Where Are You, Love
Yin and Yang
Sarah wriggled her body, revealed the blanket and walked towards the window. Ahhh very beautiful morning. The sun was shining brightly, the birds in the garden were chirping about as if speaking good morning to him.
With a deep breath inhaling the cold morning air, then exhaled slowly. Sarah decides to take the positive energy (Yang: in Chinese philosophy) from nature and expel the negative energy (Yin: in Chinese philosophy) from within her. Forgetting for a moment the burden on his heart and mind over the painful events of yesterday.
Huh... instantly remembered the incident when Gio hugged Risma on his bed. Destroying her calmness on this beautiful morning.
Sarah decided to take a hot bath in the bath ub. He took lavender and apple scented aromatherapy soap and put 10 drops into the water.
Sarah returns to the room to play her favorite radio hoping to get some extra positive energy from her beloved song.
"Keep forgetting you
Tired of your heart, watch your attitude
Your way of thinking makes me doubt
There's no way this can hold"
"Long dreams are disturbing
I try to keep away
Slowly my heart was broken
I'm trying to get on with life"
"You are not everything
Not a place to stop my steps
After it all passed
Let the rain wipe your tracks"
(Ariel Noah and BCL)
source: Youtube
Ahhh yes yes it seems that I have to erase your tracks, Gio and Risma. When it comes to Risma, I will easily erase her tracks but Gio ahhh will be difficult because I love her.
After singing along, Sarah drowns herself in a bath ub with her eyes closed hoping to find the answer to her relationship with Gio.
10 Minutes, 20 minutes, 30 minutes in the bath, Sarah decided to finish her soak and rinse herself after seeing her skin wrinkled.
In a baby pink bathrobe, Sarah exits the bathroom and hardens the volume of the radio.
The voice of the announcer came from there...
Good morning young man! This morning we're still discussing the theme "Will it last in the relationship after your partner is caught cheating?" We wait for a call from a young friend to give his opinion.
Huhhhhh? Seriously this is the theme? Why is it in line with what I'm experiencing. Sarah's Mumbles
After listening to some of the opinions of the listeners on the radio, Sarah decided to step into the wardrobe. His steps stopped when he heard the song.
Listen, my lady
I'll tell you tonight
Sacred desire for you, my goddess
Listen to this seriousness
I want to impeach you
'The first and last
Don't you refuse and make me ruined
'I will not repeat to ask
This one belief in my heart
I am the best for you
Listen, woman of my dreams
I'll tell you tonight
Holy promises, one for ever
Listen to this seriousness
I want to impeach you
'The first and last
(Yovie & Nuno)
Source: Musixmatch
Ahh Sarah swallowed her saliva and argued with her heart.
Is this the answer to my confusion? Do I have to stay married to Gio and trust him again?
But what if he still loves Risma and reconnects with her after we get married?
Does he deserve a chance from me?
What if Risma does not keep her promise and continues to undermine our relationship?
Ahhhh dizzy thinking about it, I better have a lot of breakfast and drink coffee so that the positive energy I get back to remove this negative energy.
The Yin and Yang energy in Sarah kept coming back and forth. Sometimes happy when he remembered the kindness and love that Gio gave, but immediately sad and upset when he remembered the actions of Gio who could hurt him.
I can't think straight now. What am I supposed to do? I can't tell anyone to ask for an opinion.
I was afraid that the opinion of my family and friends about Gio loving me would really change if he found out about this affair.
After thinking deeply enough, Sarah finally decided to hold it herself forever not to tell anyone including Sandra her true friend.
Yes let only Dana know that she knows by herself, not from my mouth. I'm sure Mang Dana was wise enough to deal with this.
After finishing the bread smeared with butter and honey and a glass of hot kapucino Sarah felt her mood returned to good, positive energy mastered it. Then he decided to go back to the room to open a paper bag of shopping results at that time.
The opening of the paper bag is one by one from the start of make-up, skin care, shoes, bags, clothes and underwear. Her heart trembled at the sexy underwear. Sarah felt inferior.
Will I look good wearing this? Will the body of my chest that is not as big as Risma's will be able to make Gio happy? Will the day Gio touches this body he won't imagine Risma's body?
What if when Gio was enjoying my body he compared it to Risma's slim body? What if he feels my body but in his mind there is only Risma?
Oh my God, I'm scared...
Negative energy overpowered him again, tears streaming down his face. Yes it seems like negative energy won this time.
Ah no... Sarah immediately wiped her tears and cleaned all the contents of the paper bag, putting them one by one into a baby pink box.
I have to keep thinking positively. I will watch a movie on the dvd player to divert my sadness and fear for a moment. After that I will read a romantic novel that ends happily. So plan today.
Sarah raised her hands up, praying...
My Lord, protect my relationship with my future husband Gio. If he is my soul mate, bring us closer and ease our affairs and save us from all temptations. However, if he is not my match, then immediately take us away and give us the strength to get through it all.
Aami...
Praying makes the negative energy start to decrease, replaced with a belief that there is still a God who will help him.
While being engrossed in watching a romantic movie that has a cuddle scene, Sarah remembers Gio. Sarah missed that man. Sarah misses her embrace, the warmth of her fingers when it reaches my fingers, the softness of her lips when it touches mine.
Sarah's daydream was broken because of a knock at the door.
Tok.. "Sorry to interrupt Non, there's a guest said Aunt's waiter."
"Who's bi?"
"Young master Gio non."
Ah long life, people who are imagined come murmuring Sarah.
"All right, I'll see him soon. Thank you bi."
The positive energy in Sarah has gathered. Coupled with the great longing for Gio, Sarah will meet Gio in a happy feeling.
"Darling how are you?" Gio stepped up to the stairs to greet his heart and kissed his cheek.
"I'm good koq... You how are you?"
"I'm not good for feeling so guilty about you and missing you so much."
Gio stroked Sarah's head gently.
"That's it, there's no need to talk about it anymore."
"I've forgiven you, baby."
"We forget everything and start all over again."
"Clearly darling?" Gio was very happy to hear it but it was also hard to believe.
"Yes dear...
Besides, it's a pity we've already prepared for our wedding."
"I'm going to lose big because DP catering and building won't be able to be pulled back."
"Ah so because of the loss you stick with me?" Gio pouting.
"So it's not because you love me?"
Sarah chuckled at Gio's silliness and looked him in the eye.
"Do you really feel perfect when I'm your wife?" Like you said in your love letter yesterday?
"Dear, I mean it."
"You are my only source of happiness now and forever."
They hugged for a long time in that living room, swept away in a feeling of love.
Ah a nice flower and poetic words can indeed melt a woman's heart... Gio smiled mischievously.
