Dilla (Dilla's Journey of Love)

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Dilla only showed it to Dhera her best friend only all the messages of terror and show off, Dilla prefers the best answers and instructions through her do'a-do'anya only.

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One week had passed, Dilla still did not get certainty in establishing her choice, but somehow there was a push from inside her, Dilla was like wanting to go to Jogja without giving word to Sean, 'Is this perhaps a clue?', her inner self. But Dilla tried not to care about it, according to him it was only a momentary desire and came because of the emotional side.

During this time Dilla had done what Ustadz Saiful suggested, Dilla earnestly pleaded for a determination to establish a choice in her life through Istikharah prayer. If Sean is his match, he is sure that everything will be made easier by Allah SWT.

The longer Dilla felt like a sincere feeling and accepted if she had to lose or be abandoned and leave Sean, Dilla began to feel a void when thinking about Sean.

Dilla still did not understand and did not understand the meaning of all this, only the impulse from within her was getting stronger for Dilla to go to Jogja, Jogja, maybe it was like a clue that required him to go there.

Dilla was still strong enough to resist the urge from within her, Dilla tried to close the meeting and forget the urge, I don't know Dilla did not understand everything that happened to her after praying istikharah, Istikharah, there are so many things he has never felt before.

Until a few months passed, Dilla still did not feel found the answer of all. It's just that his drive and heart still like forcing himself to immediately to Jogja, but Dilla did not immediately fulfill it, he said, Dilla was still hesitant if it only came from her emotional side or like the temptation and desire that must be met her mind.

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At this time exactly one year Dilla is performing Istikharah prayers. His lecture period has entered the 2nd year or 3rd semester more precisely, and it seems like the feeling that Dilla once had only for Sean, now the longer it seems to fade even tend to disappear.

The greater a sense of sincerity grows to release Sean, the more Dilla finds no reason to end it all.

And the drive and desire that he had been holding back was getting stronger and as if interesting and forced Dilla to immediately go to Jogja. I don't know if the desire never goes away even more it encourages him to go and find answers.

Even though Sean had returned to Bandung several times and sometimes met him at home accompanied by Slamet, but Dilla felt there was more distance between them there seemed to be an awkward feeling when dealing with Sean.

It did not go unnoticed by his parents, seeing Dilla's unusual change of attitude towards Sean made his parents wonder.

Finally, Dilla also told everything she had lived and experienced so far to her parents. Of course it makes both parents confused, because Dilla is only currently telling such a big thing after more than a year he is doing Istikharah prayer.

"Why didn't you tell me everything from the beginning, son?" ask papa.

"Dilla actually just wants to find the answer itself, without the influence of anyone, and at first Dilla felt confident, reward! if Sean is Dilla's soul mate .. and Dilla is sure to be married to Sean, Dilla does everything just a process to strengthen the heart just, but it turns out the more here Dilla is increasingly unsure even Dilla is very sincere if you have to end everything with Sean" replied Dilla.

"People usually pray Istikharah for a week already getting directions, baby! while you until this year are still not sure?!" mama Dilla shook her head.

"Dilla just needs the right reason, because Dilla also has to give an explanation to her family Sean, until now Dilla has not found a definite reason, because, it's just like there's an urge to go to Jogja without telling Sean. During this time Dilla also held everything back, because Dilla was afraid that this was just an emotional feeling and not a clue, but the longer the stronger for Dilla to get there immediately" Dilla was honest with her parents.

"Why don't you go to London right then and there?" mama Dilla was curious.

Both of her parents embraced Dilla, trying to provide comfort and strength to Dilla.

Papa Dilla also gave advice while releasing a hug," Papa's advice, you should tell ustadz Saiful everything, what you should do .. tell me everything you've been through just like you told us, maybe he knows what to do"

"Yes dear, so that you do not confuse yourself with the answers and instructions of the request that you get" added Mama Dilla who responded Dilla with a nod of her head.

The next day Dilla invited Dhera to meet Ustadz Saiful, Dilla also told Dhera everything she had experienced during this year, Dhera encouraged and supported Dilla's decision.

Dhera drove him to meet Ustadz Saiful at the mosque where he gave tausiyah on that day, after previously Dilla contacted ustadz Saiful whose HP number he got from one of the senior religious organizations on the campus.

Finally Dilla and Dhera arrived at the mosque in question, they were welcome to wait in a room next to the mosque. After a while of waiting, Ustadz Saiful was finished also giving tausiyah and immediately met Dilla and Dhera.

"Assalamu'alaikum kang" said Dilla and Dhera smiled and lowered his head.

"Wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, alhamdulillah it's been a year huh?" answer ustadz Saiful and make Dilla feel ashamed.

"Hehehe .. too long huh kang ?" Dilla was embarrassed and nervous.

"Ah, do not want to look for answers and guidance of God is not long or so we must be sure first Dilla tea, so how have we got the answer?" ustadz Sulaiman covered up Dilla's nervousness, with his wise words.

Dilla also told what she got after praying istikharah to ustadz Saiful.

"So actually Dilla tea gini, the answer is clearly yes from a few weeks after doing istikharah, just maybe Dilla tea feel not sure? naturally it was mah, so had to wait until a year first yes .. hehe" said ustadz Saiful accompanied by a little joke to melt the tension Dilla.

"Yes kang, hehehe .. So how good is it? do I have to fulfill this growing urge to go to Jogja or do I just wait?"

"Wait again? do not pegel wait? .. hehehe .. I think you should just go to Jogja, maybe Dilla tea will find a more convincing answer there" said ustadz saiful, "But, remember!! do not be alone, go ask for help between the same mahram or can also be delivered the same Dhera tea and some other akhwat and ikhwan, etc, anyway, do not be alone because there must be witnesses as well, you can not be alone later there" continued Ustadz Saiful.

Dilla understood, after getting a solution from Ustadz Saiful, Dilla and Dhera were immediately resigned to go home, now Dilla was calm after getting confidence in the answer to the instructions she got.

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