WHEN THE HEART IS NUMB (I AM IN TURN 3 YOUTH)

OLD WOUND

"Sir, the tumben these few days is like a busy big brother" Sindy stared into my eyes, as if trying to find something I was hiding.

"Huh, no. Your feelings only time". I turned my eyes so as not to look at each other with Sindy.

"Sister, I'm not a leak. Don't boong !" sindy's gaze was more introgating.

"No, I'm sleeping tomorrow at school" I turned my back to Sindy who we were facing each other.

"Aren't you working in town anymore ?" sambar Sindy whose heart I also held in unison by his question.

"No need to know you" I'm still trying not to reveal the truth.

"I saw my sister at Nina's house, and I saw a brochure under the bed" Sindy opened up the lie that I was trying to cover.

This time I can't dodge it anymore, like I've been caught red-handed. I opened my mouth and said about the real incident.

"Yes, I don't work in the city anymore. Brother has resigned, and brother intends to find a job here only" I explained with heart,still afraid that my father and mother would know that I was unemployed now that was all I could say to my sister Sindy. My lips stiffened as I remembered the actual events that had happened.

"Why brother resign, not his brother at home well there" again to the kepoan Sindy make my tongue should add to the lie.

"No papa anyway, I no longer want to work a deket deket aja same you guys" les ku who now Sindy become nodding, nodding,then I don't know what's on her mind comes the question that makes my heart hurt.

"Ohh, don't don't you want to marry me so resign. The reason I want to deket same us, surely brother already has a girlfriend well. Tell dong, I wonder what the hell is sister's boyfriend. My sister-in-law's candidate is hihihi" Sindy laughed crisply, mocking me so as not to be too serious. But unbeknownst to him he raised a wound that I was trying to immerse myself in.

I covered my body with a blanket, without tears flowing I could not stand it. I tried to stop but Sindy's question just now was still ringing until it made my chest even more crowded. The wound that I had sustained and sustained until now seemed to be torn apart again by the words of Sindy.

***

On the other side of the father and mother who heard the sound of my stare was shocked for a moment.

"What is that, sir?" ask your father after hearing my loud voice that they had never heard before. You also look confused, looking back at the mother and her eyes as if inviting to approach and ascertain what happened.

"So, you don't know, mom, you see" my step on the ground led my mom to my room and Sindy.

Arriving.

"Why Sin?" I asked Sindy who looked down. Do not forget to also circulate a glance towards me wrapped in a blanket.

Sindy just shook her head, she also didn't know which part of the question made me what I am now. On the other hand my father and mother tried to understand and did not want to interfere with my business and Sindy, as if they let me and Sindy solve it themselves.

You led me out of the room, gave Sindy and I time to calm down. Mom's footsteps looked heavy, looking at her two daughters.

There was guilt in my heart after yelling at Sindy who didn't really know what. But my heart was like in a shred of a question that Sindy threw would remind me of the dark events that happened to me at that time. Being driven by three young men at once is not a simple thing, but it is so heavy that I cannot even forget. How they treated me, young man, and rolled me until my tears even dried. There's a desire for revenge, but who I am. Only weak women cannot defend themselves.

I have tried so hard to forget, but still will not be able to restore what I have lost. Try iklas, but it is also impossible 'or I will reverse the situation in the future. That's all I want. If maybe now I'm not who, doing everything will also look wrong. I have to prove that I can get through this.