Blood Stained Love

First Fight 2

The usually cheerful night now looks cloudy and dark gelita, no stars accompanying tonight. The night breeze that is usually unable to penetrate the skin at last tonight pierces the skin to the bone.

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Pov Cevdav's

I was stunned to hear what my husband said, I just thought that this was all a misunderstanding but he was still angry with me tonight.

I didn't mean to accuse him I was just asking but it turns out my question might offend my husband's little heart. I know he's in a bad shape but I'm the same thing as him. 

Ever since the tavern was quiet she was often indistinctly angry at me as if she was venting everything to me. Though I also do not want to make my husband's tavern lonely. I looked at her who was daydreaming at the side of the bed and she leaned back with a hard-to-understand look.

I sighed trying to remain patient this time. I must do what I do not know, because my attitude is always considered wrong by my husband at this time.

" Aslan!" She was surprised when I clasped her hands and she looked at me with a cold gaze.

For the first time he looked at me with a cold look, what was my fault was too fatal to say no apologies to me. Or my mistake is unacceptable to him right now.

" You still mad at me?" I asked slowly and with a heart. Maybe he's sensitive right now and I need to be aware of that.

" No.." He answered briefly and did not want to look at me again.

" Dear I'm sorry if my question might have offended you but I didn't mean anything. I'm just asking that we know our mistake that makes our shop quiet is just that it's nothing more than anything…" I explained it so that he knew that I did not intend to accuse him or mean what he might be thinking at this time.

" You don't have to apologize, honey, what you said earlier is true. Maybe I made a mistake until the tavern was quiet.." I know that's not a sincere word from him he kind of insinuated me. 

" I know you're not a reckless man! I'm sorry if it offends you.." I tried to stay under it. 

He said nothing more than to remain silent and daydream again. " Aslan I don't mean to offend you, I don't care if you use my money so that our shop doesn't close."

" There's no need to keep your money, you can use it for your needs." He still refused even though this time it was just the two of us in the room.

" Looking forward and succeeding in your store is also a necessity, my dear. I really don't mind if you wear it first."

" I've said no then no!" I was silent because his tone was high with a snarl. The grip of the hand was violently released. " Why did you force me to use that money? Do you want to drop me in front of your family."

I was again stunned to hear what was being accused of me. " Why do you even think like that Aslan? I had no intention of dropping you in front of my family.." Of course I dodged it because I really wanted to help my husband instead of dropping him right now.

" I just want to help my husband just that! Was I wrong to help my husband.." I'm still trying to convince him that I really want to help him instead of dropping him.

" But your help will make my pride fall. Rich people like you won't understand with assuaged self-esteem."

" Aslan what are you saying? From earlier your conversation widened everywhere and this time your words have been outrageous, you also indirectly insult me.." I was provoked yes I was provoked emotions at this time.

" I just want to offer you help so you don't have the burden and ease your responsibility. But look at you from now on as if you don't see the positive side I'm offering, you just see that you can do it yourself and don't consider me your wife who wants to help you…" I said in a high tone.

I was tired from this morning as if what I did was wrong in his eyes, what I wanted to do to help him even on the ugly side.

" I am indeed a rich man but I still have high self-esteem, I was born to a rich man Aslan but whether I can choose whether I was born to a poor man or not. Everything was the same no difference, rich poor was the same for me.." I just stared flatly at Aslan who was currently silent. Whether he's sorry for what I said or not, I don't know.

" I just don't want your family to distinguish me from Ke-"

" Enough Aslan! You've been talking about my family since then that sets you apart from Kemal. And no one said anything like that, what you think of my family doesn't make sense. Even Kemal was willing to let me go for us to get married and he managed to convince my family but look at you instead want to compete with him. What's wrong with you now why are you like this."

Now I don't understand what he thinks he wants to compete with Kemal the guy who got me and Aslan married. Did he think Kemal was his biggest threat when all this time Kemal never intended to meet me or tease me. He promised to let me go and that was proven by him. 

" So you're defending Kemal right now?" He got up from his seat staring at me with his anger.

" I'm not defending Kemal why you think Kemal is a threat to you. As long as we're married, she doesn't even come near me or try to take my heart. I'm just reminding you that Kemal was the one who contributed to our marriage he's ora-"

" I know he's the one who persuaded both of your parents, right? He always helps us, doesn't he? But do you know because all your family, especially your Papa, always compares me to him? Do you know that your Papa boasts he's in front of me directly."

" What are you saying exactly Aslan? You're just provoking so you don't want to be blamed for this. I just wanted to help you but you went wide everywhere. If my intention is to help my husband you're mistaken I'm sorry.." I'm upset that he didn't see my good side.

" I said what I-"

" I don't want to argue with you, I'm tired I want to rest.." I went straight to the bed and laid down my body I'm tired of having to argue with her.

Tonight was a very gray night, the night for the first time we had a fight and we slept with each other without being in his warm arms. My heart is hurt by his emotions and I who have been provoked choose silence a thousand languages now.