You My Bucin's

76. Self-conscious

"Ilham?"

Alya was surprised by her being in the hospital with Inspiration falling asleep while holding her hand.

"He nolongin Alya? She skipped school?"

Alya turned her eyes to the wall clock in the room, the needle pointed to the number four that meant she fainted for about an hour.

He pulled a slow hand held by Ilham but apparently his movement made the man wake up.

"Al, are you aware? Finally," said Ilham gladly.

"Is there anything sick? Or do you want to eat? Wanna drink? Wanna"

Alya chuckled in an over-inspired manner, it felt like she had long been unnoticed by this guy.

"Cock laughing anyway? I'm afraid this isn't a joke, anyway,"

"It's a habit to like a lot of things when I just realized," Alya replied.

Ilham looked at the girl annoyed, "just dong if I was worried about the future wife, not really like to worry about me."

Alya was getting anxious with the childlike manner of Inspiration, she became convinced now that she still liked this man.

"Ilham, help me sit down" Alya asked.

Patiently the guy helped Alya to sit down and lean her back with a pillow as a support.

"You want to eat Al?"

The girl nodded. "You!"

"Well, I'll buy it for a minute, yeah, I'll have a porridge or-"

"I want some chicken soup?" as usual.

Ilham rubbed Alya's head slowly. "By dong, anything for princess. Just a minute."

Alya smiled looking at the back of Ilham who was away from his room.

About ten minutes later the boy returned with a white crackle containing a bowl made of styrofoam.

"Yeay finally came, I'm really hungry" Alya exclaimed with a fluffy smile.

"Eat with rice." Inspiration took the bowl and then opened the lid. "Want me a bribe?"

"Yes dong was bribed ayang, I'm sick again,"

The guy chuckles softly then starts to feed Alya.

Behind the intimacy of the two there is a man who was silent in the doorway while carrying a crackle bag. He clenched his hands, it felt like at the moment he wanted to punch Ilham in the face but he paled because he was back in the mirror.

"Aware Di, realized, you are not who Alya is, he will never like humans like lo."

He twisted his body, his heart crumbling again looking at the intimacy that the two humans had rebuilt. Maybe this is how it feels to love without any hesitation, to be honest this feeling arises suddenly because of the joke.

If at that time he did not feel too much, maybe he did not need to go back to feeling pain.

"Well, where's that from?" asked Devan who suddenly patted her shoulder.

"Ha-ah, I'm from Alya's room," he replied in surprise.

Dania looked strangely at the guy, "lo why Di? I think you're sad again."

Aldian glanced beside Devan, the girl who had once stopped in his heart, his first wound, he did not know what to answer because until this second he still could not express his own feelings. He's too scared.

"Woy bro"

"Gue tipped this yes, said not of me afraid not to be eaten because." Aldian gave the crackle to Devan then sauntered away.

"Van, why the weird Aldian kayak?"

The man turned his head to look at the lover. "Hehe doesn't dong, when his girlfriend Dania goes crazy" he said.

"His Alaynya people!"

...*****...

Devan actually came to Aldian's house to ask about his attitude earlier in the hospital. The man looked at his best friend seriously.

"Lo why Di? Is there a problem with Alya?" tanyanya to the point.

Aldian raised his eyebrows, "Huh? Lo why random gini anyway, what's my business with Alya?"

"Udah deh lo open just like me, gini-gini I'm your friend from small,"

"So, you'll even stop me, embarrassed later suddenly my handsome face becomes ugly,"

Devan was upset, "ck, I'm here really want to talk seriously not want to joke. Can you be serious?"

In the end Aldian exhaled his resignation, however Devan would know about his feelings for his sister.

"Promise you won't get angry?" tanyanya.

"Promise,"

"OK so actually I like Alya adek lo,"

"Dog!!" swear Devan with sharpened eyes. "I said lo-"

"Come on, you say you won't be angry," Aldian said fearfully.

Finally the guy sighed to ease his emotions. "OK, go,"

"Gue likes Alya and I don't know when that feeling started. I know you don't want to have a brother-in-law like me and I don't want to have a brother-in-law like you, either,"

Devan increasingly wants to punch his best friend's face but immediately he undo his intention because of the continuation of the Aldian story.

"Every time I deket the same Alya I feel close to my nyokap, you know yourself right? I'm sorry I don't exist and what I regret the most is when my last moment was not with him" Aldian said, looking down.

"But I'll never force my feelings, yes even if it's here" He held his right chest. "There is my heart that feels crushed because of the closeness of Alya the same Inspiration."

"Like it's the same with me?" ask Devan.

Aldian nodded steadily, "very Van, I never mess with the same feeling because I know how it feels to be played."

"Why don't you try to chase me?" ask again.

"Whatever hard I try to pursue someone who has already sown his heart with others, it will all be free, it will be free, there will be more pain because your feelings are not avenged and it moves on for a long time."

Aldian patted his best friend's shoulder with a smile, "gue tipped Alya yes, don't let him choose the wrong partner."

Devan just nodded in return.

"Gue is planning to study abroad, all my feelings go to Alya," Aldian said, making Devan open his eyes wide.

"Lo want to leave me? Didn't we promise to go to college? Lo evil Di," Devan replied disappointed.

"Do you also have the heart to keep hurting because inget same adek lo?"

Devan is silent, forgetting is difficult there is no instant way to forget someone who is loved suddenly, he should not torture the inner friend.

"I'm sorry Di, I should accept your decision because it's your right, I hope you soon forget Alya, I want the best for you," said Devan in support of his best friend's decision.

"Thanks very much Van, lo-"

"Assalamu'alaikum!! Whah! I'm home!! Angga's home!"