Blood Stained Love

Feeling Guilty 1

Pov Kemal's

My day was empty with no wife beside me. Nothing in him made me realize that I shouldn't have to say that stupid thing. I shouldn't have unpacked all this.

It's been two days so fast I don't feel like my day is empty like Cevdav next to me. I now realize what my mother said yesterday was true I should have been more able to hold back my emotions so that things don't get messed up like this.

I let out a heavy sigh when the shadow of the wife at home even made me miss her so much. I want to hug her I want to apologize to her as long as she can come back.

Sweetheart! Are you mad at me so you don't want to come back here? I know I was wrong and I'm so sorry. I don't think much about the consequences of this, I don't think much about telling the truth. Even though what I said was the truth but I should not have the right to vent my emotions on you because I believe that you are innocent in any way.

I should be able to accept you here, accept all the help you're gonna do for me. I'm sure you don't want to insult me, I'm sure you're sincere in helping me just that I'm too emotional and don't have any distant thoughts about this.

" Mom am I wrong if I want to pick up my wife at her parents' house?" I don't know what I'm going to do right now. If I had come there anything would have been wrong.

" Do you really want to go there?" 

" Am I wrong if I go there, ma'am?" I looked at Mom a little worriedly because her thoughts and my thoughts might be different. 

" I now know why Mom stopped me yesterday and told me to apologize! Now I'm sorry I did it, ma'am. If time could I turn I would immediately apologize to him.." I'm sorry I did all this. 

I can definitely see the face of regret that is in my eyes, I really regret being far away from my wife at this time. But everything has become porridge, everything has gone far now.

" From yesterday you should have realized that you were wrong to do this all Aslan, if you knew the consequences then it wouldn't have happened like this. But everything's happened the most important thing you're sorry is what matters…" Mother the one who always keeps me calm no matter what I do Mother always counsels me with her wise only sometimes I never think of what she says for my own good.

" Do I deserve to come there, Mom? I'm sure Kemal told us what our problem was until he brought Cevdav home.." I'm sure they discussed it with my two in-laws. But I hope they can forgive me.

" You deserve to pick up your wife, son! I'm sure Cevdav is waiting for you to pick him up.." Is it also certain my wife is waiting for me right now. But what about his family, if they're gonna give him back here or if they're against me.

I'll try if I don't try then I won't know what they're doing. But no matter what happens, I have to bring my wife back. I've made up my mind with my decision at this time. 

" Excuse me I want to meet Tu-"

" Mister Aslan! Please enter. Miss must be happy to see you here." A female maid who just happened to be in front of me instantly knew me. He smiled happily to see me standing there while the guards there seemed to be preparing their defenses to forbid me from entering.

I entered with a heart that was not good, cold sweat may have been big on my forehead, but I have to be brave I have to bring back my wife. He's all I have now.

" What do you really think Cev is?" 

" I miss my husband but until now he had no news not even to pick me up. Does he really not want to apologize for his mistake?" I heard the voice of the person I missed, I stared at the two backs of the person sitting in the garden.

" I'm sure he'll pick you up later, Aslan loves you so much I'm sure he just needs time to calm his mind. You also need to be calm if you meet later there are no more emotions that you feel.." Now I feel more guilty venting my emotions to two people who do not know anything.

Maybe both of their parents are guilty but I shouldn't have to take this out on them. Although yesterday I had a fight between Kemal but he can still think positively of me. I feel ashamed now to have accused him of a no-no. Until whenever it seems like I can't identify myself with him. He had such a mature mind it was not like it was that irritable.

" Are you sure he'll pick me up?" I catch the sadness in every tone of his speech. Of course I'll pick you up, baby, I'm here to take you home.

" I'm sure he'll come get you, I'm sure. So don't think about anything else. You can hold my word for sure he'll come and take you back to his house.." I'm sorry if I made it all this way. 

Now I know that you can't possibly take Cevdav from me. If only he had intended to take it then from now on he would have been able to take advantage of this opportunity to take his heart but what I heard instead made me ashamed myself. He had no intention of taking Cevdav from my side when for two days he had many opportunities.

" Cev if later or when you meet with Aslan I hope you guys have calmed down, you can exchange ideas talk well no more fights or debates. Listen to the reason because I'm sure he has a good reason for that."

" I also think like that, I have to listen to the reason whatever it is I have to listen to it. If he could say that I'm sure he has a very strong reason for this. Why do you believe Aslan, that he can't say that without a reason?"

" I believe that there's no way Aslan would have said that if he didn't have the cause behind it all. I'm sure he has something hidden by him just that I don't know what it's hiding yet. I'll find out if this has anything to do with our two families then I'll ask them to apologize to Aslan."

The deg!!