Diana (Tarnished Girl)

Episode 44's.

Raka stepped into Diana's room holding Dafa's hand, trying to act ordinary despite her chaotic feelings.

Seeing the appearance of the sweet black youth, Diana and Siska suddenly stopped talking about Revan, the two became clumsy for fear of Raka hearing it.

"Mas Raka is back?" ask Diana about it.

"Yes, I'm sorry I stopped by the supermarket to buy this." Raka lifted the white plastic bag she was holding.

"Om Raka bought a lot of fruit and chocolate, he said to Mommy, but I can eat too, really!" dafa Exclamation girang.

"Why do you bother everything, anyway?" diana said sunggan.

"Not a hassle, really. You're lacking blood, so you need vitamins, so I bought you a lot of fruit. If chocolate is said to relieve stress, so I buy it too," Raka explained as she placed the package she carried on the table.

Diana was stunned, at once her heart felt sad and could not bear to hurt the feelings of Raka who had been so good and attention to Dafa so far.

"Thank you very much, yes, Mas" said Diana.

"Not to thank you! I should have done this for my future wife" Raka replied, smiling.

Diana felt more and more saddened at Raka's words, her heart becoming upset and in a dilemma. He then looked at Siska who was also looking at him meaningfully. Raka realized that, but she pretended not to know.

"Hem, Mum. Can we talk to you for a second?" Diana asked nervously.

Raka's heart immediately thumped, his feelings suddenly unpleasant, but he tried to control himself to stay calm.

"Can, dong! What do you want to talk about?" Raka stepped closer to the bed where Diana was sitting.

Diana glanced at Siska who was still faithfully sitting beside her, and the middle-aged woman nodded her head then moved from her side.

"Come, baby! Let's go out for a minute." Siska pulled Dafa out of the room, she wanted to give Diana a chance to talk alone with Raka.

After Siska's departure, Raka looked at Diana curiously, "What do you want to say, Di?"

Diana took off the ring that Raka loved the other day and thrust it into the young man, "I want us to cancel this proposal!"

Raka was speechless, even though she had expected this to happen, but her heart still ached as if a thorny mace had hit her countless times. His hands clenched firmly withstanding emotions and emotional turmoil that he could not define.

"I'm sorry, Mas. I can't go on and get married to Mas Raka" Diana continued in a trembling voice holding back tears.

Raka looked at the ring and accepted it with great pain, "You're sure of this decision?"

"Here you go, Mother" replied Diana steadily.

Raka took a deep breath of air and threw it away violently, "Well if you're sure of your decision, what else am I going to say?"

Diana suddenly raised her head to look at Raka, she did not expect the young man to be this resigned, "Mas did not ask why I canceled all this?"

Raka shook her head, "I don't want to know why!"

"As angry?"

"Once again I'm sorry, Mom."

"No need to apologize, you're not wrong. I was the one who pushed myself too hard, but from the beginning I knew you couldn't accept me."

"Mas, it's not like that! I just ...."

"Here you go, I appreciate your decision" Raka cut.

"But one thing you should know, I love you, Diana! Even love you so much, so if I wasn't the one who would accompany your life, you would at least choose the one you love and love. I don't want you to get hurt again," Raka continued slightly insinuating.

Diana looked at Raka with an indecipherable gaze, her tears drop after drop falling down her cheeks. Diana felt moved mixed with sadness, she could feel the sincerity of Raka's heart, but she also could not force her heart to love the young man. Especially now that he was facing a big problem and the only person who could save him was Revan.

"If you'll excuse me, rest up!" Raka rubbed Diana's head, then turned around and walked away from the woman's room with tears.

Diana finally cried as she pleased, there was a feeling of relief and guilt that plagued her mind.

Siska who carried Dafa back in and sat beside Diana, "You okay, honey?"

Diana immediately hugged Siska and shed her tears on the middle-aged woman's shoulders.

"You are patient and strong, yes!" Siska rubbed Diana's back.

"I don't know if this is the right decision, I feel guilty for Mas Raka as well." Diana returned as she pleased.

"Trust me, this must be the best!"

Diana nodded, but her tears would not stop dripping.

"Now you rest! Aunty doesn't want you to get sick anymore!" siska.

Diana parsed her arms and then wiped the traces of tears on her cheeks.

"Mother why cry?" ask Dafa confused.

"Mother is sick, baby. That's why you don't be naughty, so Mother can rest" said Siska.

"okay, shit! I won't be naughty, I'll take care of Mommy!" babble Dafa.

Diana smiled bitterly as she rubbed her son's head, "Thank you Mother's child, dear."

In front of the laundry, Raka had gotten into her car but she was still reluctant to leave. He looked at the ring Diana returned with a wounded heart, not even a trace of tears fell down.

"Why is this sick, Di? After so many hopes and dreams I've hung on you, you broke my heart."

Be ill. That's what Raka feels right now. His hope, his pride and love had been mercilessly destroyed. He did not know if he could let Diana go, or if she would fall forever.

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