Ambition And Magic

Chapter 77 Self Evaluation

Renita was pensively sitting alone, the woman tried to evaluate her. The fatal sins he had committed, the perhaps unforgivable mistakes he had committed, which could have caused pain to those people. In addition, Renita also made a mapping of good efforts, which are recommended by the ustadz who have been practiced. The woman felt that she had done it all, but finally Renita just smiled wryly.

"O Allah.: what else should I do, O God, to knock on Your door, to open the door of Your forgiveness? Night prayers, bathing in one third of the night, morning dzikir, afternoon dzikir, reciting Al Baqarah along with its meaning, dhuha prayers, tahajud prayers. Inshaa Allah all have I do Allah, even Ajwa Aliyah seven-grain dates are always consumed every morning. But it turns out that all have not been able to open the door of Your forgiveness to the servant of God. I want to be healed, O God.." Renita unconsciously lamented and groaned to God. Tears appear to be on her eyelids.

Unknowingly, Renita then opened the internet and entered your tube channel. During the exposure to this non-medical pain test, Renita was a follower of various ustadz who run the rukiyah syari'i. Through the you tube channel, Renita feels joined and has a community of fellow sufferers of psychological illness. And sometimes there is gratitude, it turns out that the other party is experiencing things that are beyond what he is currently suffering. From that, comes the spirit and motivation from within Renita.

"Misad I asked Ruqyah.., a Live Review title from Muhammad Faizar Official caught Renita's attention." the woman recalled the conversation some time ago with Bu Kiki.

Kiki said that." Nyah. are you not afraid of undergoing rukiyah. Because I've been to a study, and ustadz says if people ask to be possessed, then there will be no intercession on doomsday.."

At that time, because Renita felt how the pain, such as a sudden hand or arm pain, the leg could not walk, and the face felt numbness and pain, only she felt it. Others can only see and judge. Don't know why..

"So according to the njenengan (you are in fine krama), I am not resigned, not unreasonable. Or ustadz njenengan it ustadz mana, whose name is. I will debate and argue with him. I felt like I was going to die, in pain, if I just kept quiet without effort, it was her name I would die silly ma'am.." in a high tone, Renita responded to the words of Ms. Kiki back then.

"Not like ma'am, the proof is that it never subsides or stops, right? Still continue to interfere, sent santet continue.." the tone of the mother Kiki's speech has been somewhat down, maybe surprised to see the response that Renita delivered, said,

At that time Noncy was seen.His eyes were already glaring at the courage of Bu Kiki to talk like that to Renita. The woman seemed to want to curse and suppress Bu Kiki, but fortunately Renita soon died down, and Kiki then quietly did not continue his input.

Looking at the title of the live review, it was Renita then clicked on the youtube channel, and it turns out that what he did was not a mistake. Because every human being is required to make an effort, and actually the sentence that Kiki conveyed was only a piece, there was still a sentence connection behind it, After the study was over, after the study was over, a sense of calm again surrounded Renita's heart and tried to accept with sincerity the situation that still gave her the test.

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Next Day

Renita returned to the office like a normal day, some friends Renita recommended that Renita reduce the days in the office, and even suggested to do lectures online using Zoom meeting. But Renita's little heart disapproves of the proposal, and even as if there is a challenge to prove that she can still face the metaphysical attacks sent to her.

"Health Ms. Renita.." mbak Cici admin prodi Management greeted Renita, when the woman would enter the class.

"Oh right, Miss Ren, must be healthy. Especially if we as women yes ma'am, we feel unwell just not sick, the house becomes chaotic. Fussy child, different if the sick is a boy.." unknowingly, mbak Cici even do curcol.

"Ha. ha. ha. is right about Cici sip.. I entered first yes mbak, students have been waiting since the previous problem." because it has entered teaching hours, Renita finally parted at mbak Cici.

"Yes ma'am, I'm sorry I bothered you about going to class.. He. he.." then Cici rushed into the admin room of the study, and Renita immediately entered the classroom.

But just a few steps into the classroom, Renita felt something different in the room. Her breath felt a little claustrophobic, but Renita then read the prayer in her heart, and stopped her time for a while. Renita then took the zamzam water that was always in her bag, instead of if there was no rukiyah water, then removed slightly to the palm of the hand, and spread around her seat. From behind, the students saw what the woman was doing, but they were just swirling and whispering with a friend sitting next to her.

"Okay. for last week's material we discussed what yes.. This is a Bank and other Financial Institutions course not.." Renita finally started college.

"Yes ma'am, we've entered the subject of banking deregulation. And now the discussion material written in our Semester Learning Plan will be included in the material of Bank Indonesia ma'am." some students answered what was asked by Renita.

Because they often give quizzes suddenly, students in the class that Renita leads, they have prepared themselves by learning the material before. So that once Renita asks questions, the students will be able to answer the questions given by the woman.

"Alhamdulillah it turns out that students in class A2 is very extraordinary, so memorize the material that we will discuss today has arrived where. Okay. now we issue about Law No. 23 of 1999 about Indonesian banks. Where in this Law, also discussed about the Independence of Bank Indonesia. What is meant by independence.." Renita tried to provoke a student discussion.

"Free ma'am;.." one of the students tried to answer.

"Not bound by ma'am." said another.

"Mmm. right you said everything. The meaning of independence is, showing that BI in its operational activities is free from any form of intervention from any party. Even members of the House of Representatives, the president, government officials also do not have the right to put pressure on the government, related to the independence." Renita began to explain,

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