Writing a Story on Earth

CHAPTER 43

I was tired of pretending to be happy in front of everyone, always smiling like nothing happened.

Pretending nothing happened, actually my mind was left almost every night I could never sleep.

My life is full of pretense to look good in everyone's eyes, if you know what I feel right now I am so tormented.

Every word I write is just to slap me in the face so that I'm always strong enough to live this life.

The loss and loss of a person is what I hate in my life and his disappearance has been as selflessly lost as the earth has swallowed.

The person who used to be there is now no longer on this earth, the person who always said I want to marry me.

Now everything has disappeared and left a memory in the heart, whether you accidentally disappear and go like the earth swallowed..

Just to make me not sad.

I understand and I understand, you have a disease that has been condemned by the doctor that your life is not long and I always say life and death have been regulated by the power.

Staying the spirit behind your pain is all God's way so that we never forget him and behind it all must be his silver lining.

In the end, you've been fighting for a few years to get well and get back to health, only for me that we'll be together forever.

But in the end everything changed you were no longer as excited as ever and you disappeared without telling me again.

And in the end I found the answer, for my prayer turned out to be the person whom I loved had been the Lord picked up for good.

Either I should be angry or sad when I hear of your departure for good.

Now my life is lifeless, just pretending to be happy and pretending to smile all I can do.

I can only pray for you, may you be calm and happy in a different realm than I am.

I still can't believe this is all a dream..

I will never stop praying for you until the end of my life.

Now that I really hate losing someone again I'm sick of everything I love always going away and disappearing in the gods..

Now I know a woman who makes me feel amazed by all her charm and personality.

Whether I had something wrong or didn't understand, she just kept quiet and ignored everything I cared about her.

My heart always wondered why you changed?

What a mistake I made until now is no more news of you, as if we became strangers again.

Just to be friends anything can't be.

At least don't shut me up, if I have a fault I'm sorry.

Appreciate a meeting with a few words.

So that my heart does not wonder anymore.

What with your silence are you satisfied?

What with your cuek makes you happy...

One more thing for those of you who are in hell or in heaven may be happy.

I will continue to pray for the best for you, in each of my prostrations.

Either you're alive or you're dead.

it was like a dream I could not accept.

my days are tormented. I'm tired of God with all the stories you've made in my life.

I am tired of his silence too.

I wanna ask you a question?

But I have no reason to ask, because I'm a nobody.

If only I could turn back the clock, I wouldn't want to know a meeting.