A Friend in Waiting
Away,,,
After eating, I asked to go home next to already want the night, my mood was also chaotic, males were here for a long time, along the way home we were both equally silent.until at the boarding house we did not talk long, we did not talk,after Eza's farewell came straight home, a message from him shortly informed him that he had arrived home safely, but I read it without reply,after cleaning myself and changing my clothes, I immediately prayed, then I rested my tired body and headed to dreamland.
at 04.30 wib as usual I woke up, my tiredness yesterday was lost to change with new energy to be ready to start the activity again.finished cleaning myself, I immediately did the prayer, beres fulfilled the obligation,I immediately did the breakfast routine and continued to clean the boarding room, wash my clothes, because today I'm in the afternoon shift, and that means this week I don't have to meet with eza.
during these few days I entered the shif during the day I deliberately avoided Eza, in the company I always looked for a way not to cross paths with him, he said,while the message he sent me also did not reply to him.di said dodge is true, I avoid it, I just want to minimize the damage I will receive, I just want to minimize the damage I will receive,our current status just befriended there are already women who make me get in trouble, not to mention ex who failed to move on yesterday, what if we have more relationships, so we have more,honestly, the failure of my past relationship is enough to make me have to fight for a long time to organize my heart, trying to look okay in front of everyone,my heart is not okay enough that 2 events yesterday that made me fall, not for the third time, it is better to avoid problems from the beginning rather than late, not to be late,no regrets will come at the beginning.
But fateful intentions want to stay away, but the fact is always not appropriate, when I came home from work on Saturday, I saw Eza was sitting on his bike in front of the gate, what was he doing there?do not GR Ra, maybe he is there a need with his friend or with the company, now pretend not to look, do not look at him, try to calm down, walk as usual, just as usual,suppose she's not there, my brain keeps giving orders, when I've just been able to breathe a sigh of relief,suddenly Eza blocked my path by stopping his motorbike exactly one step in front of the road I went through,with a breath somewhat hunting the effect of shock because suddenly in overtake while walking.how would I say rude, can't you if I curse at this time?it seems like the emotional state is supporting this, but I am again privileged not to be emotional, remember your message as regretfully as you can with someone as long as it can be discussed well,never use emotions especially to say harsh and inappropriate words.
" Haura can you ask for a minute?can we talk?" I breathed an annoyed breath, I swear this guy actually wants what?why is he trying to stop me from coming home from work..
" i'm sorry what's wrong?I cape pingin cepet go home to rest" I try to subtly push
" not long before, while I want to talk about it, can you come with me first?"
" i'm sorry, sis, it's late, so there's something to talk about, can we just talk here?" I still want to nolak
" okay, we don't have to go far, but can we talk at the cookie shop down there?" Eza pointed to the cake shop that was right across from where we stood, I was still in them, but Eza did not give up
" come on Ra for a moment, it's not good if we chat on the side of the road gini, see a lot of people, block passers-by too" well I'm forced to go back to his will, he said,because I saw also started many people who glanced at the kepo against the two of us. I stepped my feet following Eza to the cake shop across the street, after Eza managed to park his motorcycle in front of the safe.
we chose a seat in the tavern with a comfortable enough location to talk without fear of many people listening,because the weekend of this store is also quite crowded even though it is getting late.when the waiter asks for our order, we both order it randomly, we just order it randomly,conditions are also not being supported to just linger choosing the menu.dark Eza began to open the sound
" i have the same fault of you?I'm making you mad?" huh, I'm breathing tired in front of him
" i'm fine, there's no more problems, and my brother doesn't have any fault of mine either"
" why do you keep avoiding me these few days?" eza's tone began to sound annoyed
" i don't avoid, that's the feeling of my brother, we're also not one shif at work, it's natural that we never meet" I'm smooth, I'm fine,pedahal in here the heartbeat has been Dig dug ga clear
" okay if the reason we didn't meet because of different shif work, then how about my message that you always ignore, even my TLP never lift" Eza began to lose patience, and so on,but why does he have to be so sorry?I am also a nobody, but I am not able to answer, he is not wrong, but my feelings are wrong, I am afraid of heartache, I am afraid of disappointment, I am afraid of disappointment,indeed we are just friends but my feelings are really uncomfortable especially yesterday eriska had to block me at work, and insinuate me with spicy as an odd girl, want to be invited street guys without status, and not be a girl,hypocritical girl pretentious but willing.I'm really sad, let me always keep my distance and reject Eza's invitation yesterday, I will not be satirical and hurt.
" sorry brother, but there's good from now on we keep our distance"
" why?you said I wasn't wrong with you, but why do we keep our distance?if there is a problem, or I accidentally make a problem Same you, by the way, we are both adults, do not rich children play cat-kissingan" I can only be silent, dung want to answer what, do not get rich children play cat-kissing,do I have to be honest about Eriska and Arin, but it feels inappropriate to exaggerate, only the affairs of fellow women, I do not want to be considered a spoiled girl a crook, I do not want to be,for the time being I better be quiet, just enough to keep my distance with eza, I decided to get out of my seat to get home, no matter what Eza thinks,for now I need rest and calm my heart
"sorry sister, I'm home first" Eza had to block my hand, but before long she let go of my hand might not feel good because it's a public place
" okay I'll take you"
"no need, sister, I can go home alone" without waiting for an answer I immediately turned to die, I walked with a hurry afraid Eza back to hold me back to go home, I was afraid,but I'm quite relieved that it turns out that Eza is not chasing me, in my heart I apologize to Eza "sorry sister, I'm not at all wrong, you're a good man, you're a good man,but the conditions that are not possible for us to get closer, the better we keep our distance, I want to keep my feelings, as well as the feelings of others who may be more worthy of your relationship someday" with my quick steps one by one the stairs of the boarding house, I want to get to my room and rest this heart and body that feels very tired...may tomorrow be a better day, may the decisions I make be right and not hurt anyone's feelings.....
