Dusk Limit Towards the Morning (Rain)

about the past

Today was so tiring, I enjoyed a cup of coffee and sat on the back porch of the mansion while looking at the fish pond at night. Feeling calm and comfortable, from yesterday my heart continues to feel unbecoming. The mind drifted over because Leandricho's increasingly cold attitude made our distance even more distant. Was my decision wrong? If it's true, can I fix it? Even if I fix it, can he come back with me again? There are so many questions in my head, but there is no answer to all of them.

"Geea?" I saw me alone and daydreamed.

"Dad? Why is Dad here?" Curious because as far as I know Dad will never come out to the back porch of the mansion at night.

"Dad heard from Bi Anne that from earlier you were on the back porch of the mansion by yourself while daydreaming. Is there anything that is a burden on your mind." Ask Dad to make sure.

"Aah.... No Dad. Just ask feels comfortable and calm like this. Enjoying the night air and also the view of the pond that was exposed to moonlight was very pleasant Dad." I answered while looking at the pool.

Dad sat down near me, "How was that trying on a dress? Does the dress match what you expect." Dad looked at me.

"Everything's fine Dad, the dress is also what I think." Answer me smiling with satisfaction.

"Father did not think that Dad's son was grown and grew into a mature girl. And I'm still surprised when you're getting married soon." I looked at the pool with a faint smile.

"Dad thought I was still a child. Gradually I will also grow up to be a married adult girl with children and become a grandmother. Isn't Dad like that?" I obviously told Dad.

"Truly grown-up words. If you think of your mother like this, if she were alive, she would love to see her child grow up as mature and smart as you." The look on Dad's face changed, as if there was a burden in Dad's heart about Mom. About being sincere, right, dad when Mom left? Or about me getting married? I don't know the exact answer whatever it is I'll make me happy.

I looked at Dad's face, rubbed his cheeks that were starting to not tighten anymore huh. Dad is old, "Mom's happy in Dad's heaven, I'm sure you'll see us from there now." My eyes are not off my father's face.

"Right, your mother must be happy there and see us from a distance." Dad Timpal.

"Are you happy about this marriage?" Ask Dad to look at me seriously.

"What do you mean, Dad?" I asked back without giving an answer to Dad's previous question.

"Are you really happy to be married to Leandricho?" Dad clarified the question.

I smiled, "Dad knew a long time ago that I loved him. Now he and I are getting married. I must be happy. Get someone I really love." I convinced dad.

"Good then, I hope you can put your own happiness first. Youunderstand? Because I never had time to make Mom happy. And for now I want you to be really happy." Dad told me to choose the path that made me happy.

"Yes, Father, accept the advice of Father." I feel happy.

"Dad? How did Mom and Dad meet?" I asked to bring up the past of Father and Mother out of curiosity.

"Haha.... That's a long time ago." Dad laughed as I asked Dad and Mom's past.

My eyes sparkled and I was eager for Dad to tell me about the incident when Mom and Dad met until they could get married.

"From a young age Dad was good friends with Charles, and at that time he and Charles attended a party. And accidentally met your mother, your mother is a very beautiful girl. At first sight Dad was enchanted by her beauty, so were Charles and the man who was at the party." Dad started the story.

A few seconds after, "Dad tried to get close to him and get acquainted with Charles as well. Your mother's clan is Eltrada. After the party Dad was looking for the Eltrada family, it turns out your mother was the son of a rich man in the village of Irola, so Dad persuaded your grandfather to make a marriage agreement with the family. In the end we got married. It was Charles who supported your father and mother." Obviously Dad with a smile.

"Gee....You must have been very happy then Dad." I smiled broadly listening to Dad's story that looked so happy.

"I was happy then, but what made me happier was your birth. Mom and Dad are happy with your presence. Even a week later your mother got sick and died." When Dad said that Mom died as if his breathing felt heavy, his face was so sad it made me not bear to let Dad tell her further.

"Dad." I looked at Dad who started to tear up.

"I'm sorry Dad, you shouldn't have told me this." I'm sorry to remind you about Mom.

"It doesn't matter Gea. You also need to know the true story. The villa in the village of Irola used to be where your mother lived. I haven't been there for a long time because I can't hold back old wounds." Father who looks so sad.

"Villa's? The villa you told me about a long time ago?" Ask me to clarify.

"It's the Villa I used to tell you." Answer Father.

"Dad? Can I visit there?" I asked Dad, hoping that I could go there to meet Mom's past.

"Aren't you getting married in 10 days?" Asked Father who was surprised when he heard my question earlier.

"Ah... Do you want to go to your mother's grave and ask for your blessing?" Then Dad asked me.

My eyes began to glaze over, breathing became increasingly heavy, "Yes Dad, I want to go there and see Mom. I miss Mom too. Father." My chest felt tight even though I couldn't see the look on Mom's real face. Only through a photo can I see him holding her and talking to her even though there is no answer. I miss Mom so much, I just wanted to hug her. Lying that I'm okay without you. I was really tormented, tormented because I missed a mother's affection.

"Mother I'll definitely see you, I miss you." I murmured in my heart.

"It's been... My son cannot cry. My son must be strong. Make me proud in heaven there." I wiped my tears.

"Thank you Dad, I won't let you down with Mom and Dad." I'm certain.

"It's so good that this new one called Dad's son." Dad hugged me tightly.

"Dad allowed you to go to the Villa, but I hope you can take care of yourself there." Father reminded.

"Daddy, I'll definitely be fine there." I reassured Dad and let go of his embrace.

"Go back to your room, it's almost late at night and the night wind is getting colder. I'm afraid you'll catch a cold if you don't get in." Dad told me to come in.

I followed what Dad told me because Dad was the only person I could trust even though sometimes there were demands I had to take from Dad.