Young Marriage (?)

17. Quarrelling

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"You guys don't know, brother?" ask Dafa who is upset that we did not respond to him. From earlier we let Dafa drive while babbling himself.

Intan and I are not in the mood to talk.

We got to our house and went straight to our room without saying anything. Badmoods!

Toktoktoks!

I opened the door, but it was Intan.

"How is this the Fa?" intan said while lying on the sofa.

"Come Tan. We can't change anything."

"You'll take Mr. Indra's offer."

"Crazy! Ask for her return later. What other friends say."

Intan and I are not a KKN group. In addition to different villages, we are different districts as well.

Mr. Indra happened to be the lecturer who oversaw my group. He offered to help move Intan to my group. I don't agree to that. There's a shrimp behind bakwan for sure.

"How do we go?" tanyakanya.

"It's not how. It seems we were not meant to be together. No matter how strong our desire to be together, no matter how much we try to be together, we will still not be united if God does not predestine us together," I said as if resigned.

"Lebay bye!" reply Intan while throwing a pillow at me.

"Huhah!"

"Eh Fa, if we're KKN, how are you and Brother Arsy?"

"Geek!"

Not a group with Intan is a problem. Splitting up with Arsy is another matter again. Argggghhhhh!

***

Right now Arsy is checking my hand. I didn't hear what he said. I just looked at his face. For a month I won't be able to look at him like this. So I want to settle now.

Uhh still won't be enough for a month.

I will miss him very much. Can you not go to KKN?

"Say Dafa you have a problem. Wanna share?" tanyakanya.

"Hmm .. It's just a KKN issue. It was badmood, "I replied.

"Because not a bunch with Intan?"

I'm nodding.

"Abang will call your supervisor so you can be a group with Intan."

"It's okay. I've already gpp skrg."

"Seriously?"

"Yes." Yeah."

I'm afraid that Arsy will talk to Mr. Indra. Asking Mr. Indra for help is tantamount to surrendering.

Not that I'm a geeer or anything, but it seems like Mr. Indra likes me. Even Intan thought the same thing. My college friends have also started gossiping. I don't want to carelessly accept his help, afraid that there will be problems.

Now what I'm worried about is not the group, but Arsy.

After we got married, we had never been apart for too long. Now we have to LDR, what can?

He said in the KKN area it was always difficult to signal. What if I miss him later? Yesterday I asked permission to go home because my husband misses. They don't even know I'm married anyway.

"What village are you KKN?"

"Lady. District of Batukarang." 

"It's a long way away too."

"Uhhh don't want to say that anymore. We sleep yuk. Sleepy."

As much as possible I don't want to talk to Arsy about this. It only reminds me of the distance that will separate us later.

***

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I rushed straight to Arsy's workplace when I got the news. How could this happen. Aishhh!

After the question I finally arrived at Arsy's room.

"Yis? Why didn't you say you were coming here?" tanyakanya.

"Why did you do all this?" ask me to the point.

"You mean?"

"I told you not to do anything. Why has the KKNku group changed now? This is what you do, right? I'm grateful that Brother made me into a group with Intan. But no group is okay. It doesn't matter to me anymore. Brother doesn't need a repotrepot to do this. I'm doing fine. So please, please get me back to my group."

"That can't be."

"Why?"

"It would be better if you were with Intan" he replied.

"I want to go back to my group" I said.

"No one will allow it."

"Why did you meddle in my college business like this?" I started raising my voice.

"Why do you insist on not moving?"

I even asked.

"I asked you first, Brother."

"Is it because of your group's supervisor? Don't you want to part with your Mr. Indramu that's why you insist like this?" tanyakanya.

What he said. Indra sir? Arsy knows he's my supervisor? Ah of course, it's impossible that Arsy doesn't know. Didn't he meet Mr. Indra. But even so why bring Mr. Indra now.

"Abang is accusing me?" I just can't believe that Arsy would say something like that. Does he doubt me now?

"Did you also insist I'm a group with Intan so that you can have Intan watch over me? Doesn't you believe me now, either? I don't care anymore. Whatever you do, I'm still going back to my original group."

"It's up to you" he said, then walked out slamming the door.

Uhh why it's like this. Sucks.

I just don't want Arsy to ask Mr. Indra for help. I don't want to be involved with Mr. Indra other than college.

Why did Arsy accuse me.

Newly married people have been fighting like this.

***

"Syifaaaa, we're finally one group too."

Intan immediately hugged me when I got home.

"Hey ... Why are you? Aren't you happy?" ask Intan.

I'm shaking.

I pulled Intan to sit on the sofa.

"Tan, I'm glad we're together. But don't you think this is wrong? I mean, what will people think of us later? About our family? Syifa and Intan families bribe lecturers in order to be able to one KKN group. Does that not matter?" many fear.

"The problem isn't that, is it? You've never been affected by anything like that. Besides, you know very well our family doesn't. Asking us one group what's wrong? Before this, many asked to exchange groups for certain reasons. If the reason is not important, our campus will also not grant requests to move groups" explained Intan.

"Do you think the reason 'Intan and Syifa badmood because not a group' is important? We don't even have a clear reason to change groups. Why can I change now? Must be for Mr Indra's help, right?" my dug.

"Sokay know you!" intan said to my head.

"Ish can't know how to smear people's heads like this" I said as I rubbed my head.

"I don't think you ever did!" cebik Intan's.

"You fought Abnag Arsy? Did you tell him about Mr Indra? This is your excuse, did you tell him?"

I shook my head, "I can't say. I'm afraid Arsy's getting a little misunderstood. Especially if he knows Mr. Indra likes me it must be getting worse."

"Then how will Arsy understand if you don't say? You're too afraid of the unimportant Fa. Actually this problem is simple, you're the one who makes it seem complicated. Never mind, listen to my dear Syifa. Brother Dafa came to campus not as your brother, but as your doctor. With your hands not healed properly he asked the campus to move you to my group. Got it? It has nothing to do with Mr. Indra. Brother Dafa spoke directly to his LPPM."

"Isn't Arsy coming to college?" many confused.

"So Arsy was going to college. But first Abang Dafa. We'll discuss that later. Now let's talk about you first. The problem is in you. Your fear problem is not really important in my opinion. First, you don't want to return the favor with Mr. Indra right. It won't. Because you moved without Mr. Indra's help. You are too suudhzon also the same Mr. Indra, who said he would ask for return. Not necessarily. Two, you're afraid that people might gossip about your problems being deactivated and blablabla. Hey it's just that if you don't move people will think you're doing nothing to Mr. Indra. If you don't move, you'll be under his watch and people will become more suspicious of your relationship. Understood it?

You're angry angry at Arsy there's no point in the Fa. Arsy didn't do what you were afraid of, he didn't say anything to Mr. Indra. Not even met. You better be honest with him about your fear so he can understand and not misunderstand. He's very worried about you Fa. The problem is really simple, actually, you're the one who makes it complicated," explained Intan.

Uhh I feel guilty for Arsy. But he shouldn't have accused me either. But I raised my voice first to him. Uhhh!

"What do I have to do now? I was angry with Arsy" I said.

"Yes, I'm sorry."

"Then it was Tan. Do you think Arsy would apologize to me?"

"I'm not sorry. He loves you so much" Intan said to me.

"Uhh hopefully. Uh btw, how did you know about all that?" manya curious.

"Abang Dafa told me everything. Brother Dafa is also worried about your situation," replied Intan.

"Abang Dafa is most worried about you. He's afraid you're meeting a new guy at KKN so he sent me to your matamatain."

"In your dream, Fa. Impossible."

The group issue and Mr. Indra are done. Intan's right, I'm the one who complicates everything. I just moved away without worrying about anything. I shouldn't have to fight with Arsy either. For the first time Arsy was angry with me.

***

It's been this late and Arsy hasn't come home yet. Dafa came home before dinner. Is it because he's still mad at me? He didn't tell me at all.

Fortunately, Mama and Papa didn't ask me anything.

'Where to? Why haven't you come home?'

I sent a chat to Arsy.

The bluetick!

My chat is read only without reply.

It seems like Arsy is so mad at me that he doesn't want to go home like this.

I finally fell asleep without Arsy beside me.

***

I woke up in the morning without looking at Arsen. He really didn't come home.

"The doctor's husband is the Fa. Just be patient" said Mama while we were having breakfast.

I just replied with a smile. Hopefully Arsy doesn't come home because he's working, not because he's mad at me.

But maybe he made work an excuse to avoid me.

The proof is that he didn't reply to my chat.

***

"Rio is so cute, Tan." I said after getting off the Intan bike. Intan and I just got home from a KKN group meeting.

We were acquainted with group members from different majors and faculties.

All I saw was two guys who I thought were handsome, one of whom I just called Rio.

"Yes ish ganteng. Unyu's face. Dah has a chick yet yak. I marked him, you don't macemmacem" Intan said with a slight warning.

"I am a faithful woman. But a loyal woman can be a khilaf."

"Sengklek! Uh Fa, that's Arsy's car. Looks like he's home" Intan said, pointing to Arsy's car.

Yes, it was Arsy's car. What I should do. I'd like to apologize, but I'm upset that Arsy ignored my chat yesterday. Not ngabarin at all. It felt lazy even just to greet him.

"Asalaamu'alaikum!" I said Intan and I when I came into the house.

Arsy and Dafa who seemed to be playing chess looked at us and returned our greetings.

For a moment my eyes met Arsy's eyes, but soon I turned my face away. Seeing him I was upset. I went straight to my room.

"Fa, we're going, right?" tanya Intan outside my room.

"Yes. After the bath we left," I answered half-screaming.

Good to go too, I'm lazy to be home. We plan to shop for necessities during KKN later.

He was going to use Papa's car, but Papa came home the other night he said. So we just persuaded Dad to minjemin his car.

The problem is that there is Dafa at home. She must not have allowed us to go alone in Dad's car. How to not be caught.

Ahh think about it later, you better take a shower first.

Finish my bath and Intan comes down. Arsy and Dafa still play chess.

"Bang, Intan and I are leaving" I said.

Dafa turned towards me, while Arsy seemed reluctant to look at me.

"You've just come home and you're going again, where are you going?" ask Dafa.

"You buy things to bring KKN later," replied Intan.

"Oh okay. Don't malemmalem go home!" dafa Message.

Yess!

"Good bang!" I said and Intan simultaneously. We looked at him with a smile. Now just take the car next door.

"Eh wait!" Dafa stopped our steps. "I forgot to say, your father was here. He said he wasn't the minjemin of the car."

We turned around, Dafa was already standing looking at us with his hands crossed on his chest.

I glanced at Arsy who seemed to be holding back a laugh. It's good to see us caught. How'this?

"An explanation?" dafa said. Sounds creepy.

"We need a car to get going. It's hard to bring things on the bike" I tried to defend myself.

"Why don't you ask your brother or brother Arsy for anther? Good thing you came here earlier, so you can cancel the car driver," said Dafa again.

"You're afraid you're busy. You must be tired anyway. We don't want to be troublesome" I replied.

"Reason!" cebik Dafa's. "Wait here, brother get the car keys. Let your brother anter. Don't want to bring your own car! Understood it? Wait Brother!" dafa Direction.

"Just use my car. I'm the one driving, come on!" said Arsy who was standing and then came out.

Huaa is so lazy!

We finally left the four. I sat in the back seat with Intan. Lazy I'm sitting in front with Arsy. My heart misses, but seeing the coldness of my mind forbids to be sweet with Arsy.

"Abang should go home or play first. Maybe we spent a long time" Intan said after we reached the mall.

"Don't ambush. Brother come with you. We have experience with KKN. We know better what you need later" said Dafa.

"Whatever!" intan replied giving up.

During the shopping I just kept quiet, so did Arsy. The only noise is Intan and Dafa. They look like husband and wife who are arguing about buying household furniture, me and Arsy who husband and wife even look like strangers. I miss Arsy, but I'm reluctant to start talking first.

BUKK !

I hit the back of Arsy who stopped in front of me. I was walking behind him from earlier because I wanted to look at him with all my heart.

"Dreams!" He said after turning to face me. "Are you okay?" tanyakanya.

I'm shaking. I want to cry hearing his voice.

Without speaking he clasped my left hand, now we walk together holding hands.

It was this close but felt so far away.

***

Seriate.