YOU'RE MY LITTLE FAIRY

Don't Want The Other

Adis's grief over Beni's departure gradually subsided as she took care of Little Reta and her parents' encouragement to prepare for her college enrollment later.

Her parents agreed not to give Adis baby sitter help so that Adis is busy and spend time taking care of Reta and do not have much time to daydream and grieve.

And Adis accepts it with a chest of air as a form of consequence for the mistakes he has made.

Although in fact pity because the only daughter must be a single mother at a young age, adis' parents never showed that feeling to Adis because they did not want Adis to think and get sadder.

Let Adis be like that first. The important thing is that he can still take care of his child properly and can smile in the days waiting for the registration of new students later.

Beni's parents also visit Reta almost every day.

Sometimes they even bring Adis and Reta to their house for a few days.

The real hard thing for Adis every time must be at his in-laws' house.

The smell of Beni's body seemed to stick to his kiss every time he set foot in the house of her husband's parents.

Especially if you have entered Beni's room which she always uses when staying at her in-laws' house.

But she knew she had to be friendly with her feelings of sadness so as not to break her own heart.

He did not want to fight his grief anymore. Tired feel.

He chose to live all his losses with his feelings for what they were.

He will cry if he wants to cry because he is tired of taking care of Reta or miss Beni.

Later, after he finished crying, everything will feel lighter and rational to be on his way again. It's always like that.

He has begun to learn to accept his destiny by trying to make Beni go, by accepting the fact that there is a Reta that must be preserved as Beni's most valuable relic, which will replace the existence of Beni beside him.

"Mom, I love to dream of Reta's dad?" asked Adis one morning while accompanying her in-laws in the kitchen

Reta is being led by her Kakung street out of the house.

Last night they had just held a ceremony to commemorate the year of Beni's departure.

"Why? You miss Beni?" ask her mother while looking at her.

Adis nodded sadly.

"Mama, Papa, Dad, you told me that Beni dreamed and told me the same thing. If Beni is happy there, keep smiling, more cool. I've never met him in a dream" Adis said with a clear face.

"Mother has never met Beni in a dream. Maybe let us keep all the sweet things about her in our hearts and minds, son. No papa. We can still continue to love her sweet memories." said her mother, stroking her shoulders gently.

"Don't you like Beni's kangen?" adis asked as she looked up to her in-laws face who looked at her dearly.

"always. Mom always misses him. Sometimes I forget that she is not the same as me anymore. Still like to call her" said Mother, laughing sadly.

Adis hugged her mother's stomach and hid her face in the belly of the woman who had given birth to her husband.

"I miss him so much. Why doesn't he want to dream about me for once?" muttered Adis sad.

Adis did not know her tears had melted through her cheeks.

"Propay for me, dear. Maybe Beni wants you not to keep thinking about him. If he often dreams of you, you will find it difficult to move on later. You have to live your life, son. Reta will also need a father figure later" said his mother softly.

He really didn't want to say that.

He wants to be selfish so that Adis and Reta remain theirs forever, in exchange for Beni.

But he was fully aware, Adis still had a life in this world. He was looking for his happiness again.

"It's been a year, son."

"It's been a year, Mom. My feelings are still intact for him. And I don't want to try to change it." Adis.

"You have to go on with your life, son. There are still parents you should be happy with. And yourself too. You and Reta must be happy, so Beni can more calmly leave you" said her mother gently as she hugged her shoulder.

"I promise to be happy, Mom. But I don't want to forget Beni. He is my husband, his father Reta" Adis said in a protest.

"Of course you don't have to forget Beni. And it will not be able to. But you have to make room for other people too in order to replace the task Beni loves and takes care of you and Reta in this world. Keep Beni in one room of your heart, keep it with all its sweet memories, then lock it. He will be immortal there without having to follow your steps in the future" said his mother softly.

"I can't.." said Adis lirih with tears.

Imagine she had to stop thinking about Beni alone she couldn't, especially if she had to be with another man. Adis could not imagine it.

"It doesn't have to be now, son.But you have to start always realizing, Beni can't keep you in this world. He's gone home first."

"I can live alone with Reta. I'm going to college well, work well to be able to live a decent Reta. I promise I will take good care and educate Reta" said Adis still stubborn.

"Mom believes you can take good care of and educate Reta. But you have to remember too, Reta needs a father figure. Reta needs a grown man who will make Reta feel protected and loved and will be her first love. Daughter will always make her father a superhero and her first love, just like you did to your Papa" said Mother with a wise smile.

"There's Papa and Dad, as well as Mas Didit who will be Reta's first love" Adis said.

His mother chose not to continue the conversation.

It was not easy for Adis to open his heart that quickly.

Beni is her first love and her first boyfriend.

His heart was completely owned by the man.

Imagine being able to love someone else, she can't.

And it did take quite a long time for Adis to 'bend' and accept the fact that there are parents too that he should be happy and he made calm.

All this time his parents never teased him with questions about a life companion, Beni's successor.

Unlike his in-laws who have shown a legowo attitude if Adis will marry again someday.

Even if you could say, his in-laws have already

'noisy' with the question of who was close to him after a thousand days of Beni's departure.

They want to get acquainted he said.

"Dad mom didn't want me to be her ex, did she?" adis asked with a sulking face to her in-laws because again she was asked about the boyfriend.

"Yes yes. We have no sons. You can only be our son now." replied Dad with a smile.

Adis just grimaced sadly.

"Do I really have to get married again?" adis asked quietly and desperately.

"It looks like it is. Let your parents have a son-in-law. And your beauty has." said Mother, stroking her arm softly.

"I just love Beni." Adis said while looking down.

"Thank you for loving Beni until the end of his life. Even until now. That means you're a loyal girl. Father I pray that you will be paired with someone better than Beni" said Dad with a smile.

"I want Beni. I don't need a better man than Beni."

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