WHEN THE HEART IS NUMB (I AM IN TURN 3 YOUTH)

RESIGNING

PART 3 > WHEN HEART IS NUMB

“husttt ,you can't talk about dong Lan. Remember, God is fair. Everyone in the creation was paired with a partner, so you believe that one day you will definitely find a mate who can accept you as you are. I know you must be hit hard, you do not worry, Lan I will be a good friend for you. You still have me Lan, I promise you don't I will keep this story meeting” Lidya always try to calm myself and keep convincing my heart.

“it feels like I don't believe in Lid anymore, I'm blind. Just hate hate and hate that I remember, that bad guy Lid” I'm still stunned.

“ not all men equal Lan”

“but the male is a jerk..,.,,bastard..! only able to enslave the weak dead ” my grumbling is even more upset considering the depraved behavior of the three young men who desecrated me at that time.

“means you have to be a stronger person. Come on I know Lan you're not an easy person to give up so, you must be strong, you can definitely go through all this. I will continue to support you Lan ,you who are patient..!” Lidya stroked my shoulder as if giving strength there.

“maybe tomorrow I want to resign from the store, and I want to go home first Lid. I want to remember myself first in Kampung” said I looked at Lidya with a sad look.

“iya, I know kok Lan. It must be very heavy I appreciate your decision, hopefully you can find yourself in the village. Tomorrow I will tell the boss if you want to go home first” Lidya who tries to understand my situation.

“aaku nginep here aja Lan, I want to nemenin you. Yes, I also want to bring you to the terminal tomorrow”

I just nodded, I thought Lidya would leave me who was not holy this but it turns out he was still loyal to me even he was very worried about my situation.

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The day is getting late, I who still mourn last night is still reluctant to fill my stomach. My best friend Lidya took the initiative to order food through gojeg, order my favorite food so I want to eat. I have refused many times but he continues to insist.

Only 15 minutes after the order arrived. The package was opened by Lidya, not forgetting that she also opened my section .

“ayo makan” Lidya thrust a plate of rice filled with chicken geprek on me.

“no Lid” I keep shaking my head.

“ayo, I don't want to know the point you have to eat” after Lidya feeds me but I still refuse, even I snapped her.

“no Lid, I said I didn't want to do it means I don't want to. You eat alone, I don't want to eat” I'm the first time yelling at my best friend directly cover my entire body with a blanket. Because of my one-time emotions, it turned out that I made Lidya shed tears.

“ sorry Lid , but I just want to calm myself down. Not that I meant to yell at you , but it reminded me of the compulsion I received” I started to be able to condition my heart.

“iya Lan, no papa kok I am sorry” Lidya apologized back to me as I looked into her glassy eyes.

***

In the morning, I packed all my things, just a few other clothes such as cabinets, a small TV and other items that I could not take I gave to Lidya. I told Lidya to take me to the bus terminal, also through the opposite road from the road I used to walk. Although it is a journey that must be traveled further and must rotate but Lidya does not mempotes.

At the terminal, I also booked a ticket that the bus service would come in half an hour. There was a street vendor who approached me and Lidya to offer her trade. This time I can't lie I'm so hungry, I bought a few puffs and fritters as a stomach brace.

***

Now when he said goodbye to Lidya, he also promised that if he returned home later he would visit my house which was only a neighbor of the village.

“I say yes Lid” said I hugged my best friend's body tightly.

“iya , careful Yes Lan. Surely if I go back home I will also play to where you” Lidya now pinched my cheek.

“iya” just like that passed, now I am on my way to my hometown I also do not tell my father and mother what else about the painful events that occurred two days ago.

The journey to the village is approximately 6 to 8 hours if you take a bus. I closed my eyes a few times there until without me realizing it soon reached my village. Coming home this time feels very different, especially with the state of my heart that is in chaos.

Get off the bus ,I had to take another angkot about 15 minutes to reach the bag of approximately 10 thousand and had to walk again about 5 minutes from the highway that is not too crowded because it is not the main road.

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Arriving at the home page.

I saw both my parents who happened to be on a work holiday.Indeed today is a red date, but once they have a work holiday. In spirit I ran and grabbed their hands, then hugged my mother and I cried again. Mother also feels like there is a little different, but she thinks more positively. Maybe I miss them so I cry, never once have I come home on a normal day,usually I go home on holidays if you know that in fact deep in my heart there is a deep wound that I feel so that I can not tell all or even I will not tell and will hold it for themselves.

“why do you not tell first Lan if you want to go home, you can pick you up on the main highway as usual” father who is surprised about my return which is not as usual.

“emm, no papa kok pak” I turned my eyes on 2 of my sisters who were behind the back of my father.

Will the Moon tell her bitter story to her father and mother ?

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