Diazhani (REVISED)

EPS.12 > About Barsena

My name is Barsena, my life hasn't changed in the past. Father who always did me and my sister, even my late mother also became a victim of my father's violence. He died after my father beat him right behind the head until his skull cracked and my mother died.

As a result of the incident my father was imprisoned for several years until finally released for good behavior while in prison. And when he's free, he's back to being the creepy dad that always hits me and my brother.

When my father was in prison, who was 8 years old, had to survive with Kira, my sister who was 4 years old. But after I was free nothing changed, my bad habits became more and more.

No strong maid worked in my house for a long time, due to bad father habits.

I used to have a friend I met accidentally when I cried on the side of the road because I remembered my late mother. His name is Laras, he's so sweet it's just really sloppy. Because of his very careless and too good nature he was always accompanied by a child named Ichal who had the opposite nature to Laras.

But the barrel left us first. Since then I have never met Ichal again and the days of regret begin again.

I became a bad boy because of the lack of good upbringing in my family, and my heart was filled with regret after my best friend died. Until I finally met him. Her name is Hani, a beautiful but very careless girl at first glance she reminds me of my best friend's medium Laras.

Previously no one dared to get close to me because of my bad nature. But Hani was different, she approached me with a smile and persuaded me to be friends with her.

Of course, at first I refused until finally we became friends and began to get along with each other. Until finally the seeds of love were present to fill our hearts and we became lovers who loved each other.

We have a place of memories, a park bench that looks worn and rickety into a place full of memories for us, there engraved the initials of our name H&B.

"Barsena, look! I'm engraving our initials here, so we can keep them together." she said as I looked at what she was doing.

I still remember the sweet smile she had when she carved the inscription. Every time I'm with Hani, I'm always going through my tough day with smiles and laughter until I get home, I'm going to feel my father's punches that I think are still painful even when I'm used to them.

I had to pretend to be tough because I didn't want to make Kira sad to see me suffer. Every bit of sadness and pain will go away when I'm with Hani, she always knows how to make me laugh with her careless attitude.

Until finally I had to leave Hani because of Andin. At that time my father asked for me to be with Andin and leave Hani, of course because my father already got paid money from his father Andin.

I insisted on refusing but my father threatened to sell Kira to a striped-nose man. Of course I have no choice but to obey what my father and Andin's father wanted.

I foolishly left Hani on the day she had to be happy because of her birthday. But I left her crying alone in the garden where memories between us were.

Until I heard the news that night her grandmother passed away, my world collapsed again my life was filled with regret. Now all that's left of my life is regret.

And we're really separated because Hani chose to change schools, maybe he already hates me too much. A few times I tried to explain everything to Hani but it was too late Hani really hated me.

Until finally a few months after Hani moved, I also followed Hani moved to his school. But it seems I'm late, now Hani already knows the person I know very well he can be a better one than me. Yeah, he was Ichal my best friend back then.

Is it time for me to give up? I don't know if my heart still can't take Hani off completely.

***

"Whose brother is it? So pretty!" kira's eyes sparkled when he saw a neatly framed photo, but unfortunately only stored in a drawer.

Barsena glanced at the photo her sister was holding and grabbed it. "Guys don't need to know! It doesn't matter." said Barsena, throwing the photo back into the drawer and then closing the drawer tightly.

"That's stingy!" Kira pursed her lips in disappointment.

"Ih, I'm getting spoiled!" Barsena pinched her favorite sister's cheek in a fit of anxiety, upsetting Kira and pinching Barsena's arm back.

"Aw! It's sick!" peekik Barsena's.

"Racaine! Whee!" kira said as she stuck out her tongue mocking Barsena while running out of Barsena's room.

The atmosphere was silent again as Kira left her room. Barsena then poured her tired body onto the mattress that began to feel rickety.

Actually they are rich his father also has a company that is currently quite successful. But Barsena was reluctant to ask his father for money because to talk to him alone Barsena was too lazy.

He then got up and opened his uniform, clearly visible bruises all over his body which was definitely the work of his father. He grimaced when he touched a bruise on his back that had not been treated because it was difficult to reach if treated by himself.

Barsena did not realize Kira was looking at the bruises on her body behind the door that was not tightly closed.

"Sorry Kira brother! It's all because a weak Kira can't protect her sister!" muttered Kira softly, then shed tears.

"Aww!" Barsena squealed in pain while trying to apply the medicine on her back.

"Duh! Adek if people enter the room tap first do not directly nyelonong enter only!" barsena was shocked.

"Here Kira help medicine!" kira said as she grabbed the medicine in Barsena's hands without caring about Barsena's words.

"Son't you think cape can rest! If you're sick, you can tell Kira."

"If you're sad, you can tell Kira. If you're not strong, you can tell Kira! Kira is still a child, the age of Kira aja has not nyampe 15 years but Kira can also be a place where the brother complains."

"Sister don't be so strong, Kira knows big brother is suffering because of all this! Kira knows big brother life is full of regrets. Kira knows brother! So please from now on stop so strong in front of Kira!" Kira continued to speak and was unable to hold back her tears.

He kept sobbing behind Barsena's back. Barsena who heard all her sister's words just lowered her head then turned around and hugged her sister warmly.

"I don't think you should worry about your sister! Big brother really well, Pokonya Kira studied diligently so a child pinter so we can escape from all this suffering!" barsena said while holding her sister tightly.

Kira nodded her head slowly in Barsena's arms. Unknowingly Kira also fell asleep in Barsena's arms, she then carried Kira to her room. Slowly he laid Kira down and covered her.

Barsena continued to look at her sister who was sleeping in front of her, she gently stroked her sister's hair.

"Sorry brother deck! Brother can not escape us from the clutches of father." muttered Barsena, then kissed his sister's forehead.

She closed the door slowly, while Kira wiped away the tears that were running down her cheeks.

"Bod*h's brother! So strong! Pretend to be well and suffer! Don't apologize to Kira, you're not wrong!" muttered Kira who apparently woke up when Barsena stroked her hair.

***

"Hoaayam!" Ichal yawned while wriggling as the lesson began, as if it had become a habit of himself like this.

"Diaz Ananta Angga! Your grades are still the worst in this class, if you continue like this you will not be able to pass!" snapped the teacher who teaches today, it just so happens that today the lessons of Rahma who is also her homeroom teacher.

Ichal only snorted hearing that, he tried to pay attention to the lesson but still his eyes felt heavy because as usual last night could only sleep for about 2 hours because of his insomnia.

"Diaz, come to my room!" pinta ma'am Rahma on Ichal.

Ichal lazily followed Rahma's step into her room.

"Please sit down Chal!" mama Rahma's orders are more relaxed.

"Actually Ichal what's the matter at home?" ask Rahma's mother kindly.

"Ko mom just problems with my house? That's privacy dong ma'am!" answer Ichal with a ketus.

"Mother knows it's privacy, I'm just worried about Ichal's declining value. If this continues there is a possibility that you will not pass, even though the National exam is only about 5 months away Ichal." explained Ms. Rahma with a friendly smile.

Ichal just fell silent hearing that.

"Mom hope you can change your values and habits, even if the time is not much but I'm sure you can!" mama Rahma encouraged Ichal.

Ichal then got out of the chair, saying goodbye to leave the room.

"Mother Hope you're trying to change Chal!" yelled Rahma's mom as Ichal was in the doorway.

***

"Yeahahah!" Ichal let out a long sigh while sitting in his chair.

"Eh bushel! Why lu? Abis in the same place as Rahma's mommy's sampe?" andri asked half-mockingly Ichal.

"It's none of your business!" answer Ichal flat. Andri only shook her head when she heard Ichal's answer.

Meanwhile, Hani is curious about what Ichal and his homeroom teacher are talking about. But he did not dare to ask because he knew Ichal would not answer him. He just looked at Ichal curiously.