Women & Destiny (Edit-revision Process)

Round one

doom can also come when one deifies love and puts love above all else

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It had been two months since Anin made peace with herself and her husband. His home life has also improved like a husband and wife in general.

In addition to Bima's possessive attitude that has not been lost and is sometimes felt outrageous. Makes Anin careless. And that often leads to debates and small fights.

But it did not take long for Bima to improve the situation. If his wife had hit the drums and began to silence without comment and then left in a hurry Bima apologized and admitted his jealousy and error.

That's how it has been for the past two months. Anin really became a beloved wife in her husband's pampering.

And a doctor who loved his patients while undergoing his profession.although once one morning he was astonished and wondered by one of the patients who came to visit.

Anin was sitting writing a prescription behind her desk while waiting for the next patient to be examined.

Anin lifted her head and greeted her patients when the door of the room opened and a woman appeared from behind the door.

A sweet-faced woman who came alone to the practice room. As soon as he entered, he immediately sat facing Anin without saying a word.

But somehow the impression of where and why was so, once he saw his patient, Anin immediately put a negative feeling towards him. I think he's seen it before, but I don't know where he's forgotten.

But it is not Anin's habit to mix his subjective opinions with his patients so that he immediately dismisses the irrational feelings and replace them with more attention to his patients.

Although it does not seem like he is in pain, the way he sits like a hot worm, just keep moving does not want to stay still. And somehow his eyes repeatedly stole a glance towards Anin.

From the patient status card delivered by the nurse in front of it is written clearly named Star.

"Mrs. Star.." he was twenty-eight in his house in Tebet.

After a while the patient was silent, Anin finally spoke.

"Good day, Mother," said Anin. "What pain do you feel?"

"Nothing.eh, Dizziness, Doc." Slightly stammered he replied.

"Dizziness or headache?"

"...And how long have you been suffering from it?"

"How long, huh?" the woman scrunched her forehead. "...one week maybe or, aah.I forgot the doctor."

"Mm, are you married?"

"No, but what does this have to do with my headache?" The stars are offended.

"There certainly is." Anin tried to smile. "It could be, maternal dizziness has something to do with pregnancy or problems– problems in the household. Or related to a husband and wife relationship that is less harmonious."

"Ooh, that's it."

"Then, whenever the dizziness strikes? Morning, day or night? Or if you do certain activities such as after exercising, gardening or activities directly under the hot sun?" ask Anin again.

"Well, I don't know."

He who is dizzy also does not know when the dizziness. It's strange! "Now does it feel dizzy?" Anin asked again.

"No."

"Then, are there any other complaints? Like nausea and pain in the abdomen or the heartburn?"

"Nothing.but eeh yaa ever nausea and stomach also feels bad."

"In which part? You heart?"

"....maybe."

"Alright then, please mother lie down in that place," Anin pointed towards the bed on the left side of the practice room wall. Then Anin grabbed the stethoscope located on the table. Then the end of the stethoscope is placed into her ear.

Hearing Anin's words, the star began to stand like a model. If her speech was more friendly, surely the beautiful sweet-faced woman would be the perfect woman.

But Anin's judgment suddenly collapsed when she saw the woman did not walk toward the bed but toward the exit and then turn the door handle. And before Ani could say a word, she first said with a slight blush.

"...sorry, doctor." Then along with the opening of the door of the practice room he came out to close the door again and disappeared from the sight of Dr. Anin

Strange that woman. Don't–don't the nurse in front misdeliver the patient, Anin thought with a smile.

I waited for the next patient to come in. And soon forget about the event.

Oh yes, the day after tomorrow is the exciting news received by Anin and Mika. That his best friend Meii next week will be married in Java with the young man of his parents' choice.

Ecie.. Victims of matchmaking too.

And for that important event, Anin and Mika had planned to apply for leave and actually Anin wanted to invite her Husband all for a vacation. But what is the power of Bima is always busy with his work. It is difficult to contact during working hours.

Teradamg Anin occasionally wants to visit her husband's office to just take her to lunch. But it has not been realized until now.

The routine of busyness at work did not change much for Anin. All the same, normal as usual goes hand in hand with the progress of rumors that align it. Except Abi. Ever since the doctor married, his behavior has become increasingly strange.

And no one dared to dispute his will. Likewise, when Anin caught Abi who was teasing midwifery students who were practicing, she found, but Abi seemed to not care so much that Anin was ashamed of himself and was forced to find an alternative time to meet him and ask permission for leave.

Another problem when Anin caught his best friend who was alone with Mika in the archive room. Adult humans are different types in a quiet room, it is impossible to just chat Let alone they have been involved in love location and it feels strange that Anin does not reprimand. Then let his friend sin. It goes against his conscience.

But Anin still held him because it was their personal business and he had no right to interfere in it. Maybe on another occasion Anin will reprimand Mika when she was alone without the presence of Abi.

And when Anin gets a chance to rebuke her best friend. It was precisely Anin who was astonished by his best friend's answer. That they were in a relationship and Abi really loved her. It's just that circumstances are not in favor of their love. Then Mika just believed.

Love is crazy!! such love does not require reason. When he came and to whom he approached no one was able to shake him off. But it is wrong to put love above all else, because love can also wreak havoc.

How is it different from blind love?!!

I don't know, maybe for that I'm one of the victims. My love is blind. Blind in the real sense. Since that night my heart has been blind. My feelings can't recognize who and who my love really is, because the two always go hand in hand.

And love has been present because of a mistake. Love grows because of time.

That's the secret that Anin has been quiet until the bottom of his heart. The darkest and most isolated.

Every night I wake up because of my dreams. An inappropriate dream for a wife. Where lay next to her a husband. But he dreams of another man.

The inner turmoil that Anin felt was getting worse when she also felt the love of her husband. Welcomed husband. Until he felt almost crazy. For betraying her husband, lying to her husband. For on some occasions when they were loving, it was not her husband that she imagined, but another man who appeared without being asked in her mind. That is the main reason why for a while Anin wanted to delay the presence of momongan until he was sure of his feelings. Not because I want to continue my education.

After a while, his feelings froze. Silence, calm, suddenly disturbed by the return of a mistake.

Return with greater courage.

Return with the wound

Back in the moment his feeling and inner state were shaken.

Then confusion came back to say hello.

If only Anin had been stricter with herself. In love and his feelings.

Perhaps he will not get caught up in the strange illusions and realities of love.

Rice has become porridge and I am not an angel who can restore time. We just live the destiny to where the limit, Inner Anin said again.

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