
" when a smile cannot hide a wound"
I've been in the hospital taking care of Devan's sister for a week.
those are the words I always put on my heart.
not sincerely take care of brother devan.however he is my husband the person I love, but more to accept the sincere word for the speech caci maki mother-in-law..
brother.today we will go home..
but before the doctor will check the condition of the legs of the brother.so that the doctor knows when devan can be treated.I said to brother devan.
I don't know what he's thinking, it's like he didn't hear me.
tock.tok..
I heard the door knocking..
I saw my mother standing up and grumbling..What else is it? my monologue is in my heart without asking.
he entered with pride..
devan, you came home today, right??? do not forget before going home to buy lunch for us at home..
devan stared blankly..
Have in-laws gini very.kan kak devan again sick can not walk again how to buy lunch take home.. there should be a mother who bought for her son who is sick again. but I just talk in my heart. This tongue is a crab I can't say like that.. that will be an endless debate..
my heart began to argue constantly mother's words.I may be tired.all the time devan brother in the hospital I can not sleep well.I only slept one or two hours it was trying to sleep . I don't know why the eyes are closed but the mind is so screwed that it can't sleep.
I see my face reflected. The dark circles under the eyes are clearly visible.
good yes you nin. all day sleeping here.the reason you just wait for sick people..
oh..!!!! what do you mean mom???
I did all the doctor's orders to take care of Devan..
mom, don't accuse me of not-no. Mom can see how I look. I'm tired mom. I can't sleep well..because the back is painful, I answered my mother with courage.
youuu!!! you have dared to answer yes.don't expect me to be merciful to your wife Devan..
brother Devan was silent as if he would not hear mother's voice..
what else is this?? why brother devan?? is he daydreaming??
nin..
how will I move later???
my situation is like this nin.. are you still willing to take care of me nin?? my mother doesn't want me anymore..
filled my heart to hear the words of brother devan. I squashed his hug. I hugged him tightly. Although these eyes are hot want to cry but I hold back, want me to look firm.
calm down, brother.I am here for you, brother..
calm down.it was just a momentary emotion mother.I said calming sis devan..
but in my heart I am not sure what I am talking about my mother..
I love you, sister, I said again as I kissed her cheeks which now look more tapered.
thank you, I love you too..
how's bian nin??
bian is still the same mother sister. later we stop by mother's house to pick up bian.
yes, I miss bian..
yes, my sister, I miss it too..
wait, sister.I will ask the nurse.when we consult a doctor . so that we can go home soon..
I rushed.so that Devan did not wait long afraid of what happened because he was left behind.
much is said by the doctor, but more on how to stimulate the body's cells to be balanced with the course of therapy later that can be done kak devan again a week..
just trying and praying is all we can do.
a word not spoken. from brother devan.he was silent and moody..
maybe this is the name that has fallen and hit the stairs again..
I pushed my father's newly bought devan's wheelchair.my mother-in-law took off her hand.
the taxi I ordered has come. I helped brother devan up with no energy how much I have. because my small body is only limited to his shoulders if we are the same standing. after that I put our luggage with the help of a taxi driver.
the trip to my mom's house picked up bian.
when we got home, mom and bian were waiting for the terrace, so we could go straight to my in-laws' house.
previously I had called my mother.my reason so that the cost of the taxi is not too expensive.when in fact I saw brother devan embarrassed to meet my parents. however, the father of the mother who paid for all the treatment devan kak time in the hospital.
our trip took another about twenty minutes.on arrival home.ve seen the crowd.Our neighbors like to know what happened..
they looked at me like I was going to make a mistake. They whispered to scorn me. I don't know what else my mother told people..
looks like a fucking carrier..
look at his face so stale..
no work wants free..
it's usually just a hand..
I heard them whispering to each other..
I closed my eyes. I clenched my hand.don't cry Anin.
brother Devan just kept looking at me...
at least defend me brother. Do not just be quiet, I said in my heart.
he did not react.just waiting for me to walk while pushing his wheelchair.The goods I brought were still placed in the house, and bian was in the lap of brother devan..
fast in!! said mother..
you see and hear all gossiping about you and devan. You should be self-aware.do not usually become a burden on the husband..
look now.I have to bear your burden.don't expect you to be able to relax in this house..
I heard the heavy breathing of Devan, and then he said..
mother, I am still sick now.I will help you that I can yes ma'am.sorry devan troublesome mother.
sad, that's what I think..
there is a heart that is upset but can do nothing..
I faintly heard the sound of people approaching..
ooo.. turned out to be home after all the king and queen.hahaha...
I've prepared my lunch. I'm hungry..
I just got to sinta.. in a moment yes.I will take and take care of devan and bian brother for a while..
suduuhhh mbak.was told mom to buy a food pesto so I can quickly eat and go to work again..
we don't have any love money.I used the money to pay the taxi..
ownhh style ride a taxi.why the angkot only..
keep talking to you love.if you want to eat make it yourself do not tell anin who makes..
I realized. oya. sis devan would not know that they like to play orders to me. My monologue in heart.
he scowled and left who definitely reported to mom..
anin. you dare to argue now. quickly make food for love.he must be strong to work to support us all..