With You I Find Love

Episode thirty two

Atayad's eyes were still focused on Ara's gaze. If only he did not feel embarrassed to want it to feel like he buried his lips into the lips of his wife.

After a few minutes they were in that state, Ara cleared her throat first to resuscitate the two of them. Atayad pulled his hand from his wife's body. Atayad scratched his back of the head which may not be itchy at all.

"Eee,eeemmm" dehem Atayad while confirming his position. "Sleep, surely you feel tired after a long day of work" said Atayad as he laid his body and turned his back on Ara. Maybe he was embarrassed by his actions or maybe he was regretting it.

Ara herself after the incident a few minutes ago now looks confused. Yes he is being confused by the attitude of the husband who suddenly like before and now back to the previous attitude. Ara's heart suddenly shook again, her eyes seemed to flash lightning instantly.

Ara

Today I was really confused by some unexpected events today. Either I have to be happy or I have to be sad. Confused to describe the situation today. This morning I was surprised by the attitude of him who became my husband. Although his attitude was still flat like a plywood but his eyes looked so different.

Not done with it I was surprised again by his sudden good attitude about to send me to work. And when I got out of his car without saying thank you in the slightest he reminded me of saying love again. It is shameful of myself to be far from my true attitude.

At night I was again surprised by his unexpected attitude. Whether this happened because of encouragement from his heart or maybe it happened because there are my friends and friends who are visiting our home.

But I really don't understand if it's because there's a friend of ours. Wh why? because they don't see our actions. Or maybe it happened because..... I don't want to conclude it too early. I'm afraid that his attitude makes me wish for more. We are not married because we love each other. And it is certainly impossible if he does not have someone he loves.

After glancing at her husband who looked already clear Ara began to close her eyes. In his heart was a good hope for tomorrow.

***

After making sure that his wife was completely asleep, Atayad tilted his body to Ara.

Long enough Atayad nailed his gaze to the wife's calm face. His breathing was no less calm than those who were asleep. His hands stretched out to justify the blanket covering his wife's body.

"Why should I hate her just because my parents chose her to be my wife? Though before I did not know him and it is likely that he did not have a problem with me. Would it be fair for him if I treated him like this just because I had experienced being disappointed by their kind? I never thought about how she felt when she was supposed to marry a guy like me? Could he be happy? Or vice versa" Atayad momentarily took a deep breath.

"I was too dark an eye just because I was disappointed. I'm too selfish if I say here I'm the only one who suffers. Though out there maybe a lot of people who experience things like me." Atayad spoke in his heart.

Atayad's eyes still refused to shut. It's almost early morning. He noticed the clockwork, which he felt was very slow. He felt a movement from Ara tilting her body towards him. But he gasped when he saw tears coming out of Ara's eyes, while the owner still closed his eyes.

"He's crying?" atayad said in his heart.

Confused at once belching Atayad's mind, he did not know what to do. Remembering the tears were still visible in those closed eyes.

"Did she cry like this every night? Did this happen because she felt tormented by this marriage? Ah no no, don't don't let her cry over her loved ones?"

Again Atayad was silent for a moment to set the saliva that soaked his throat. Atayad's mind was dissolved when he heard the incoming notification but not from his phone.

Atayad touched the screen which turned out to use a password. But the popup from the notification can still be seen.

"Good sleep, my beloved, I'm still in the same place waiting for you. I'm sure time will bring you back. I still believe you are my destiny"~~Rey

As always Rey is good at playing every strand of the word.

Atayad put the phone back in its place. He glanced at Ara who was still in the same position.

"Had to cry, he might have been dreaming of his girlfriend. Turns out he was really tormented by his relationship with me"

Atayad threw his breath out roughly, after circling the bed, he picked up a pillow and walked towards the sofa. Before laying down he took a moment to look back at the bed.

For the first time Atayad slept on the sofa. I don't know what he did that for? The author was unable to read his heart. 😁

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Atayad woke up when the birds were already beginning to sound. He was surprised to find a blanket covered his body. It was only fitting that all night he slept so soundly without feeling cold at all.

After rubbing his eyes to clean the rest of his sleepiness, he glanced over the bed that turned out to be neat. And Ara was no longer seen there. He glanced at the wall clock and it was 07:00 in the morning.

Atayad smiled faintly, it turned out that he could also sleep soundly on the sofa. Though before he could never be like last night when trying to sleep on the sofa.

He was about to take a shower when the voices of his best friend and his best friend's children were heard from the tv room. Atayad paused his intention when he remembered that there were no clothes of his in Ara's room. All her clothes were in the room that her best friend had worn last night.

"Gosh, I forgot" said Atayad, with one arm around his waist and the other patting his eel.

He seemed to be pacing back and forth thinking about how to take his clothes. It was impossible for him to sillyly say that all his clothes were there.

"Aaaahhhhh why the girl did not come back here" Atayad said, scratching his head. "When do I survive here under these circumstances?" he said while holding his voice.

In reality, every human needs each other. But Atayad declared no when he was darkened by a feeling that was so heartbreaking and common sense.

Atayad was getting more agitated, when Ara never came. The smell of sweat began to smell the results of the movement of his back and forth. Atayad stomped his feet with teeth stuck together. "This aaaaaahhhhhhh is excruciating" Atayad said.

He was really trapped by his own actions.