Don't Blame My Son!

I'm sorry Dad

After being expelled by Nabila, Dusk cried himself along the hospital corridor. Sitting on the floor with 2 legs up and face down on the knees with tightly hugging his legs.

"I'm sorry dad." he said. His knees and face were already wet from the puddles of tears that continued to pour.

Dusk feels his world is destroyed, his father is in a coma because of him. I don't know what to do, to see the face of the father also feels not entitled. Dusk pulled his shoulder against the wall several times with a position to 2 feet that was still rising. She was already not thinking about her pregnant condition, her mind was already in turmoil.

"I'm sorry Dad. I'm sorry Dad.." said Dusk who repeatedly continued to pull his shoulders against the wall.

"I'm sorry Ayaah." This time her voice was already very raucous. Dusk straightened his body and attached his body to the wall that is still sitting on the floor with the position of the legs that rise. His eyes were empty with tears constantly dripping down his cheeks. Even dusk did not care anymore people passed by and saw himself in the corridor with such a sad condition, perhaps it was assumed that people who saw it was natural because he was in the hospital.

While in the ICU room, Ajeng still faithfully waited and accompanied Romi beloved husband, Romi's hands continued he touched and admired. Nabila who saw his mother was very sad as it was getting furious to Dusk.

"Dad... why not be aware as well? Dad must be in pain. A strong father... I certainly can" Ajeng's voice said in a voice that glued Romi's hand to her cheek and occasionally kissed her husband's hand. It's only natural that Ajeng is sad like that.

The clock shows it is 03.00 , Ajeng continues to reflect on him. As a Wife and Mother to her children should not be weak and crybaby like that. He must be strong and strong whatever happens, if he as a wife and weak mother how about his 2 children.

"Astagfirullah hal adzim... O Allah forgive your servant O Allah" Ajeng said by repeatedly reading istighfar, Ajeng wiped away his tears.

"I cannot be like this, all is the will of God. I leave it all to you, O Allah, I better pray tahajud." said Ajeng raised his face attached bowed on the bed Romi. Ajeng stood up and kissed her husband.

It looks Nabila fell asleep on the sofa waiting for the patient and rubbed the head of the eldest child. Ajeng also set foot to go to the hospital mosque for tahajud prayers.

Ajeng takes ablution water and reads prayer intention. Turning the faucet, the water droplets that came out he took. Ajeng started washing his palms, gargling, cleaning his nostrils, washing his face and hands, wiping his ears and lastly washing his feet. Do not forget to read prayer after ablution. The feeling of his turbulent heart felt better after ablution.

Ajeng enters the prayer hall, taking the prayer equipment in the closet. Mukena he wears and holds a prayer mat. then he also performs tahajud 2 rakaat prayer, looks very solemn to perform his prayer obligations. After finishing the tahajud prayer, Ajeng looked up to his 2 hands to ask for a prayer to the Almighty.

"O Allah, O my Lord, forgive all my sins, only to You do I submit, only to You do I believe, only to You do I trust and I return. Give the servant strength and determination to face all Your trials, O Allah. Forgive me O Allah, I cannot be a good Mother and Wife for my family. Forgive me, O Allah, who cannot keep my children from all sins. Forgive all the sins of my children and my husband, O God. Give strength and fortitude to us to face all Your trials, O Allah. You are the First and You are the Last. There is no God but You, and no effort and strength except with Your help, O God. Aamin..."

After completing the tahajud prayer, Ajeng felt calm, he tried to make peace with himself. Ajeng also re-cleansed his prayer equipment in the prayer closet and returned to the ICU room.

When walking into the corridor, Ajeng saw Dusk sitting down to his body. "O Allah is Twilight" Ajeng feels guilty to his son, Ajeng should not blame his son, Dusk is innocent. However, as Ajeng's parents feel unable to take care of their children, the fetus conceived by Dusk is also innocent. All is the will of God that gives.

Ajeng approached his son, seen Dusk asleep with his body raised like that. Ajeng crouched down and rubbed the top of the head of Dusk.

"Darling..."

Dusk woke up with a puffy face and swollen eyelids, his body limp. Dusk saw his mother approaching him directly hugging the body of the mother.

"You were here, baby?" tanya Ajeng returned her child's embrace.

"Yes Bun.." replied Dusk slowly.

"I'm sorry Even Dusk, Dusk that has put Dad in a coma like that. Forgive the useless Dusk to be the son of Father and Mother. Sorry Twilight Bun. Sorry Dusk..." Dusk cried as he pleased and hugged Ajeng back.

Ajeng shed tears seeing Dusk blame himself. "Dear, everything has been arranged by God. You can not blame yourself so, you will also be pregnant" said Ajeng who wiped the tears on his child's face

"Babej... Father Bun.." said Dusk who was still with his sobs.

"Dear, now we go into the ICU room yes" said Ajeng who smiled and took his son to the ICU room.

The happy twilight of having a Mother like her Mother, was clearly her fault. But her mother still apologized for not being able to take good care of her children.

Dusk and Ajeng headed to the ICU room, Dusk who saw his brother asleep on the patient's waiting sofa, looking slumbering with a body that swerved to the left, his face looks tired. "I'm sorry Kaak..."

Dusk sat his body beside his father's bed, Dusk holding Romi's fingers. His hands stiffened motionless, his face deathly pale. Dusk hugged Romi's body lying in a coma. His tears fell back, his heart was sliced could not bear to see the father who had a lot of medical equipment on his body.

"Dad sorry Dusk, Dusk can't be a good boy. Are you in pain with this equipment?" said Dusk crying and still hugging Romi's body lying on the bed.

"Heh jallang...! why are you here?"

Nabila's loud voice that sounded suddenly startled Dusk. Nabila woke up from his sleep, when he saw Dusk in the ICU room growled. Dusk turned his head to his brother only speechless, the glare of sharp eyes staring at Dusk, the glare of hateful eyes.

Nabila approached Dusk, Nabila pushed Dusk's shoulder with his hand, Dusk almost fell because it was pushed hard. His brother hated him this time.

"When you can't be the same as twilight. She was pregnant again" Ajeng snapped to her eldest son.

"Mother is still standing up for this cheap lady! what do I care about her getting pregnant? his son was also an illegitimate child." shouted Nabila who did not accept his mother was still defending Dusk.

PLAAAAKKKK

A loud slap floated on Nabila's right cheek, Ajeng knew Nabila's emotions but it was very inappropriate to say the innocent baby was an illegitimate child.

"Republican....." Nabila clenched onto his 2 hands, which were already very emotional to Dusk. Her mother could have slapped her just because of that cheap woman. Those who do not accept go and leave the ICU room.