When You Become the Winner
OTW IS IMPROVING HIMSELF FOR THE BETTER
that night I kept crying . My crying was not loud but at that time my mother woke up and entered my room, spontaneously I showed the photo on my phone...
👵 : wake up son. to the bathroom yuk
(my mother said to take me for ablution)
👩 : iyh.. (my answer is slow while nodding my head)
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at that time I prayed and prayed for ease of heart.I endlessly cried after this prayer because of pain until I myself forgot that I had time to pray "if he's good to me please don't separate me from him" but in reality I'm finally separated.it could be the answer to my prayer.
I always thought, does he not remember me anymore? has he forgotten me ..? every morning I could only hear the sound of his motorbike when he wanted to go to work. Sometimes heartache again saw him play with his woman to the place where I had been and he had established memories.. why go to the same place? make me remember the memories of it all...is it possible that he deliberately so that I am more hurt to see it? hhmmmmmm
all her wisdom Alhamdulillah for what heartache I feel, until now I still wake up in the middle of the night to pray and pray at the Yang Kuasa😊
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one week after that I intend to walk the road with my friend riding the train.The intention in my heart wants to calm in fact I cry on the glass of the train. at that time I wanted to feel like I met her but I thought for the last time because of where maybe I could meet her again. on the way home with the intention of my heart I sent him a WhatsApp message.
👩 : a..
🤵 : yes d...
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hearing her answer it made my heart vibrate, 🥺 I miss that answer 😭😭😭
👩 : can I see you once?...
🤵 : what other problems de..? aa was scared.
hearing that answer I 'Deg' why my heart ached so much when he said
what's the problem..? is it with my presence in his life making trouble for him...? I don't think so
👩 : yes it is not
🤵 :why not be...?
why d..? kangen..🥺🥺
👩 : want to chat, want someone in the same talk aa.. but he said earlier aa afraid yaudah do not need..
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believe me after Chat on that train I again winiisss until I finally fell asleep on the train😭😭
I always think .. ooh maybe because of the sin of the sin of dating me with her so god separate me with her, but why.?? why am I the only one who feels this pain?.Why is he the only one who is happy ? I'm notk😭😭😭😭
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2 months three months lost contact without news.but I still keep the contact.I think it will be easy to forget it is actually difficult.sometimes short relationships have so great memories.
I couldn't help but peek at him on the sosmed even though the tip of the tip hurt me to see it.
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and until finally the way I move on is not by forgetting or blocking access to communication with him but by feeling the pain that is very in a long time slowly all of it will disappear by itself
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we get back in touch starting from asking the news.really the feeling of anger was not there from the beginning, maybe more toward disappointment anyway.we also had a phone call precisely on the phone he told the womanaa... I can only be a good listener toohh I can also be with myself although sometimes sad if suddenly remembered his heartache... even during the fasting month we were still in good touch until one night I got the truth from his mouth that made me cry again that night.. but repeatedly he made me cry why not make my heart angry.In fact I always received well.It may be that I am too good or I am stupid ahahhaaha...
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when Eid al-Fitr also he contacted me that send his picture with a greeting
sorry to be born and inward
I briefly answered
"do not accept forgiveness online, it's also offline"
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even until the night we still chat on WhatsApp. if the discussed massalu .. surely the end of the line "to be fair the pain, doai aja yah de so that aa accident it"...
he said he also kemennya someone died because to hit him anyway think there may be prayers of people who are hurt or how we do not know.
bahakan keesoka nightnya on call me at 2 pm. that time my phone lowbat usually I cas hp in the room but because that in the room to pake .. I cas her hp in the tv room. when my phone rang it was my mother who lifted her phone.
my mother immediately said "irrennya sleep, tomorrow again if you want a phone"
yes instead he answered my mother's words eeh he even directly matiin his phone hahahha maybe he was surprised times ya😂😂😂 fitting me with it from my mother. I directly chat him.
aki tanya .. "aa kemalem nelfon...?" said the mother who lifted..?
two messages I sent to him but how strange tick one. usually tick 2 teruusss...
eehhh pas I tried to chatt use WA the second turned out to enter the doang. was clear WA I he block. I telfon dong ring quite longa.. eh he lift.
"hallo. d.. hallo.. bentar yah de this aa accident"
akuu panicked dong😟 I sent another message.. asked how he was.... I was really worried. when yes.. he had hurt me but I still worried about him.. what is clear I do not want him why napa... pas I ask ooh it turns out he was injured on the way to the woman's house.. hmmm🙄🙄🙄 even until tomorrow we are still chattan.
👩 : why no dd in block?
🤵 : who does not block..? it could be chattan
👩 :the chat above still tick one
🤵 :not really on the block
👩 : already hard boong
🤵 : iihh really sometimes hp his error
👩 : hallaaahhh tactics
🤵: hhmmm hard well if it is ugly .. in the future the ugly view continues toss
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is he thinks I'm stupid what ... rich is that guy's tactic .. hmmm he blocks my no because he wants to go to the woman's house.
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HAHAHAAHAH DASAARRR CROCODILEAA😂😂
