Chased by Love Tyson

The Road to Concert

I'm wearing my favorite black cardigan as my casual outfit's final touch for tonight. I looked back at the interior of the white camisole and jeans model boyfriend and white keds shoes that have been attached since ten minutes ago on my body, "it seems to have fit" I muttered to myself 

I don't know why I feel the need to pay attention to my appearance today. Though usually I prefer to wear t-shirts and jeans only for this relaxing thing. 

I sprayed perfume with peach and jasmine scented right on my nape and wrist, I noticed once again the thin make-up I was wearing, I think it was enough. 

The time has shown at 17:00, I immediately took a small bag that was ready since earlier on the bed and out of the room to the front porch. 

Shortly after, a car stopped in front of the house. 

"Mek who runs" (My mom leaves) said as I walked through the kitchen 

"Well be careful on the road, Beni be a teka? " (Daddy be careful on the road, Beni has come? " Mom emerged from the kitchen following me to the front door. 

"To ye be teka in front" (That's him in front) I pointed at Beni's car which had just stopped in front of the house. 

I opened the gate "yuk ah straight away"

Beni who had gotten out of the car intended to say goodbye to Mother Nami so stop and look towards Nami and her mother who followed behind. 

"Mom, the pole is just aja nggih, ten stop over"(Mom I just go right away well, do not stop by first) said Beni with a smile

"Dad, be careful on the road well, eh Shinta not invited Beni? "

"Kari in kampung bu, wenten family event dadine invite Nami gen niki"(Again bu there is a family event, so same Nami only this) "

" Oh keto, Titip Nami yah men naughty ye gene pilur" (Oh that, titip Nami if naughty just a jewer) said Mother with a laugh 

"Hahahaha Iyah bu ready" Sahut Beni while getting into the car back behind the steering wheel. 

Nami poked her tongue towards Beni with a frowning face while opening the door of Beni's car and immediately sitting next to her. 

"Dah emek" (Dah Mother) I waved my hand at Mom

My mother smiled as she waved her hand. 

Denpasar road ahead of Sunday night is quite crowded, but it has not been seen the traffic jam that usually occurs at night. Probably because of the hours of returning home from work, people are still on their way home or can be still getting ready at home. As usual I sat comfortably in Beni's car and started to turn on the radio looking for a broadcast that played a nice song to hear. 

"The story again marahan well same Galang? Very often fighting, usually a soul mate like this" Beni nyengir open a chat while seriously driving a car. 

"Yes that's it"

"Yes, what is it? What's the fight?"

"So gini Ben... " I also began to tell the beginning of my and Galang's problems. 

Once finished telling Beni with a thunderous voice "Eh brazenly well the Earth, meddling in people's affairs, anyways you why is still communication with him? "

"Anged also dong same Galang why he did not tell anything to me. I'm his girlfriend, who does not misunderstand, continue to feel like cheated, if the Earth does not info to me then I also do not know"

"Just like the truth, it's just that maybe you will be more able to accept that Galang who told me directly is not like yesterday, right? " Task Beni with a confident tone

"Dad he was Ben"

"It means that the wrong thing is actually the Earth, meddling in your affairs, intentionally that's the name. You also why is still good with that bastard, still like yah? "

"It's not good..." Sewot

"Keep until when you will be cheered Galang kayak gini, pity him. Mature little Nam, try you're in her position. Again unfortunately the same someone continues because of misunderstanding, your relationship so hanging is unclear. You do not understand what to do and wait until the time you do not know, not very clear" Beni's voice sounded annoyed.

"I'm not an adult, Ben? You feel more defending him than trying to understand my feelings. You know that day, after seeing them sitting together, they were chatting, laughing so I saw them like a very happy family and I immediately felt a tremendous pain. Feelings of shame, feelings of unworthiness and many things suddenly filled my mind. My chest feels tight, it hurts Ben. My world seemed to collapse instantly. I'm not ready for Ben to feel this pain again after a few years.it's so fuckin hurtss... I.. I. feel the pain first it comes again even more painttt" I sighed and turned my face towards the road, my tears suddenly welled up and burst out of my eyes without being prevented. I took a tissue from Beni's car dashboard and wiped my tears.

"Damn! I better go home, Ben. I was suddenly in no mood" I said as I pressed my nostrils against the tissue.

Beni suddenly turned and stopped the speed of his vehicle right in front of a shop that had closed.

"I'm sorry Nam" Beni said softly while touching my hand.

"Throughout the year we've been friends, it turns out I don't know you well enough either. I thought this was just your sweetness and selfishness, I didn't expect your feelings to be that deep. I just understood it was not only his misunderstanding that made you stay away, Nam, but more to the nyesek that you feel that makes you hesitate to live again this relationship. And you need time"

I nodded slowly

"Can I go back with my previous feelings, Ben? Did he understand the pain I felt back then? , if he understood he should be patient enough to wait"

"If you want to know why you didn't discuss this with Galang immediately? "

"I need to reduce a little bit that annoying pain before I meet him back Ben, I'm afraid that in a hurry to meet the decision that I took wrong and I'm sorry. I wonder after a long time of not meeting am I still in love? "

"When do you think it's the right time for you to meet again? I mean talk about all this? " Beni sounded cautious choosing the words

"Hmm when is it"? I breathe back

" Nam if I may advice anywaywell, if too long apart could have been the feelings of one or both of you changed, the longer the better. It also seems that you have gained a lot of time thinking about this problem should be met soon, rather than protracted. You're willing that he finally gives up and decides to walk away from your life forever? Sure you're strong? "

"That's Ben, consider it not a mate yah" I replied lightly so as not to think too much about it.

"Can it really be that easy? All need effort Nam, if you stay quiet like this you get nothing. And we both know that. Come on Nam you're not a woman who takes fate for granted with no effort at all, are you?"

"Dad I know, don't go long anymore ah.. 

 I know what I'm doing, Ben, I risk it myself so you don't have to worry too much. Don't we want to see a concert? How serious is this? " I looked at Beni with a sweet smile 

"One quick question before we walk again, after all you feel, is your love still that big for Galang Nam?"

"Still" I answered quickly 

"Ok then let's go again" Beni looked satisfied with my answer he seemed to smile broadly as he turned his car back onto the highway.