ARDIANS

I am weak

I don't know how many times, the figure of the beautiful girl exhaled a heavy breath. Since coming home from the hospital, his mind had already been unsettled. His mind raged at the thought of Gerald's papal speech while in the hospital.

Nanda closed his eyes, letting the night wind sweep across his face. It had been an hour, he was on the balcony of the room, with a faint look.

Raga's speech was like a rollercoaster swirling around in his brain. He knew what Raga said this morning. There was already no chance for him to see Gerald in the hospital.

The tears came down again, considering that the cold-faced Gerald made Nanda miss her best friend so much.

Still with his eyes closed, tears escaped from his eyes.

"Rald.. Why is the fate of your life so cruel, Rald!" Nanda clutched the balcony guardrail, with a great vibrating sound.

"Gue kangen!"

"Gue hates myself. I can't do anything, make nolongin lo, Rald!" The girl's cry broke.

Since coming home from the hospital, the girl had not been out of the room, eating only this morning.

Geck... Geck... Geck.

"Non," call Auntie from the outside. "I brought food for non Nanda dinner" said Bibi from outside.

"I'm not hungry, Bi!" reply Nanda from within. Honestly, he had no appetite at all.

"If non Nanda is hungry, I keep it at the table next to the door. It will be taken." Aunt kept a tray full of dinner on the table next to the girl's room door.

There was no reply from inside, making Auntie go straight from the girl's doorstep.

***

The clock has set at 10 pm, making Boy must be ready to go home, because of orders from Gina. Because he knew Nanda was home alone.

"Is Papi Gerald sure of his decision, Boy?" gina asked, seeing Boy close his laptop to go home soon.

Boy glanced at his mama for a moment, then breathed a heavy sigh, "yes, Ma. Boy has spoken with doctor Ivan to make sure, it turns out the decision om Raga not kidding, Ma." A heavy breath came out of Boy's mouth, as he explained this to his mother.

Boy leaned his head on the sofa, staring at the ceiling of the room Gina was sitting in. "It's a very tough decision, make me the same aunt Jia, Ma. They have to be their only child. To.... Forever," Boy's last words swallowed.

Gina wiped her escaped tears. "You know what, Boy?" ask Gina seriously.

Boy glanced at his mother, then shook his head weakly. "Om Raga with Aunt Jia, agreed to hide this with Ara. What else do they know about the household problems that afflict our families. They didn't want to make Ara worse off if she knew the truth."

"Om Raga lied to Ara. He said that Gerald from now on cannot be found. Because the condition is getting worse," explained Boy again.

Maybe this is good, he does not want if Nanda to know the truth, if the tool in Gerald's body is taken off, to release the man's departure for good.However, on the other hand Boy is afraid, Nanda hopes for more, and if he finds out the truth will make his sister depressed if Gerald has left them.

Gina could not hold back her tears, and she did not know what to do. Gina thought hard, as if Nanda knew the truth while she was no longer beside her daughter, because of something.

"Now you're home, boy. Mama's worried that your sister hasn't eaten yet" Gina said, after feeling a little better.

"Tomorrow morning Boy will be here again. Don't forget the phone Boy, Ma. If mama needs anything, "remember the man and replied to a nod of the head by Gina.

"If so, Boy go home first" Boy kissed Gina's hand.

"Be careful, Boy. Don't forget, bring your future wife here" said Gina, making Boy laugh.

"Surely, Ma."

Boy walked out of Gina's room. Boy smiled faintly, his relationship with Greta was not as difficult as he thought.

Yeah, Boy thought. If Gina will oppose with the girl who will be his wife. But it turns out the assumption was wrong. Gina received Greta well.

Gina just told him, when married later Boy must be an adult because in reality Greta is still not too mature, Greta and Nanda the same. Both are young and need an important role for both parents.

Boy drove his car to go home soon, it did not take long for Boy's car to enter the yard. The aunt who heard the sound of Boy's car quickly opened the main door.

"Where's the room, Bi?" boy asked, after Auntie opened her door.

"In the room" he answered.

"Ara's eating?" tanya Boy again made sure and was returned to his head by Aunty.

Because ten minutes ago, Aunt went up to the second floor. He still saw that the tray containing the food he had brought was still intact, not touched at all.

Boy told his aunt to take a break. Boy went upstairs to the second floor, took the tray with the food, and he took it to the kitchen. He would heat up the food first before telling Nanda to eat.

After about ten minutes of heating the food, Boy returned to the second floor.

"Ra," call Boy, his hand holding a tray of food. The other hand knocked on the door of the room. "Open the door, Ra. Lo haven't had dinner yet. I know, if you haven't tudur."

Chequek.

Nanda opens the door, allowing Boy to enter, even without saying a word.

"Eat first, Ra," said Boy, there was no word from Nanda, making the older man exhale heavily.

Boy and Nanda sat on the edge of the bed, with Nanda throwing her face to the side. He did not want to see Boy's face, rather he did not want Boy to see his sad face.

Boy held Nanda's shoulder, then said, "here I hug, I know you want to cry right. I guarantee my embrace to make you cry. Before in Greta's possession later," Boy chirped with a joke that made Nanda look at Boy, then a few seconds later Nanda immediately hugged the brother tightly.

Nanda cried in Boy's arms, without saying a word. While Boy rubbed his sister's hair, letting Nanda cry in his wound.

"Gue brittle, Bang. I'm not as strong as I thought!" roar Nanda with a great shaking voice. "Gue is weak, Bang!"