Cracked Pearls

Candour

I don't know how to respond. My whole heart was filled with the feeling of chaos.

Either I should be mad or something.

Jancent's confession left me suffocating as if it was hard to breathe.

After a long line of words he tossed, the guy went back down to rest under my feet. His head looked up at my confused face that could not be closed anything. A pair of my hands were taken to hold it.

“I'm sorry for me, Ra.” Jancent again pleaded.

For a moment I looked into his eyes between fretting, then looked away in another direction. I cannot yet change my heart for a decision. On the one hand, I love Zhio as much as I've planted all along, but on the other hand .. I don't know Jancent very well, even though they are the same person. Then how will I deal with those two personalities?

“Ra ..”

Jancent's voice airs raucous. He clearly wanted certainty that could certainly satisfy his heart.

In the end I chose the sentence, “But we broke up, Zhi-Jancent!” I'm rectifying.

“That's your one-sided decision!” Jancent ambushed quickly. “We promise both! Why do you dare to make a decision alone without thinking about my feelings?! Do you really not love me?!”

I'm glaring. Those words were like a loud slap that instantly melted down my feelings. “A-I ...”

“Please, Ra .. I love you.” In a weak voice, a pair of my hands were smitten by Jancent. His head was bowing fragilely above both of my thighs.

I couldn't control my heart to where I was going.

Wasn't it! Not that I didn't love Zhio, but the incident at the hotel that night ....

“Zhio .. before I answer everything .. I want to ask you one thing first," I said trying to dig into the seriousness.

The guy looked at my face. “Will I answer as I can.”

Before I put all the words in my head, I ponder for a moment. I know what I'm gonna say is gonna hurt him a lot. But I have to! I need to know where he's going to accept me. Does he know that when I have been touched by another man, he will accept me with grace because of the strong foundation of love? Or turn to look at me in disgust and leave me without turning back.

Alright, Zhio ... or Jancent-Jancent Lee, the sole heir of Eagel Corp, I will test how much love you have for me. Is it really as big as what you say?

“What if my body has already been touched by another man?”

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Jancent's response was exactly what I had in my shadow. He looked at me in disbelief. “What do you mean?” A tense face was placed on his face instantly. He quickly got up from his seat and moved up and sat down in the chair next to me. Facing and looking at me full of demands. “Obviously what do you mean, Ra?!”

I threw away my face while wiping the damp that had broken through my cheek. But Jancent flipped back at him by grabbing my cheek until our gazes finally locked.

“Ra ..”

I can't help but cry. My tears were shedding even more profusely just because of the honest look in his eyes I just realized, how much Zhio and Jancent did not make much difference. The same gaze, the eyebrows framed firmly, to the lips that were so sweet when we touched each other back then. Yeah, they're really the same people. Now I fully believe.

Jancent hugged me hustling. Gently rubbing my back with a sticky tape that was so warm I felt.

“Not to be afraid. Whatever you will admit, as bad as it is the reality .. I will always be there for you. I promise.”

I can't get carried away with that phrase. I pushed his body-splitting embrace. I looked into her eyes as deeply as she looked at me. “Are you sure? You're not bragging? You sure you won't regret saying that after I told you all about what happened to me?”

Jancent speechless. Like digesting every word that came out of my mouth for a while. Curiosity was firmly reflected in his eyes. Until a split second later, he then said with a firm look framed with a smile that spontaneously just melted my heart. “You can keep my promise.”

I responded with a happy look. A smile among the tears fell, soaring on my lips.

Slowly and hesitantly, I began to recount the incident that had happened to me at the hotel where Rossa's birthday party was held at the time. Not a little bit I cut let alone change the part. All I've revealed in detail, including the story of Om Krishna's verdict that will marry me to Algi.

Jancent responded with a variety of expressions, but not a word did he interrupt.

“Because of that, I chose to escape here also mutusin you,” closed me still with a sob. “I'm ashamed of you. I feel dirty and no longer pantes beside you, Zhio. Besides, I also don't want to be married to Algi.”

My roar was greeted by a quick hug by Jancent. He held me back like he did last time. “Quiet, Sweetheart. Quiet.” He peeped my head over and over again. “I will never leave you. Won't do! Especially because of that problem! Also Algi or whoever it is, will never be a part of your life, except me!”

My heart was immediately filled with warm feelings. I didn't expect Jancent to take this gentle stance, even after knowing I had been touched by another man. He hugged me in the protection that I still could not ascertain how he felt right now after I told him openly about what happened to me.

But I have not had time to throw a reply sentence, the sound of knocking outside the door sounded loud blaring through the entire house. The hug between me and Jancent got broken because of it.

“Who is it?” ask Jancent.

I'm shaking. “I don't know. I'll open it soon.”

Jancent. But before I got up, he grabbed my chin. The delicate palm of her hand rubbed my cheek dry. He smiled then. “Let people not think I say you ampe nangis bombay kayak.”

I smiled back. “Thank you,” I said moved, while the knock on the door again sounded louder. “Yes, already, I open the door first.” Stand up and walk to the door to open and ascertain who is behind it.

When it opens ....

My eyes glared for a moment. The trunk is born from view in unbelief.

They are not just one or two people.

My mouth is starting to pass, “Om, Aunt, Chelsea.” And most surprising, “Algi ... Alna.” Also two other people behind him, who I don't know who they are.

“Honey!” Aunt Maria hugged me shortly after our sight met. “How are you, Son?” She started crying. “You know, how anxious Aunt Abis read the letter you live in.”

“Ya .. basically do not know thank you!” Chelsea crammed ketus with arms crossed haughty.

There's no word I can say. Behind the back of Aunt Maria who was currently holding me, my pair of eyes caught Algi's face. There is a smile that looks awkward in my view will be siratnya. I don't know what that means.