Casanova Brief of Widows

Chapter 30

ARUMI POV

I was confused and half dead when I realized my phone wasn't in my bag. I remember very well if I had put that flat object in my bag. But why isn't there? It's not his phone that I'm confused about if it's missing. But the memory that is in it. All of Caca's childhood memories are in that thing.

I finally decided to call the house number by phone. Hopefully, my phone will be left there.

"What's? Yes, then mom. Thanks to ya."

Apparently my phone fell on Bari's car. Is it possible that he was waiting for me in the room to fall asleep because he wanted to return my phone? Oh, what matters is not lost.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, I came home from the hospital. I found Caca sitting alone on the porch. Tumben once, I thought to myself. Yes, usually Arumi before going to school will play first with his friends in the yard or at the house of other friends.

"Ca, tumben does not play," I asked when I arrived at the terrace.

"Wait mom. I came home from school to pick up om Bari. Keep on taking me for a walk to the park see clowns. I bought ice cream too. Bari promised me that afternoon would take me for another walk. But you have to let Mother first. Mommy can I go for a walk with om Bari?" My son told me at length. I read there was happiness on his face. I know, she must want to be like her other friends. Have a father, play with the father and be taken to school with his mother's father.

"Next time, son. Later on Bari tired. Remember the word mother, do not get close to strangers."

"So you don't give permission?"

"This afternoon we take a walk alone after njai ya. After praying Isya we take a walk with abi sama kak Zafran sama umi as well. How's it?"

"Yes already." Caca walked into the house.

I saw a streak of sadness on my son's face. I don't know what Bari did until my son got so close to him in this short time.

"Caca why is moody so Rum?" ask the mother who passed Caca in the living room.

"No, I don't give Bari permission to play."

"Rum, don't be. You are so much the same kid. If he is happy, let him walk with Bari. You can come with him if you're not sure Bari can take care of Caca. Don't because of what happened in the past, Caca got impacted as well. You forbid Caca to be close to people who try to get close to you. It's selfish son, you might not need a husband, but Caca still needs a father."

"Caca has no shortage of affection from anyone ma'am. I've had enough and can play father and mother."

"That's from your perspective. Did you ever ask Caca how he wants it? At every art stage at school, the father of his friends came, when they were on vacation they could play with his father, they could be spoiled to his father. You can play both roles, but he also needs a male figure to protect him. I saw for myself just now how Bari treated Caca. He's a good guy Rum. Even you know his mother well."

"Mom don't know if Bari is a man who can't appreciate women mom. Before I knew him, he had many girlfriends and changed women often, Diana was one of his victims, mother can ask him. Do you think someone's mom can change that fast?"

"Love can change everything Rum. And do not forget that God is turning the hearts of men. Nothing is impossible if there is God's intervention in it."

"Yes mom I know. But I don't want Caca to rely on Bari and this makes it hard for me to work on it myself."

I just let out a long sigh staring at the mother who also left me alone on the porch. Why did everyone turn out this way? Bari is good at taking the hearts of others. It's only right if he's easy to get a woman.

I went into the house and headed for Caca's room. I saw him coloring a picture book.

"What's the mother's son again?"

"For coloring, my picture is good, no mother?" Caca showed a picture that turned out to be the result of his own hand.

My heart grew increasingly sliced at the paper depicting a little boy with his mother's father.

"That's a school assignment. Asna said we are told to picture our ideals. Hopefully later we can meet with dad huh bun. I saw us from heaven, right?"

I nodded as I grabbed my son to hug. I did tell Caca that her father had been gone since she was in gynecology. I also never showed a picture of his father who never acknowledged his presence as a child.

Let what Caca understands this be until he grows up and is really ready to hear the real story. He was not old enough to understand the pain I was feeling.

My tears fell from my net angle.

'Mommy's sorry, son, you can't give me what you want. Even though you have to give you a surrogate father, you are not ready yet.'

"Now get ready yuk. Mother's son take a shower, soon time to get paid."

I prepared a change of clothes for Caca before leaving the room. I'm getting dizzy with this complicated situation.

"Rum, here's your hape. This is Bari's personal number as well. Just saw a clown in the park Caca did not want to go home. Finally Bari promised that he would take a walk later in the afternoon if he got permission from you. You tell him to call if you give him permission," said Mas Alvin as I was just getting out of Caca's room.

I received his phone and business card without answering a word. It was just the long breath I listened to. Everyone is talking about Bari now.

"Mas, I told Caca that the afternoon streets are the same as you and Ranti. I'm waiting in an ordinary park."

"Can't be if Today's Rum. Wanna visit your mom's house. I used to miss Zafran."

"Oh yes."

I breathed a sigh of disappointment. The universe is not supporting me today. All right, it's okay if I take Caca for a walk alone.

I walked into the room and put down the phone with Bari's business card without me reading.

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