
That night after dinner Ruby and Anna's doctor relax in Ruby's room, while Lila accompanies baby Gyan in Ruby's bed.
"By, this Nata nitip is for you," said Anna's doctor, handing over a letter she's been holding to Ruby.
" What is this brother?" ruby asked, frowning, he felt astonished why doctor Nata left him a letter.
"You will read it tomorrow when I come home" said Anna.
"All right, sister, but I want to keep it first," replied Ruby while walking towards the closet to store the letter, he was actually very curious about the contents of the letter, the tumben-tenbengan doctor Nata sent him a letter, it was also usual that if there was anything he would immediately call Ruby, but because Anna's doctor had not allowed to open it he finally dismissed his curiosity. After putting the letter in her wardrobe drawer, she returned to Anna's doctor.
"By, I'm gonna ask you a question, okay?" ask Anna's doctor.
"By my brother, ask me," replied Ruby.
"But you don't take it personally well" said Anna's doctor.
"It's not kog kak," said Ruby.
"If there was a man who could sincerely accept you with baby Gyan, what would you do?" asked Anna's doctor with anxious hope, afraid that Ruby would feel offended, she felt relieved when Ruby finally smiled thinly.
"For now I do not think there, brother, I have failed in my household, my household now also seems not a real household, brother, sister Anna knows for herself how I am related to Satya mas and Rania mba. I actually wanted to separate from the mas Satya kak but he did not want to divorce me, finally I decided to leave the main house solely because I did not want to continue to be near him, he said, I wanted to go far away, but I was afraid that Satya would take baby Gyan away from me if she knew from the beginning of my intentions, so I told him that if I was going to give him a month to take care of this matter, that month was also enough for me to make plans in the future, until there Ruby stopped, he took a deep breath.
"Where are you going By?" ask Anna's doctor with teary eyes.
"I don't know brother, I once thought I could take care of baby Gyan together with mas Satya and mba Rania but it was not that easy to live a household that had to share soul and body, especially since Rendra left me for all eternity and brother Sultan also did not want to give Nendra, I increasingly do not want to separate from baby Gyan kak, I have no one else now, I have no one, tell me brother, where's my fault?" clear circles began to fall from the corner of Ruby's eyes, Anna's doctor shifted a little chair and grabbed Ruby in his arms, he was unable to speak, he could only rub Ruby's back.
"I feel sorry for baby Gyan for having to be born under these circumstances but I also can't force my ego to have someone else's, maybe it's fate baby Gyan has to live life with me alone, sister," Ruby's crying increasingly broken, doctor Anna also can not control her tears that have since settled.
"If only you would allow Nata into your life and baby Gyan I would be sincere By," said Anna's doctor inwardly but he had not dared to tell Ruby directly.
"Sister, I really don't want to have a relationship with Satya anymore, I'm afraid if I make the decision together to take care of baby Gyan, even I will dissolve into the life of Satya mas, Satya, finally I really took it from Rania's mom, please tell me what to do, sister," Ruby said.
"By, start opening your heart to others, that love can come slowly over time, you can't be constantly in a circle of uncertainty from Satya."
"That's hard, brother, I don't think I can get back in touch with people after being widowed twice, I can't start a new relationship, I'd rather live alone," Ruby let go of her hug on Anna's doctor.
Towards midnight Ruby could not close her eyes, he saw the face of baby Gyan clingy, the face that was like a betel is halved with Satya. He remembered Rendra.
"Ren, if only you were still here at this time, you wouldn't be this loud, you would have seen your mother from up there, please help your mother find a way out without having to separate from your sister," again Ruby danced in the breath.
The night crept up, the air from the air conditioner penetrated Ruby's bones but he could not cool the heart of Ruby who was still rumbling to hold her tight, inexplicably sadness as if at home continued to perch there, but Ruby has always assured herself that one day her current sadness will change her boundless happiness.
After Ruby replaced baby Gyan diapers, she also laid her body beside baby Gyan, carrying the tiny body of baby Gyan into her arms, there was a calmness that she found in every breath of the baby.
"This will not be a problem if you want to separate from your mother," Ruby softly kissed baby Gyan's cheeks, slowly he closed his eyes, he closed, curling his body makes an arch under the feet of baby Gyan until he can finally fall asleep too.
The next day Anna's doctor came out early from the room, she and Lila were busy in the kitchen cooking their groceries yesterday in the supermarket. Ruby only came out after their food was ready to be served at the dinner table.
"What does Anna cook, smells so good," asked Ruby who already looked fresh holding baby Gyan.
"I'm cooking chiken steak, By,"
"You look fresher this morning, so don't be sad" said Anna's doctor.
"Yes, brother, you come here often" replied Ruby.
"The aunty's a handsome doll is also well, the same handsome as Uncle Nata's," Anna's doctor walked the dinner shirt carrying a plate in her hand while poking the cheeks of the puffed baby Gyan.
"Kog kak Nata sak, what do you mean?" Ruby frowned, astonished by Anna's words, remembering a letter from Nata's doctor she had not read. Lila who heard Anna's doctor talk like that just smiled thinly, in her heart she thought if only Ruby could accept Nata doctor in her life then she would also feel happiness, in her heart she thought if she could accept Nata doctor in her life, but will his young master let go?. Lila took a heavy breath.
"There is no meaning By, who knows baby Gyan kangen the same unclenya, he has not felt the touch of Nata for a long time," Anna's doctor smiled broadly at Ruby, saying, ruby just kept quiet about what Anna said.
They also enjoy breakfast with occasional jokes from doctors Anna and Lila.
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