Am I Deserving?

Shenna's worries & Karan's disappointment

Shenna has arrived at her contract, fatigue does not make her lethargic, precisely what makes her lethargic is the incident with Mr. Karan at the time in his room earlier. Shenna put her bag on the bed excitedly, she sat on the edge of her mattress, holding her aching head.

"Huft, Oh my God. Is this my new problem again?".

"Just this time I let down my own boss".

"Aaaa how is this". Shenna bit her nails, her eyes glazed over.

"I have to apologize to Mr. Karan tomorrow". Shenna wiped her tears, Shenna was afraid of being fired just because of the disappointment in her boss, no matter what people would see towards her.

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10 Minutes of lamenting the problem,

Shenna rushed to clean her body, tidied up her contract and ate dinner, of course she did her activities with no excitement.

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*At Karan's house.

Karan has not changed his work cameja, he is still sitting on the sofa of his room by smoking his favorite cigarette, already three cigarettes he smoked. Karan's gaze was empty, he did not care about his work, no matter how much he paid he did not care. But for some reason he did not like to be underestimated, he wanted to hate the Merchandiser girl named Shenna but he could not hate her, after all he was just a new Manager who did not know anything, but Karan was still very disappointed.

"Why don't I just work for my mom's company?". He was thinking about that.

"Why did you dump me in that little supermarket store?". His arrogant nature peaked, Karan continued to smoke cigarettes in his hands.

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*Tok Tok Tok...

*Karan turned to the door of his room.

"Kara? Let's eat, it's dinner time". Mama Norah called her for dinner.

Karan puts out the fire on his remaining cigarette in half, without hearing his mother's call, Karan walks towards the door and opens it. Mama Norah was still at the door and was about to knock on her again, but Karan had already opened it.

"Karan?, you've been home a long time?". Ask Mama Norah kindly.

"Yes, ma?".

"Of course, let's get down. Mama cook your favorite food".

"Yes, ma. I'm hungry too". Karan heads downstairs for dinner, where Papa Lukman is already at their table. Papa Lukman saw it.

Karan sat on his dining chair, he took rice and fresh water fried fish side dishes which became his favorite food, he also added other side dishes. Yes, freshwater fish is Karan's favorite food, cooked however he likes it. Karan ate voraciously but remained with his flat face. Papa Lukman looked at his son who was eating voraciously and opened the conversation.

"How's your job lately, Karan? is there a constraint? ". Papa Lukman's.

"All right". Karan was still busy putting food in his mouth.

"If you have a problem with your job, just tell papa. Papa will help you, there is also Mr. Hadi who will help you, often come to his room to be guided with him". Papa Lukman put more food in his mouth.

"Yes, pa". Answer Karan briefly.

They continued to eat dinner, only the sound of the clanking of spoons could be heard. Silent.

"Pa?". Karans.

"Hm?". Papa Lukman is still focusing on the food on his plate.

"What do you think if we are underestimated by others?, meaning what if we are not trusted by others for a task that is our duty?".

Karan asked in a serious tone, but his face remained relaxed and still focused on the food on his plate.

Papa Lukman's gaze was fixed on his son, and tried to find the right answer to Karan's question.

"Hmm, according to Papa it depends on everyone. Maybe other people do not trust us because we have a personality that is not liked by the person, maybe we look relaxed over everything. Maybe so". Reply Papa Lukman. He asked his son back.

"Why really?". Ask papa Lukman.

"Oh, so. Nothing, I'm just asking". Karan put the rice back in his mouth.

"It looks like Karan has a problem with his job, I'm sure it's about his job". Mama Norah muttered that just listening, she answered Karan's question.

"Maybe we look at the bodo period on the affairs of others, when in fact we are not so. That must be the reason why people sometimes don't trust us". Mama Norah answered, she understood the meaning of her son's question.

Karan's gaze was fixed on his mother, he thought for a moment.

"Hmm, yes ma. Thanks for answering".

Karan put down his spoon, he's done eating.

Papa Lukman and Mama Norah looked at each other to see their son.

"Kok tumben he pamit mah?". Ask Papa Lukman to his wife.

Mama Norah pinched her husband's arm.

"Aahww, mah pain. Why the hell?". Papa Lukman's

"Our child there is a change that is grateful, do not take this event kok him, kok he it. Huft papa It".

"Jude, don't pinch it either". As Papa Lukman rubbed his sore arm.

"Bah, mama saw Karan there was a change, including he was saying goodbye. Let's just pray he survives like that". Mom Norah's eyes looked expectantly.

Papa Lukman nodded his head.

"Yes, I hope he survives".

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*In Karan's room.

Karan went to the bathroom and cleaned his body. When Karan steps into the bathroom, his phone rings, Karan returns and sees the name of the contact who called.

Alex

"Hello?". Karan picked up the phone.

"Hello, bro".

"Sorry Lex, the cave can't join later". Karan who already understood that this friend of his would take him to the bar.

"Hmm, yayya. The cave already knows if you nolak, so how? emang you are comfortable in set same bokap you until the cake work?".

"How else, the cave can not refuse the command of the cave bokap".

"Yaudah, but once ntar maen to the cave house yes, very lonely ga ga no temen, Daniel is also busy taking care of his marriage".

"Yes, ntar cave maen to your house if there is time. The cave of yaudah closes first".

Karan disconnects the phone.

"Hufft".

Karan continues his delayed activities, he goes to the bathroom and cleans up his body. In the bathroom, Karan soaks in the bathup while smoking one cigarette and thinks of some things that annoy his mind.

Karan massages his temple.

"But why can't I be mad at that girl?".

Karan smokes his cigarette again.

"Didn't he cause me this way now?".

Karan thought again.

"Hmmm, Shenna". Karan nodded his head remembering Shenna's face.

Shenna was beautiful and adorable to Karan, just as Hino saw her.

"Argh, fuck that girl". Karan tries to throw his mind off the girl. He wanted to finish the clean-up event, he had almost an hour of soaking.

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*In Shenna's contract.

Shenna finished cleaning her bedroom, cleaning the room before bed was her routine, for Shenna, she could not sleep if her room looked dirty and messy.

Shenna sits on the edge of her bed, picks up her phone, but instead she remembers her boss Karan, remembering what happened in the store.

"Baaaa". Shenna is back in turmoil.

"Am I going to work tomorrow?, but I'm so afraid to meet Mr. Karan, my God, what should I do". Shenna was worried about her fate the next morning.

"But I can't run away from trouble, I have to face it, I have to apologize to Mr. Karan". Shenna said sure.

"Okay, Shenna. Close your eyes now and dream that nothing will happen tomorrow". Shenna took a deep breath and threw it away slowly, she picked up her blanket and laid her body down. Shenna closed her eyes pretending to be asleep, her eye movements were smooth, but still her head was in a mess.

"Aaaaa, how is this". Shenna came back upset and covered her face, thinking about what her fate would be tomorrow.