Writing a Story on Earth

CHAPTER 35

To leave without news is what I always call you in my prayers.

This year I was always waiting for you, always fighting for you but until this moment I could never see the real figure of you..

There are too many secrets you hide.

But I have always been patient and patient waiting for every promise and promise you make to me.

Because I believe and I believe in you that I always fought for.

Until the end...

A shocking news made me lose my direction and purpose.

I never believed the news about you before I saw with my own eyes you were gone on this earth..

Either you're alive or you're dead.

Or away.

Sometimes this fate seems to celebrate my life.

I love you sincerely but in fact you never want to fight because of your selfish nature.

Who's too scared of the disease you've been suffering from until you don't want to see me.

Then what every word you say to me..

Is it just a lie or are you just playing with my life..

I don't know how many thousand promises you made to me.

But there's never one thing you've created.

Aaaaaaaaah I am tormented by all your sweet words for me.

Until this moment my heart always asks..

Where are you???

What less all my attention to you.

What a lack of sincerity and my struggle all this time for you..

Until in the end it was just a wound I felt, with no word from you anymore.

It's like your life is full of question marks.

Sometimes I feel something that makes me lema in everyday life that I live without words of encouragement.

I lost my direction and purpose, my life seemed empty without passion and the usual smile engraved on my lips.

But this lonely night and my lonely and miserable life taught me something certain..

Wherever I stand, remain humble without showing my sadness and despair.

There may be many people accompanying me but no one understands my feelings at the moment.

It was as if I was lost between a feeling of wanting to try and kill every feeling of wanting to be happy.

It turned out that it was just a feeling that kept me down.

Perhaps this poison is my own mind that sometimes tries to influence this heart and mind.

Until this body goes as if following what it thinks a dark becomes blind.

The white aaaaaah that I had always jungjung as high as the sky as deep as the ocean began to collapse with every temptation that made this body uncontrollable.

And after we realized it, I realized it was all gone..

In the end, this regret drives me crazy.

What this is called the brain no longer works properly.

Only crying and crying without any happiness is created.

Is this the story you gave me?

Is this your plan for me?

Lord I am so tired of what is happening in my life, I can no longer stand looking at the sky that has left me.

A loving and loving God, I hope you don't leave me..

Give me a path that will enable me to stand up and hold my wings as high as the sky and as deep as knowledge that will never have an end.

Until the earth and sky collapse.