WOMEN AND GRAVES
ANGGI KUSUMA IS IN LOVE WITH HIS WIFE
Anggi Kusuma did not think anyway, he also fell into the lap of love. He realized that after a long time married to Fana Ismi. Anggi Kusuma fell in love, falling in love with his wife.
Anggi Kusuma is a quiet figure, he was even silent, when his parents betrothed him to Fana Ismi, a beautiful woman and made Anggi Kusuma's chest like a wave.
Anggi Kusuma and Fana Ismi became a couple. Secretly, although he obtained the marriage by way of arranged marriage, Anggi Kusuma kept the taste of his wife. He is not good at expressing his feelings, nor does he express those feelings, because they have become a husband and wife. It seems strange for the quiet Anggi Kusuma, if he expresses love to the woman who has become his wife.
They became simple couples. Anggi Kusuma works and gives shopping money to Fana Ismi, and Fana Ismi herself keeps the house, cooks, and gives rations as a wife to Anggi Kusuma every night. However, up to two years of marriage, they have not even got offspring. The doctor said, Anggi Kusuma is barren. He has become more quiet since then.
How painful Anggi Kusuma heart, because he could not give happiness to the wife he loved so much so far. He is too boring as a husband, he also can not give the baby to the wife. But all that changed, when a homeless poet came to the village where they lived. The poet is named Gemala.
Anggi Kusuma knew that the night saban, secretly Gemala sent Fana Ismi a letter containing verses. He also knew that every time his wife read the letter, Fana Ismi's smile was more lively. He smiled more often when he got letters from Gemala, rather than living many years with her. Anggi Kusuma also realized, that all this time Fana Ismi did not love him, her husband. Fana Ismi married him, because of an arranged marriage. She knew that Fana Ismi was in love with Gemala, a man who was not her husband.
And as foolish as Anggi Kusuma is, he did not break the forbidden relationship between Gemala and his wife. He loved Fana Ismi too much, so whatever he did for her happiness. He was even willing, acting ignorant, to Gemala's relationship with his wife. If Gemala can make his wife happy, he feels happy, that's what Anggi Kusuma's mind said.
However, since Fana Ismi often quietly settles at night to meet Gemala, the woman's behavior changes. He looked colder than before, he also rarely gave rations, he even forgot his duty to be a good wife for Anggi Kusuma.
Anggi Kusuma was jealous, although the word jealousy was too late to say. Quietly, many thorns in the heart of Anggi Kusuma, when he saw his wife settles at night. Nor was he able to see Fana Ismi smiling to herself when she read the letter from Gemala. Like smiling over the agony of Anggi Kusuma. He was jealous, though it was too late to say.
***
A long time ago, Anggi Kusuma had become a loser. He is too loser, so can't say that “I love you” to his own wife. He was too loser, so he could not apologize, because he was barren and unable to give the baby. He was too a loser, so he let Fana Ismi cheat just like that. He is too much of a loser because he can't please the woman he loves so much. He is too loser and does not deserve to be the husband of Fana Ismi.
Anggi Kusuma wants to change, to be the coolest figure in the eyes of Fana Ismi. Anggi Kusuma does not want to be a loser, and he also wants to stop being a quiet and boring man. He wants to be a romantic like Gemala. He wanted to be able to write poems so that he could make Fana Ismi endlessly sing a smile for him. Anggi Kusuma wants to change, even though this is a bit too late.
And that night, Anggi Kusuma actually combed her hair and cut her mustache. He looks like a high school boy, he wears jeans and a T-shirt. She wanted to show Fana Ismi, that her husband could also act no less cool than the bum poet.
Fana Ismi was also a little surprised to see the change in appearance, from a quiet husband to a cool pretentious husband. That night, Fana Ismi just met Gemala, telling the poet, that she was pregnant with her child. However, Gemala's attitude was so evil that Fana Ismi came home limp and could not hide her cries.
Anggi Kusuma noticed the crying and the stomach he always felt. In that doorway, Anggi Kusuma no longer cared about his appearance. He bent his knees and kowtowed in front of Fana Ismi. “I'm sorry, Fi .. I'm too much of a loser to be your husband. I'm not a husband, so I can't make you happy. But I promise, Fi. From now on I will be a nice husband, I want to see you always smiling. Fi, all that I do, because I love you so much.”
Fana Ismi hummed at the confession. He admitted he was too stupid. She had gone a long way in search of love, but she had actually found it in her husband. He was too stupid, so God punished Fana Ismi, with a fetus in her stomach. She had to tell her husband about it, and he had to be willing to accept the consequences. “I'm pregnant, Mas ..” said Fana Ismi later.
“Really?” anggi Kusuma. What a happy response it never terbesit goods for a moment in the head of Fana Ismi. “I am very happy to hear that ..” continued Anggi Kusuma.
“But ..” Fana Ismi was unable to continue her words, tears were flowing quite profusely and could not stop. While hugging, he also braced himself to tell the truth about the fetus he conceived to Anggi Kusuma. “But, this is not your son, Mas. I'm sorry, Mas. I have become pregnant because of my dark relationship with others.”
It was very sad for Anggi Kusuma to hear that, even though he had prepared this scene before. Anggi Kusuma also looked at the disheveled face of Fana Ismi with a reassuring look, and he felt his wife's shoulder while calling, “Fi. I don't care who you get that fetus with. I really don't care. You are my wife. The baby is in your stomach. So, that baby will also be my son. When born later, I promise to be a good father to him.”
Really, that calm and warming answer shook the body of Fana Ismi. She hugged her husband's body tightly and tightly. She does not want to go away from her husband, she just wants to be with Anggi Kusuma forever. Anggi Kusuma is very kind and he is also a good husband.
***
And when Anggi Kusuma took a walk with Fana Ismi to the pier. Fana Ismi also indented the lizard, making Anggi Kusuma wander and squash looking for a lizard. He went to buy his wife a packet of cilok.
And at that time, Fana Ismi again met with Gemala. Anggi Kusuma realized Gemala was approaching his wife, but he did nothing, even more distance, as long as the poet did nothing evil to Fana Ismi. Gemala apologized to Fana Ismi and promised to always wait for her arrival. And for some reason, Fana Ismi also agreed.
“Do you want to run away from me?” anggi Kusuma asked after they returned from the dock.
Fana Ismi quickly shook her head. She wondered why her husband asked such a question.
“Sorry, I saw you with the poet,” continued Anggi Kusuma. So that makes Fana Ismi aware, of the previous question. “If you still love the poet, go, I'll let you go. I did it all because I love you so much. I'm happy when you're happy.”
Hearing that, Fana Ismi faced two choices that she never wanted. He may have chosen one, while he loved both. Gemala is interesting, however, Anggi Kusuma is also very good. Anggi Kusuma loves her as sincerely as he does, however, secretly Fana Ismi still holds a taste in Gemala. And, “Hem ..” has not yet Fana Ismi replied, her stomach immediately hurts. “Okay, my stomach hurts. My stomach hurts, Mas.”
Anggi Kusuma panicked. He carried Fana Ismi's body and she rushed him to the hospital. In the hospital, he also accompanied the delivery of his wife. Then the unexpected came, Anggi Kusuma was faced with two choices, choosing the wife or baby who was not his biological child. He could not decide, because he decided to give a decision to the mother herself.
“Mas,” call Fana Ismi so soft and limp. “What you still love me.”
Anggi Kusuma nodded quickly with tears in his eyes.
“Thank God you still love me, Mom. Mas, will you grant my request?”
Again Anggi Kusuma can only nod. He was unable to speak in view of his wife's critical state.
“Meet Gemala, Mas,” said Fana Ismi later. “Tell him my goodbyes, and give him this baby I gave birth to.”
“Ke.. why? Ke... ke... why should I give the baby to the poet?” anggi Kusuma finally opened his mouth.
“Because the baby was Gemala's baby, Mas. That's not your baby. I don't want to bother you if I have to take care of that baby.”
“Ba... well,” reply Anggi Kusuma agreed, who was greeted with a smile by Fana Ismi. Anggi Kusuma is too much of a loser, and in fact, he doesn't dare say ‘no’ to the woman he really likes.
Anggi Kusuma was really jealous, because, at the end of his life, Fana Ismi was still trying to call the name Gemala.
The baby was born, in exchange for the life of Fana Ismi herself. Anggi Kusuma approached the baby with a giant step, he tried to hold the baby for a moment. The baby smiled looking at Anggi Kusuma's beard. That baby smile, reminded Anggi Kusuma of Fana Ismi's smile. The baby looks more like Fana Ismi than Gemala.
Anggi Kusuma intends to take care of the baby alone, he will not give the baby to the Gemala. He did meet Gemala, but he still did not give up the baby. Reneging on his promise to Fana Ismi, he also lied about the baby's death to Gemala.
Anggi Kusuma decided to stay at the public cemetery with the baby, as a punishment for himself, for wasting his life with Fana Ismi.
Anggi Kusuma wanted to name the baby. He lifted the baby up high, and screeched, “Kumal Aksara.” He named the baby Kumal Aksara. Until a time came, when he heard the news of Gemala's death on stage, he felt guilty. Feeling guilty for letting the Gemala curse herself. Anggi Kusuma also added the name ‘G.’ to his adopted son, as a sign that Kumal Aksara is the son of Gemala. G. Kumal Aksara, lived as a poet like his father.
