Where Are You, Love
Love = Lust???
Ahhh if the dream came true I would be so happy to know the man who raped me, took my virginity to finally become my husband that I would not have to explain to other men why I was not a virgin when I got married.
Will Gio be responsible for marrying me and genuinely love me for the rest of his life?
LOVE... ???
Gio said he loved me and wouldn't leave me after he raped me when I was unconscious. Is love really like this? Imposing his will on lust in a loved woman? Aahhh my head hurts once thinking about it plus again because I cried all night until I fell asleep exhausted.
It's a good thing it's Sunday so I don't have to get up and go to school. Sarah digested her thoughts that were filled by the incident yesterday afternoon when Gio forcibly fucked her in other words raping her.
Sarah is eager to report to the police but is afraid that Gio's threat will actually occur. Sarah could not imagine their hot video spread on social media seen many pairs of eyes known all over the world and the most feared thing was to see her parents and extended family sad, especially her grandmother who was loved so much he will have a heart attack when news of the video reaches his ear.
It's not my fault! it's Gio's fault for addressing love above his lust. Is love \= lust? Why do men think like that, why do men wrap up love with an evil lust?
I have to how. I was so scared to face this harsh reality and it scared me the most that I had to face this alone.
Sarah used to be independent since childhood and has been good at harboring everything she felt herself. Sarah can pass it by cute when she gets a bully from her SD friends, her Junior High School friends, in-bully her own siblings she can pass through.
But this time it felt different. I felt incapable, weak and disgusted with her, her body. After entering High School I was happy and relieved because until sitting in 3rd class like this, I was never bullied again even I felt loved by all my friends.
I was a prima donna at my school. All men are interested in me even the young teacher who has been married for 7 years has not been blessed with a child has a heavy crush on me. My girlfriends are also many, they are all good to me and we are compact to even run away from school when the disliked subjects come.
True people say, High School is the most beautiful time. Sarah sings in her mind
"The story-love in school.. with him...."
Arrggghh's time in High School was exciting before Gio raped her yesterday afternoon and destroyed her happiness and peace of life.
What if I'm pregnant? Oh my God, I can't bear this burden alone. Do I have to tell Sandra all this to my best friend since Kindergarten? What would Sandra say or rather what would Sandra do?
Sarah knows very well the character of Sandra who always defended her like a superhero when Sarah was bullied. Is it possible that Sandra will defend him in the presence of Gio a handsome male who is 3 years older than him? Ahhhh a lot of questions in Sarah's mind but none of them have any answers.
Like telepathy (inner contact) between the two, Sandra was shortly written on her phone call.
"Sar, what are you doing in the room?"
"From this morning I called home, your mom said you didn't go out of your room all day?"
"You sick?"
"Yes San I'm sick, very sick, body and mind and especially sick in the kema**anku." inwardly Sarah.
Sarah couldn't have said that to Sandra, Sarah couldn't have.
"Saraahhhhhh you heard me say no anyway? "Why are you just sitting there instead of answering my question???"
The sound of Sandra's cry spread her daydream. Before Sarah answered him, Sandra preceded him to speak.
"Well, if you don't want to talk on the phone, I'll go there now!"
Sandra and Sarah's house is close to only 2 kilometers, 5 minutes by angkot, 20 minutes by foot.
"Aren't you crying?" "Your eyes are swollen to that size like a jengkol hahahaha"
"Damn it, instead of making me happy it's insulting".
"What happened to you my sexy best friend?" Sandra teases. Sarah just shook her head
"There's nothing, I'm fine."
"Lied!"
"I know you're from Kindergarten, I know something's wrong with you."
"Come story!"
Feeling a corner of Sandra, Sarah finally began to open her mouth.
"Ap.. Is LOVE the same as LUST?"
"HUH?" "What kind of question is that?" Sandra astonishment. Holding back her laughter as she saw Sarah was seriously looking at her with teary eyes. Sarah could never lie to her best friend.
Unable to endure the pain, Sarah hugged Sandra while whispering "I raped Gio"!
"Haaaaahhhhhhh whataaaaaaaaaaa????!!?" Sandra shouted and Sarah's hand quickly closed her mouth shut because she did not want the whole house to know and scattered into her room.
On the pink bed with heart motifs scattered around her, they hugged for a long time, occasionally Sandra patting Sarah on the back trying to calm her down.
Sandra who has not been a virgin for a long time, her boyfriend understands Sarah's feelings. It's just that Sandra knew Sarah felt a deep pain not only in her feminine area but also in her heart because she heard the word "rape".
Since Junior High, Sandra has lost her virginity which her lover who is also older than her. But she was not raped, not forcibly spayed by her lover while unconscious like herself.
Sandra and Erik do it because they love each other and want the same thing. Although it hurt at first, but Sandra really enjoyed the moment. Now, Sarah feels like the most miserable woman on the face of this earth because she has raped her own lover in the name of love!
"How come????" Shouted Sandra...
"Gio picked me up at school and when I was in the car I was given a ga***he forced me to suck it up and then I was unconscious like fainting."
"When I came to my senses, I was already in Gio's bed with white blood-stained sheets. I'm naked and I feel pain at my bottom." Huaaaa hiks hiks Sarah could not hold back her crying.
"Geez, goddamn Gio." "It's just so brazen he's doing this to you."
"We have to report him to the police right now you must have a divisum for evidence."
"Let's get ready to meet Hardi in his office for sure he'll be happy to help."
Yes, if Sandra was a police officer in her city, she would be able to catch Gio easily. But when Sarah tells him about Gio's threat, Sandra stops forcing him to meet her.
"That's so fucking rude of your girlfriend!" Just piss me off." "When I see you, I'm gonna kick ko!" Sarah finally laughed hearing him hahahaha
