Dusk Limit Towards the Morning (Rain)

a long night

Tonight was empty and nervous to imagine tomorrow. Will everything be okay? My heart was beating so hard. Is this the best choice? I have convinced my heart many times but still there is a feeling of doubt and doubt. There was doubt in my heart for my marriage. Will I be happy? Will he love me sincerely?Will he treat you well? He's not the Leandricho I used to know.

I searched the phone in the bag while sitting at the dresser, "I'd better send a message to Leandricho to let him know that Dad's agreeing to give me the house." Mumbles.

Instead of sending a message I pressed the phone button, "Geez. How'this? What the hell am I doing? I can't just turn off the phone. Why am I so stupid!" My meaning to myself.

"You know how else! I have to face it." My words took a deep breath.

"Will he pick up my phone." I murmured inwardly as I stared at the phone screen without blinking once.

"Ahhhhh... He picked up the phone." I murmured in my heart while putting my phone in my ear.

"Why are you calling me these nights!" Shouted someone from across the phone.

"DEG." It was as if my heart had stopped beating for a while. My heart hurts. Right now I feel happy and sad at the same time.

I'm trying to muster up my courage, "I'm sorry if I bother you. I just wanted to tell you about the house back then." I answered nervously.

"Tell me! You don't have to make small talk." Leandricho still raised his tone. Like he didn't want to talk to me for long.

"Dad agreed to give us a home. Exactly the house in the Elhas area." I told Leandricho.

"Good then." His words felt satisfied.

"I didn't think we'd get married tomorrow." I said without even thinking about it and just came out of my mouth.

"Haha... Isn't this what you want." She insinuates.

Does he hate me so much that he acts like this. I bit my lips. "Do you really not want this marriage?" I asked to hold the tightness that was in the chest. My eyes began to glaze over and feel hot.

"Huh..Are you pretending to be stupid or are you not aware of it. From the beginning this marriage wasn't for love and I was just checked by my family." He shouted firmly.

Now I know that he does not love me. He did all this because he had to. Butwhy? Why is it like this? This marriage was a request from her family. But why is she acting like this matchmaking from my family. I can't hold back my tears anymore.

I stepped onto the bed and sat on it hugging the pillow, "I'm sorry if I made a mistake. We can cancel this wedding." I said in a cold tone.

I was holding back all the symptoms that came up. It's true that I love him so much. I want to be with him my whole life. But as with Leandricho, maybe again this marriage is a prison for him.

"You need not add to the problem with your arrogant attitude. Everything will go as you want." He said in a cold tone.

"What do you mean?" Leandricho asked as if a time bomb had exploded.

"You know for yourself tomorrow there will be many guests coming and it's not just ordinary guests. I just don't want any rumors that embarrass the Albregatte and Monarustichell families." Obviously to him. On the other hand I also did not want to see Mitha's face.

"Keep if it's that way. I'll keep your word this time and not next time." Reply Leandricho.

"That means so much to you?" My question felt tight at Leandricho's attitude towards Mitha.

"Yes he means a lot to me. Because she's a good woman. Not like you're full of evil tricks." Answer berated me.

I smiled wryly at what Leandricho said, "Huh.. You said well? It's because you don't know the truth. If you know what has been done. You will definitely regret having defended him like this." I cannot stand Leandricho's trust in Mitha.

"Enough Gea! I don't want to argue with you!" Maki Leandricho was full of annoyance.

"I didn't meet you. I only told you about Mitha. You know that brother he's dead?" I'm the one who started provoking Leandricho.

"Yes, her brother died in an accident." Leandricho replied slowly like he was still remembering.

"Haha..." I laughed insults.

"Why are you laughing you sly woman." Leandricho.

"I laugh at your stupidity. You just believe that it was an accident? I didn't think you were so stupid. Ask Mitha and tell her to answer honestly. He was either an accident or there was a plan behind it all." I kept provoking Leandricho hoping that the trust he gave Mitha would fade.

"I will still believe Mitha. You're the demon woman Gea. I'm sick of you. You don't deserve to be loved and happy." Shouted Leandricho cursing and turning off his phone.

It was then that I began to come to my senses, which I said did not weaken his trust in Mitha. But the thicker the wall of hatred he built for me. My mind is starting to get messed up. Everything disappears lest Leandricho love me, just hoping that now he can no longer. My head's bowed. My tears are flowing down my cheeks. The feeling of tightness is becoming. But what can be done is already happening and can not be repeated again. I can only face it.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow, will she come and marry me. Or he would go along with Mitha. Regardless of the public's differences about these two great families.

My head wants to break. My heart is beginning to worry. And frustration is approaching. I'm stupid. And I'm really stupid. I've survived for so long. But why for now I can't hold it anymore. I will soon be married. Just wait until tomorrow but why can not hold yes even for a second.

My words to Leandricho about her sister Mitha. Reminds me of what happened in High School. When Mitha found out about my match with Leandricho and she started to stay away from me. At first I wanted to talk about the matchmaking matter with Mitha so that she would not misunderstand. But he wouldn't talk to me one bit. Then I accidentally followed Mitha. Wish he would talk to me and talk about the match.

But at that moment I was stunned and felt that Mitha was really scary. I was able to release Leandricho to Mitha. So that I can still be friends with him. But after seeing the incident, I couldn't let go of Leandricho for someone like him. From then on I kept quiet without explanation to Mitha and was mediocre as she walked away from me then blatantly hostile towards me.

I did it all for Leandricho. But at the moment everything is beyond my expectations. Leandricho was with Mitha and could not be denied any more.