DRUCLESS [AS PUBLISHED]

Deja Vu

Deja vu, everyone must have felt it (experienced). However, this is not de javu. It really happened in the past.

(Virlin Natrissya)

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It felt like my body was so light, like it was floating, or maybe floating. Both my eyes felt heavy. My ears can't hear anything. Too quiet. Completely silent. I can't hear anything.

Am I dead?

Something was flowing in my lungs. The more I tried to breathe, the more it kept coming in.

Am I in the water?

I coughed and my throat hurt. Along with that, both of my eyes opened wide.

I really am in the water! And from inside here, I saw something....

Red moon?

Even though I was in the water, I could still see the sky, although it was not very clear.

My body seems to be drowning in here. The longer, the more my body sinks and it will touch the bottom of this river.

More and more water entered my body through my slightly open nose and mouth. I saw a shadow swimming from the surface approaching me.

I'm trying to see it clearly.

Men's....

He was in front of me. Before my back touched the bottom of the river, the man grabbed my hand and tightly hugged my body. He swam to the surface and took me.

Slowly but surely, I could see his face.

That guy's....

Raefals?

Is he still alive?

We got to the surface.

"Huaahhhh!" Raefal takes in the fullest oxygen. While I coughed while tightly hugging his neck.

There's Nayshilla by the river with Dry and Idar. They look worried.

Raefal lifted my body and led me to the edge. I'm staring. Didn't stop staring at him. My heart feels like it's shaking.

Was I dreaming, or what?

This guy is really Raefal. I really know him, how could I forget him?

His gaze, his touch, and his attitude. I know him well.

My body was lowered on the grass. My three friends came to us immediately.

"Lo gapapa, Triss?" Ask Nayshilla.

It felt like my head was turning two movies at once. However, I don't understand.

Nayshilla's none other than Chilla. Dry is Adry, and Idar is Haidar. It's like a coincidence.

Am I reborn?

Is this real?

Before Raefal got up, I grabbed his shoulder and kissed his lips. Our eyes meet. Both eyes widened. He must be surprised by what I'm doing.

Too spontaneous and brave.

I'm sure my friends were much more surprised to see the kiss scene in person. Moreover they know, I didn't like Rae before.

Adry closed Chilla's eyes, while Haidar gawked, his mouth gaping wide. I let go of the link of my lips. I saw Raefal still shocked by what I was doing. He stared in disbelief at me.

"Raefal, I love you."

And. he was more surprised. Raefal's hand raised touched his lips.

Maybe this was his first kiss, and so was I. This is my first kiss.

"Trissya. lo," Idar did not continue his words. Dry removed both of his hands from Nayshilla's eyes.

"It's good that not until 5 minutes Rae dared to go down to dive lo, even though this river is very dalem. If it's more than 5 minutes, you'll be okay. The cave has to say what your parents and brother are." Dry grumbled in annoyance.

"Next time do not harm yourself. What if you do anything just because you take videos for youtube content?!" Idar scolded me.

Five minutes?

But, the memories just now.it seems like the memories just turned around and occurred for centuries in the drucless world.

"Yes, the cave has already slipped him. How, you two are hustling?" Raefal replied, making my daydreams fall away instantly.

Dry spoke up to mediate them, "Udah-udah, the important Trissya same Rae gapapa. We're going back to the tent."

I look around. I know this place.

Holy river, the lifeblood of the drucless. How can we be here? That means we're stuck in a drucless world.

Raefal turned his back to me and crouched down, "Good."

I'm pulling my face back. Without thinking for a long time, I accepted his offer to be carried.

When we got back to the tent, I felt like someone was watching us in the back. When I looked, there was no one behind.

A breeze blew in my face.

I decided to ignore it. Raefal, who was carrying my body on his back, spoke nothing. Maybe she was awkward with me, because I kissed her all of a sudden. He is usually active and talkative.

These two hands did not in the slightest loosen the embrace to his neck. In a position like this, I feel deja vu. I've held Raefal in a life before.

I smiled and threw my chin over his shoulder.

My eyes were on the red moon.

Goddess Amiless?

Arriving at the tent, Dry and Nayshilla cook instant noodles. I don't want to be far from Raefal. We sat next to each other.

"You... earlier... Really, say that?" Raefal asked nervously. I turned to her, "Which way, 'I love you'?"

It appeared a red tinge on both of his cheeks. I smiled amusedly, she was like a woman.

Raefal was born so sweet.

But, I love him for who he is. Either that's Raefal, or Raefal now. To be sure, he is the Raefal I know.

I'm nodding. Raefal looked at me with an expression of disbelief, "But, that time, you said, I'm not your type."

"But, I loved you jauuuhh before that time. It's just, I'm late to remember it, late to realize it." After I said that, Raefal seemed to think. Maybe he was digesting my confusing words.

Daeriel was right, even though Raefal was reborn, he was born with new memories, and everything was also new. Except her face. He won't remember me.

But Raefal was right too. Even though she was reborn with a new memory, she would love me with her new feelings.

Your words don't miss, Raefal.

"Why do you love me? I was confused" asked Raefal, who still seemed to doubt me. I understand his feelings.

I smiled, then replied casually, "Because you're Raefal."

Still confused by my answer, Raefal looked questioningly at me.

"If someone loves you sincerely, he will have no reason to answer why he loves you" I said.

Hearing my answer, Raefal smiled wryly, "I don't know if you're serious, or how. But, I really feel like you said that. I hope you won't change your mind."

It was sad to hear him talk like that. I rubbed her hair gently, "I've promised to love you in any life."

Idar cursed in annoyance, making both of our attention distracted to him who was filming around.

"Shit, the camera's dead." Idar reached into his bag to find a spare battery.

I remembered something. When I drowned in the river, my camera fell and drowned with me. How'this? There's a lot of stuff in that camera. I could have lost a lot.

"I helped them first, yeah." Raefal's words made me look at him. After getting the nod from me, Raefal passed helping Dry and Nayshilla.

I'm still thinking, if we're in a drucless world. My watch shows at 9 p.m. I'm sure, at 12pm tonight, the sun in this drucless world will appear.

Before the sun comes up, I have to get them to sleep as soon as possible. Or they will realize there are irregularities in this place.

I feel like someone is watching me. Not one of my friends. But, someone I can't see around here. I spread my eyes. I saw someone hiding behind a big tree near me.

However, my attention was distracted when Raefal came back and sat down beside me with two instant noodle bowl bonnets in his hands. He gave one of them to me.

We ate it too. It was delicious to eat hot instant noodles on a cold night like this.

I have to get them to sleep. But, how is it?

Suddenly something sounded like the growling sound of a savage beast. Dry and Nayshilla looked at each other. Idar looked around with a horror expression.

Raefal got up, I immediately clasped his hand.

"Where are you going?" I'm anxious. He replied, "I have to check that voice."

Seeing me shake, Raefal sat down beside me again.

Nayshilla shook Dry's arm, "That sounds what, Dry? The cave's afraid."

"We should sleep. Don't we need a lot of energy to get home tomorrow?" I said quickly. Thankfully, they listened to me.

I was with Nayshilla in one tent. Raefal with Idar and Dry. The voice was still audible and left us completely in fear at this moment.

We may be crazy to hear this sound until tomorrow. Nayshilla hugged my body. I looked at him.

"Triss, I'm scared. Why don't we choose another place? Why do we have to come here? Why are we beating up Adry?" Nayshilla.

I returned his embrace, "We slept, yes. This voice must have gone away by itself."

"Where can we sleep if we keep hearing this voice?" Nayshilla Grunts. I hissed while keeping my index finger in front of my mouth.

The sound of the growling sounded closer and closer.

My eyes moved and were fixed on the big shadow outside the tent. I felt my body start to creep. The huge figure resembled smoke with two red circles like eyes.

That mysterious creature.

My heart was beating so scared. Why would he come at a time like this? What am I supposed to do?

Who would want to beat him? No drucless among us has the power to defeat him.

It seemed Nayshilla was aware of my frightened look behind her. He looked over and saw the shadow outside the tent.

He opened his mouth and screamed. However, quickly, I smothered his mouth.

Suddenly a strong wind that came out of nowhere hit our tent. The uninvited wind made the terrifying growling smoke disappear.

Nayshilla let out a long breath. Cold sweat ran down our foreheads. Before long, Nayshilla had fallen asleep marked by her breathing starting to regularize.

My watch shows at 11:45 p.m. I moved to raise the blanket to wrap this whole body.

In about 15 minutes, the sun will rise soon. I had already predicted this, because not for a moment did I stay in the drucless world. I hope my friends don't realize this.

It wasn't until 15 minutes, that orange light appeared from behind me. I turned and opened the window of the tent.

Daytime in the drucless world. Yeah, that's why there's no morning here. Not nothing, but the morning here is too fast not to 3 seconds. The sun will slow down during the day until late afternoon.

I came out of the tent and looked around. The fresh green grass spread wide. The blooming flowers make this place like a garden. The trees also looked normal, not scary like last night.

I let out a heavy sigh and started to light a fire in the used impromptu furnace last night cooking water to brew instant noodles.

I'll cook instant noodles for breakfast.

While waiting for the water to boil, I sat down daydreaming. I'm still trying to remember everything. Something I forgot, or something I just remembered? Ah, I don't even know and don't understand any of this.

Too abstract.

The same question is, am I reborn?

Surprisingly, why could my name and their names be exactly the same as the names of the past? After I counted, I was reborn after dying 30 years ago. If calculated in the world of drucless, it means more than 3000 years. But, Geross' grandfather said, me and Raefal will be reborn after 100 years in the drucless world. I and Raefal should have been reborn 20 years ago.

Ah, I don't want to think much, the important thing is that I can now see Raefal alive. The thing that makes me happy is knowing that he is reborn as a human, not a drucless.

So, there was also a good thing that I drowned in the holy river. I remember everything. Things that cannot be remembered. I feel the water from the holy river gives me a good memory.

But, how do we get out of this place? This is not the human world. The next time we stay here, we'll run out of energy and die.

I heard a voice from behind. I'll turn my head immediately. A little surprised to see those cute animals staring in wonder at me.

They're treteaa!

I smiled with a smile while waving my hand at them. But they even ran. I followed them while looking around.

I know this road, it feels like I've been here. Someone was hiding behind a big tree. I looked up and tried to get closer.

The wind hit my face. The red dress from behind the tree flashed.

"You who? What's in here?" I ventured to ask.

There's no answer. While he's still there.

Both my eyes are shaking. I don't know why it feels like I'm beating my heart. Unknowingly, I called out a name.

"Laureen?"

He came out of hiding. Both my eyes are wide. My guess is not wrong. He's Laureen. I can't forget his face. Although now he looks more mature and charismatic. He looks the same age as me.

There was a large crown placed on top of his head. She's a queen now.

A beautiful smile was engraved on her beautiful lips. She is as beautiful as her mother, Qwella.

"I know, that night you followed us all the way to the tent. I could feel the wind beating on my face. It's not the wind of nature. That's your wind. I recognize him" I said. The beautiful girl was still looking at me. He seems not to respond.

I continued my sentence, "When in the tent, there was a mysterious being approaching our tent. Suddenly the great wind made him disappear. It's also because of you. You were watching us while we were in this forest."

"That's because I'm afraid Mom's okay" Laureen said. I am really touched to hear it. She's a really nice girl. Laureen still thinks I'm her mother.

I walked up to the girl and hugged her. I felt a reciprocal hug from Laureen.

"Thank you, son."

After that, we decided to sit next to each other and tell each other about their lives after we separated.

"I was very worried to see them carrying the mother's body from within the sacred river in a lifeless state" Laureen said in a trembling voice.

Laureen looked worried. She hasn't stopped crying since yesterday. The soldiers found the body of their queen.

Trissya is gone.

Laureen widened in shock. He immediately ran to the already stiffened body.

"Mother?!" Laureen shakes Trissya's body.

Daeriel hugged her daughter. He looked at Trissya's peaceful face which showed a happy smile.

Trissya died in a happy state. His last smile remained visible until the funeral.

After all the life suffering Daeriel gave her, Trissya found her happiness by breaking away from her through drowning.

The news of the death of queen Natrissya became a big news that immediately spread to the world of drucless. Everyone is sorry and wishes them the best.

Every day Daeriel sat at the window where Trissya was daydreaming. The man did the same as his late wife.

Looking at the red moon.

Laureen also felt devastated and sad. However, it seemed like Daeriel's sadness seemed to be much greater.

Laureen is very worried about her father's health. He will come and bring food.

"Dad feels so guilty. Until he finally died and gave the royal responsibility to me" Laureen told me.

She continued, "I don't think you'll remember the past before you reincarnate."

I took a long breath. Suddenly I felt something was wrong. Suddenly my feathers goosebumps.

If Daeriel dies, that means he can be reborn like me. How'this? What if he comes back to my life?

But, most likely he would not remember.

"What about Mom?" Laureen's question made me realize from my daydream.

"I remember all this after I fell and drowned in the holy river. All these memories are back," I paused for a moment saying, "I feel lucky if I am truly reborn. I was born into a happy family and a better life. "

Laureen digested my words, then she asked, "Did Mom ask that my curse be lifted?"

Where'd he know? But I nodded to admit it.

"I'm so grateful for that. Now I feel free from the curse. I became the queen that my people loved. No one is afraid of me. They respect me. The kingdom of Zeroun will not be destroyed" Laureen said as she melted her head on my shoulder.

I smiled, "That's because I love you."

"Trissya?!"

Hearing someone's voice calling me, I looked up. Nayshilla stood not far from our seats.

I looked to the side. However, Laureen was no longer there.

Nayshilla came up to me, "Trissya, what are you doing, anyway? Don't walk alone. It will disappear again."

He pulled me back into the tent. It looks like Idar is cooking instant noodles with boiling water that I left earlier.

"Lo went to the fire, made people shocked," muttered Idar.

My gaze was on Raefal and Dry who were folding the tent and putting it in the car.

"We're going home tonight" Dry said. I said, "Why not now? The weather is bright. Waiting for the night, right, dark. We will be lost again."

Idar replied, "The view here is cool during the afternoon. We need to create content."

"Well, when will we get here" Dry said. Nayshilla and I looked at each other.

"The forest is scary. Are you not afraid? Last night something stood in front of our tent. The cave almost cried out in fear. The cave wants to go home" said Nayshilla half-grumbling. There was fear on his face.

"Yes, the cave wants to go home, too" I said.

"Yes, you go home alone" said Idar.

I clenched a growl. This attitude of Idar is much different from Haidar's attitude in the past. I'm pissed at him.

Raefal, who had not had a conversation the other day, chose to look at his watch. I'm starting to get anxious. Here he will realize it.

"It looks like the cave watch is broken, huh. It was 6 in the morning" Raefal said. I swallowed the saliva.

Nayshilla looked at his watch, "It looks like the cave watch is also broken. How, can it be the same?"

Dry and Idar check their watches. Nayshilla pulled my hand and looked at the watch I was wearing.

"The hours in our hands indicate the same time. That means our clock is not broken. But," Nayshilla hung up her sentence.

I said, "Gua said, we have to go home now. Something's wrong in this forest."

It seems that they are starting to get anxious, even though it is not shown directly.

"Oh, we're home." Dry shut off the combustion furnace.

"Trissya, which camera? There's footage of us coming here" Dry said. I'm getting nervous. The camera fell in the holy river when I drowned.

"Trissya?" Dry flicked his finger in front of my face. I said, "The camera's drowning in the river."

Idar patted his forehead blaming your carelessness. Dry sighed heavily while throwing his face away.

I feel so wrong now.

"I'm going to swim there and get that camera" Raefal said.

All eyes were on him.

"Lo's sure?" Tanya Dry's. Raefal turned his head towards me then looked back at Dry and nodded.

"Rae, you don't need to defend Natrissya. He's good just because you've saved him. He's just benefiting lo doang. Once we get out of this forest, he's got to stay away from you again" Idar said.

His words offended me greatly.

"Idar, be careful when you say that" Dry said. Idar threw away his face, "From the time he never liked you, Rae. Gua Saham lo who has cape the same feeling you are still focused on him. Lots of girls, Rae. They're more sincere than you."

My heart was hurt to hear it. Have I been that bad all this time? Hurt Raefal's feelings.

"The cave went to the holy river and took the camera," Raefal said without caring about Idar's tweets. She passed.

I caught up with him, "Raefal!"

The man looked at me, "Why come?"

"Emm, I want to come," I said.

We arrived at the holy river. Raefal took off his jacket and shirt. He jumped and swam into the water. I was worried and waiting on the edge.

Raefal is back with the camera in his hand.

"It's water-repellent, right?" Ask Raefal. I'm nodding.

Raefal checked the contents, "Ah, the camera is still recording."

I looked at the man seriously, "Why did you endure the same feelings you had long ago? Though Idar actually, you can walk with other girls."

Raefal's attention was on me. Now he's looking into both my eyes.

He chuckled, "You once said, 'If someone loves you sincerely, he will have no reason to answer why you love you'. I guess that goes for me too."

I digested his words.

"When I first met in SD, I liked you. I don't know why either," she said.

Raefal again said, "I feel that you are my destiny. We're destiny, Natrissya."

Again I feel deja vu.

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October 12th, 2019

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