotions.

I can't be wrong. I can't just accuse Mas Al. It's based on reality, according to what I saw. I can't be wrong!

“You are evil, Mas! You brought me alone with a million questions in my brain! You are evil, you are changing! You've never behaved like this before. You changed Mas, hiks - hiks.." My tears spilled right then and there. I cried while hugging my own knee. I'm jealous! I - I'm heartbroken! I don't like to see my husband close to other women! my heart hurts so much, hyks.

My tears echoed throughout the room. No matter what the circumstances. Meanwhile, Mas Al came out of his study and left this house. I don't know where he's going. He didn't say anything to me. Mas Al just dressed in a fried uniform with nothing but a cell phone, after that left this house without even talking to me. Tega he did that.

But you want to leave me alone in a mess like this! I said according to what I saw. I saw you enjoying that conversation with Madam Amira. Am I wrong? Is this jealousy wrong? It's only natural that I act like that, because I love you! I don't want you to get close to any woman but me! I don't like it! my mind keeps on thrashing. I did not expect the end would be like this. I did not expect Mas God would leave me in a state of glass like this.

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The sky tonight looks cloudy. Shortly after, the rain fell on the streets. As if knowing the circumstances, nature seemed to be on my side. It's cloudy, like the state of my heart. Wet, like my eyes. I was muddled with an unrelenting cry, followed by an Alief cry that echoed throughout the room.

I offered ASI, but she refused. “What do you want, Lief? Please understand, Mama. Don't muddy the mood. Mama beg.” said me while holding Alief.

With my cries and Alief still echoing, I walked towards the kitchen. While continuing to carry his body. I intend to make food for Alief. So that he is silent and not fussy.

I just realized, Alief hasn't eaten anything since this afternoon. It's all my fault. I didn't give him any food. Too focused on the problems that are happening to me without caring about the people around me.

A sense of regret seeped into my body. I'm so guilty of letting Alief starve. I'm really a useless mother, hiks.

“Pardon Mama, yes, Lief. Mama didn't mean to hurt Alief. Mama didn't mean to starve Alief. Forgive Mama, forgive all your selfishness. Dear Mama Alief, very!” I said with a feeling of guilt. While continuing to carry Alief, I made the team porridge for Alief to eat. Even though my chest was tight, I strengthened it so that Alief would no longer starve.