Am I Deserving?

"Papa Wants You to Change"

A beautiful morning, the warm sun warms every body of God's creature on earth. A very good day for people who are going to go make a living to support their families. Shenna was ready to go to the store with her spirit and radiant face, she ordered the usual ojek she was riding.

"Great spirit today". Ojek's father's greeting to Shenna.

"Yes dong pak spirit, work will be paid to use money, hehehe". Answer Shenna.

"Yes too, neng. Hehehe, yaudah let's neng this is his helmet! " Mr. ojek.

"OK Let's go!". Shenna's spirit while putting on the helmet.

Shenna's familiarity with the ojek father she used to ride a little made her feel less alone in the capital. Mr. Ojek is kind, friendly, and fun to joke around with.

***

Shenna finally arrived in front of the shop.

"Huft to me. Thanks yes, sir. Tomorrow there's another me again yeah". Say Shenna while paying ojek.

"Sama-sama neng, tomorrow I will anterin again". Said Mr. Ojek while taking the helmet from the handle of Shenna.

"The spirit of his interest sir, if you do not get excited later it will not be much if my father said". Canda Shenna's.

"Hahaha, Yowes neng. The spirit continues this mah, Yaudah I say first yo Assalamualaikum". Mr. Ojek.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, be careful sir". Shenna's.

"Yoo". Mr. Ojek.

Shenna entered the main door of the shop and started her job well.

***

Elsewhere, the family home of Papa Lukman.

The breakfast is mediocre according to Karan, every day he is quiet and closed to his parents, he said, rarely does he make a loud voice and say harshly even though he knows that his parents always give him advice, he speaks as necessary.

"Karan, after this come with papa, papa wants to talk". Papa Lukman opens his voice. While Mama Norah already felt something unpleasant.

"Hm". He said it while putting bread in his mouth. Papa Lukman glimpsed at his son.

Breakfast is over. After eating, Karan entered his room. Papa Lukman headed to his room and knocked on the door.

*Tok to Tok..

"Kara? looks like what you said earlier, papa wants to talk". Papa Lukman's orders.

"Yes, I'll be right out". Short karan.

Karan went to his bedroom door and opened the door.

"Follow to papa's room!". Papa Lukman's orders. Karan tailed behind his papa.

In Papa Lukman's study, he sat facing his father with a flat face.

"Can you pull the tip of your lip just a little bit to smile, karan?. Is there a bone in your face?". Papa Lukman opened his voice at the sight of his son with a flat face every day.

"Why do I smile when there is nothing that will make me happy for as long as I live?". Said karan ketus, managed to make Papa Lukman Squeeze his forehead.

"What do you mean, karan?". Ask papa Lukman seriously.

"No, what do you want me to talk about?". Karan switched the conversation, he was in no mood to argue in the morning.

Papa Lukman breathes harshly at the attitude of his son.

"Karan, you are the firstborn that papa has. Papa wants you to change from your bad habits". Papa Lukman said in a serious tone.

"Pa, how many times.."

"Quite karan!". Snapping papa Lukman starts to get emotional.

"Papa just wants you to go to your better future, even when you see your future papa is happy, nothing more, Karan!".

The atmosphere was silent for a moment. Karan sat quietly while crossing his arms.

"I know, so what do you want?. Karan asked still.

"Papa wants to start working today!". Papa Lukman's.

Karan's attention turned to his papa.

"Working? what work?". Ask Karan.

"Prepare, papa will take care of it". Papa Lukman's.

Karan stood up from his seat.

"What is this pa? Why did you force me like this??" .His voice began to raise the volume of his voice.

"See!!". Papa Lukman stood up to his son's response.

"Look good, son. If you refuse, papa will revoke all the assets you are currently using. Papa just wants you to be a person who benefits others, papa wants you to work and be independent, papa wants you to build your own world. Is that wrong, Karan?!, is it the wrong upbringing of papa that you take as a claim?!. Papa Lukman said at length.

The atmosphere was silent again, because it showed an unacceptable face.

"Prepare, go to your room and papa will take you".

Karan looked at his papa with anger. He left his papa's study and closed the door violently. In her parents' room, Norah's mother who was tidying up the room heard the sound and was about to get out. Seeing her son walking with wide steps and clenched hands, Norah's mother could already guess what had happened and went to her husband's study.

"That? hows it? does he want to?". Ask mama Norah who actually knew about the plan they had talked about last night, only she was afraid that her son would go berserk with her papa.

"He wants to, he doesn't answer my question, that means he wants to". Reply Papa Lukman.

Mama Norah hesitated a little, but she left it to her husband.

*In karan's room.

"Damn it!, I've been so lazy to deal with this". Ketus Karan sat on the sofa of his room with an erratic feeling.

"But what if my facility is unplugged papa? Arkhc!!". Annoyed Karan rubbed his face rough.

Karan stood up from his seat and was about to leave the room, when he opened the door he found his father about to knock on the door, papa Lukman jumped in shock, but it was not a funny thing for Karan. He just looked at his papa. Papa Lukman saw the appearance of his son from head to toe.

"Did papa tell you to work in the office, karan?". Ask papa Lukman who saw Karan wearing after a neat suit.

"Is my clothes wrong?, then what clothes am I wearing? Used sack? Papa told me to work as a beggar?". The question of karan managed to make Papa Lukman laugh small but only in the heart. He remembered that he was angry at this moment.

"Good shit what the hell is this kid". Papa Lukman's.

"Papa didn't tell you to work in the office, change the suit for a white cameja!". Papa Lukman's orders make Karan's face lazy. Without saying another word, Karan went back into his room to change his clothes as his father had ordered.

*five minutes later, Karan exited the room with a white kameja, black pants and shiny pantofel shoes.

"Well, this is fitting. Let's leave". Papa Lukman's.

"Huft, even praising me my appearance is not". ketus karan in the heart.

The father and son went straight to the courtyard and mother Norah led them to the terrace. Karan who wondered why his mother did not ask them something about him who would be forced to work by his father.

"Why does your face look so ordinary?. Did mom also know that I would be forced to work by papa?. In that case, they must have planned this in advance, arkh damn it!". Karan guesses the situation is mixed with his upset feelings.

Arriving in the yard and about to enter the car. Karan open his voice.

"Wait pa". Karans.

"What else is it?". Ask papa Lukman who seems to have grown tired of his son's rejection.

"Where will papa take me?". Ask Karan.

"bring? huh?, what's that word? you asked me as if I was going to throw you away, karan. There's-there's this kid".

"Papa can answer that". Remain with a cold tone.

"Come, karan!". Said papa Lukman who was no less cold.

Without saying a word, Karanpun got into the car irritatedly but remained silent.

"Later you'll know where papa's gonna take you". Papa Lukman says while putting on his seat belt.

***

Twenty minutes on the way, they arrived in front of the supermarket. Karan thought that papa Lukman would buy something at the supermarket, so he was still relaxed while playing his phone. Papa Lukman got out of the car and seeing Karan still had not come out as well, he opened the car door.

"Come, karan!. What are you waiting for?". Papa Lukman's.

"I'll just wait in the car, go if you want to buy something". Karan is still cool with his phone.

"Bought what? This is our destination, let's go down!". Papa Lukman was a little upset. He felt wrong why from earlier did not tell Karan that his son would be hired at the Supermarket.

"What?!". Karan is shocked and takes off his eye contact on his phone.

"Down!". Papa Lukman's orders cannot be disputed.

Karan's facial expression was already unfriendly, he hated this situation so much. But he could not resist his father's plan. Karan got out of the car still with his flat face, considering he was outside at the moment. He followed the steps of his father who was about to enter the supermarket store and went to the special room of the store manager.

*In the shop owner's room.

Seen inside was a man almost the age of Papa Lukman but looked younger. They shake hands and throw smiles at each other.

"Welcome, Mr. Lukman. Please sit". Said the owner of a supermarket store who was a friend of Papa Lukman High School. It was Hadiansyah, called Hadi.

"Ah don't need to be too formal, Had. Just get to the point. So this is my son I mean, his name is Karan". Papa Lukman gave the code to shake hands with the shop owner. Karan did it with a smile that he forced a little.

"So, I'm giving up my son to join and work in your shop, it's up to you to give me a position on which side".

Karan rounded his eyes to hear his papa's words.

"What?!, my God, papa is like selling me like a slave to someone in power, why is it up to this person to be given a position as what?, why don't you just set it up? Papa's job is more expensive than this shopkeeper, fucking huft!". Ketus Karan who has resigned.

"Hahaha, sorry Lukman. It's funny how your son's expression is after you say that".

Mr. Hadi, the shop owner who suddenly looked at Karan after Papa Lukman said it was up to him to be given a position as what.

Papa Lukman looked towards Karan at a glance.

"Ah, that doesn't matter, Hadi. That's a happy expression, isn't it, kid?".

"I-iya pa, I'm happy". Karan replied lying, it felt like he wanted to go berserk seeing his papa's response.

"Hahaha all right, Lukman. I'll put your son in a good position, take it easy". Mr. Hadi.

"It's up to you. So my son will be working from today, you please just arrange him as you like, discuss what he will do. After this I will go to the hospital to continue my work". Said Papa Lukman who after this will go to work.

"Oh so, yeah. Alright. I'll discuss this with your son after you're gone". Mr. Hadi

"alright". Papa Lukman's.

Papa Lukman looked towards Karan who was still sitting, and permission to leave the room briefly to speak to his son.

*Outdoor.

"Karan, papa loves you very much, papa just wants you to feel how life in another world other than your useless life is. Papa wants you to change, I'm sorry if this is the way to put pressure on you. Papa promises to be there with you every time you have a problem in any case after this, promise me you'll be a good boy". Papa Lukman's advice at length.

Karan looked at his papa with an uncertain feeling, there was a sense of wonder he felt, but his dissident nature still possessed him.

"Yes pah". Answer Karan briefly.

"Alright, papa go first, work well". Papa Lukman's.

Not to forget Papa Lukman said goodbye to Mr. Hadi, then he went to the hospital.