A Friend in Waiting
The Loss of the Precious Crown
My mind is empty, everything feels empty, no long time the pain goes against me, I try to fight, but what is my energy that in fact a thin woman lost to the greater energy Faris, even sad, but,I could only afford to lose the only precious treasure I had cared for so far, something I should have dedicated only to the man who would become the priest and leader of my household,the crying I did, but could it change what had happened?of course the answer is no, the rice has become porridge, regret will never return everything as before, guilt is more felt, fear certainly exists, but this is life, sometimes we will always find the wrong way,,, the,,because tired do not feel my eyes getting heavy, no long sleep immediately greet me....
When I woke up somehow I had been asleep for a long time, I saw Faris had taken a bath and changed clothes, when she saw me awake, she smiled and came to me.."you are Ra, thank you,I'm so happy to be the first man for you, just calm down, I'll be responsible if you have anything" I do Just smile forcibly and try to give confidence.I try to rise, I try to rise up,it feels like my body hurts all but I try to hold it because I can't bear to clean myself.
After the bath, Faris invited me downstairs to eat, we ate in silence, none of us spoke.Faris finished eating, I dared to ask her to talk "Faris I want to go home" he was silent, but finally nodded his head in agreement.He drove me home to the public transport terminal, as usual he never drove me to the boarding house,at the time, he did not have his own motor...
Days changed, months passed, the beginning of communication was smooth, we still often met although rarely in because of our respective busyness to work, but after a few months began to see a change in Faris' attitude, he said,as if slowly he began to move away, avoid, sometimes feel difficult in contact, he was always busy working overtime, until one day Faris seemed to disappear without a trace, no hp his inactive, no,maybe changing numbers, I try to keep calling him, but it seems like he deliberately changed his phone number to avoid, the feeling is my heart is sad, is this the man who promised to take responsibility and take care of me forever???I tried to contact his brother, but to no avail they said that he also rarely contacted his parents, I was not discouraged, I contact his friends who I know, I call,last time I heard he had managed to buy a new bike, it made me ask, why??it's not supposed to be after having a vehicle he's easier to meet me, but the real harsh reality greets me, he deliberately wants to stay away from me...half forced me to keep urging his coworkers to ask him where he was and why he disappeared, but their answer after I pushed even more broke my heart,they say that Faris already has another girlfriend and their relationship is like husband and wife, as in the lightning bolt during broad daylight, suppose that the heart like glass will sound a fragment that echoed,this is the reply that Faris gave me after all, betrayal, disappointment and pain, I really did not expect the person whom I had started to love and believe had the heart to give a deep wound,,,what should I do next???where does this relationship end??..…
His close friends also unkindly advised me to let him go, because they knew it might be the best for me and him, so long as I thought until I made up my mind....maybe it's the end I need to take....
