Against the Inevitable Destiny

Chapter 16 - Reunion

[Yozora High School ]

“What's here?”

I looked at the writing on the classroom door and matched it with my identity card.

“It looks like that. All right, let's see.”

I slowly opened the door, and guess what I saw? There's no one.

I slowly walked into the classroom with a little weight.

I should have followed what the philosophy of stoicism says. Think about the worst outcome first so that you are better prepared to deal with the outcome. Because this is the result if I get too

“Riyu.”

I froze in my place.

This sound…..

Right, no more wrong.

This is the voice I have been dreaming of all this time.

The sound that makes me almost crazy.

The voice I want to hear forever.

Without thinking I turned around and

“Riyu...”.

The angel jumped into my arms. It was as if he did not doubt that it was me. And maybe it was like that, he had no doubt that this was me.

“Riyu, i-emm.”

I closed his mouth before he said anything.

'I know what you want to say, but sorry, I won't let you say it. For I will say it myself.'

*Releasing kiss*

I looked into his eyes warmly.

I know, he feels the same way as me, I also understand he wants to say the same thing to me, but let me say it first, that -

“I miss you so much, May.”

Yeah, right, I miss him a lot. This feeling is not contained anymore.

Desperate situation for a week is not without reason*.

Just so you know, after all, I was lonely at the time, too.

‘What do you expect from a child who lost his parents? And worse, right after that, the boy felt his emotions.’

That kid is me.

In the past, I always asked myself ‘why’.

Why should I feel this emotion when it happens?

Why not before that so that I feel the warmth of their embrace?

Why does that have to happen?

Why should they leave?

Why why why why why? Wh why?

Isn't that a very expensive price to evoke this feeling?

If these feelings are awakened only to feel the pain of losing them, then what is this feeling raised to?

Really, I lost count to keep asking.

Until one day I realized,

"I miss you too, I miss you so much."

Mei said full of longing. His tone trembled slightly, probably because he was holding back his tears.

Mei put her head on my chest. Clutching his embrace tighter.

Right, he subconsciously saved me.

At that moment I realized that I still had him, I still had them, I didn't want to lose them.

I need to be stronger so that in the future, I don't lose them.

This feeling is not a curse.

With this feeling, I can appreciate them more.

I'll protect them

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[A few minutes later ]

Huh…

Right now I was sitting on the floor, leaning my back against the classroom wall, with Mei curled up in my arms. We didn't speak again after he said he missed me.

This calmness does not make the atmosphere awkward, instead we enjoy this silence. Just by closing my eyes and hugging her I felt comfortable. I could even continue like this for hundreds of years

Thinking like that, I somehow remembered how Mei's expression was when I first saw her.

That is lonely.

Maybe I've said before, how lonely he is.

Mei never smiled, never complained, and never laughed. There was only a cold expression, focused on looking at the other world, in another perspective.

No one can understand him, no one knows his mind. There is only him, in his own world.

And maybe, just maybe he doesn't want to feel that feeling anymore.

After all, he had seen the light. As soon as he saw the light, he knew how frightening the darkness was.

And that light, maybe I. I hope it's like that.

Even so, I might, might just make her sad. That's because I know I can't control my feelings. The feeling that drives me to make "them" smile and enjoy life.

It's sad because I don't even know who "they are". I just faintly felt that they should be happy.

The future is too absurd and uncertain. And all that time I wish "they" could enjoy this life.

Especially her……