CEO AND WIDOW 2 CHILDREN

"Study" with Christian

It was very late, and showed it was already two in the morning. I don't know why I'm still here.

I see people around me. There are hundreds of people who attend motivational conferences are also still in this bar. They exchanged stories, laughed and had fun. Every now and then I look around and then my eyes are on Christian Miles.

Christian Miles has been watching me all night.

Christian's gaze always made me feel warm . . . What the hell am I thinking Clara.

I let my mind wander for a moment. What would it feel like if I were related to a guy like him? knowing that there is absolutely no chance tomorrow?

it's been a long time since I've thought about it that way..

having a relationship with another man hasn't crossed my mind since Ryan died.

next month is the fifth year since Ryan died.

I was 30 when Ryan died.

When Ryan died, it felt like half my soul was with him.

Ryan and I met when we were both in college. Then we got married and had 2 boys. Ryan is 3 years older than me.

Remembering the memories with Ryan made this heart sad again. I've missed him. Not just miss the people, but miss everything we do together.

Ah, maybe I drank too much to think about the past. I stopped drinking and went back to the hotel room.

As I walked towards the exit, I saw Christian talking to some women. Christian saw me walking, he came to me. "Claras.."

I might not say rudely in front of these women. "hi.."

"are you ready?" ask Christian

I saw it in confusion "huh?"

"it.uu..." Christian widened his eyes making a gesture to me "to learn"

"oh . ." I frowned. Christian must have wanted to get away from these women. "yes, of course I'm ready."

"let's go" Christian said, pointing to the door

"But.." said one of the women.

"sorry, next time .." continued Christian

Christian and I walked out into the lobby and into the elevator door

"thank you, yeah.." Christian breathed

I turned my eyes away "I'm not your scapegoat, Mr. Christian.."

"i know that.." Christian took his hand with mine. "we're really going to go to study. Didn't I tell you?"

"do you do something flirty like this always works?" ask me when the elevator door opens and we enter the elevator.

Christian smiles and the elevator door closes, "always.."

"Will we have coffee or champagne?" ask Christian

"Drink Tea" I replied

"Tea?" scrunching his nose with disdain "old old kayak just drink tea"

"yes, that's how it is." I replied.

"oh .." The elevator door opened, and I got out of the elevator. Same with Christian. We're walking through the corridor. Where's Christian's room anyway? he didn't think of coming with me, did he?

"i guess I'll try it for just this once."

"try what?" ask Clara

"Teh." answered Christian.

"You won't come with me" I sneered

Christian's face turned sad. "well, why?"

"i'm not that kind of woman, because I'm too old for you, and because .." I was silent to decide what to say next. "I promised to hate you forever"

we've reached the door of my hotel room "this is my room.."

Christian puts both of his hands in each of his pockets. "come on Clara; this is tea" Christian gives his "rogue" smile. "doesn't mean I'm going to fuck you until next week or whatever"

Clara was still silent to the statement coming out of Christian's mouth. Clara is not used to vulgar men.

five years is a long time not to have sex with anyone else.

I also felt something awakening from within me.

Christian leaned over and whispered into my ear "I want to admit something"

I closed my eyes. It's a dangerous situation, with a dangerous man

"i'm always thinking of you" Christian said

the heavy and slow voice around my neck started to send out waves that could shock me throughout this system of the body.

"why so?" I whispered, I wonder why I asked Christian like that, when I already knew the answer

Christian leaned his hips towards me and I was cornered into the wall. I could feel that something was tense and loud and ready.

Oh no, just like this it feels good..

The elevator doors opened, and Nelson walked out.

I immediately moved away from Christian and opened the door to the room "Christian's night"

"Night .." answered Christian