When Nathan met Lee

Lee Ji - An (P.O.V)

I didn't expect that this time would come where I was the suspect, a good boy who had now been trying to destroy the family and the family's good name. It never occurred to me that I was going to experience this, I got pregnant out of wedlock and had to be kicked out of the house and stricken from the family card.

You know this is a nightmare for me. I didn't even know things like this could happen in my life. Never mind having a relationship with a man, even falling in love I've never been but now I'm even carrying a baby from a man I don't know who he is.

Nathan where are you, who are you really? Why did you come just to leave your child in my womb. Why is God so unfair to me, other people give up their virgin period with their lovers, they are happy to smile so cheerfully.

But what happened to me is all bad. I even let go of my virginity and gave it to a man I didn't know at all. I even forgot his face. I don't know where he's from. I don't know who the family is. I only know his name is Nathan. And that's what always haunts me. What about my fate, my child, although this child is not wanted by everyone, but this child grows in my womb, only I can help this child to stay alive.

This baby is mine, mine is someone, if someone else wants to kill him, why can't I defend him, I will continue to defend you even if I can't give you a father, but I can give you affection as a single mother.

God gave me this way of life, it made my heart feel broken, sick like a sharp knife. I was carrying a baby without knowing who the father of that baby was. I gave my virginity to her without knowing who that man was. I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid, I don't want my stupidity to kill me slowly

I don't want to die with misery and regret. I want to live even with this kind of pain. I knew Grandpa loved me so much that he kicked me out, he wanted my good name to stay in front of my friends. I know that I love all of you, even though I was kicked out of the house, I know the goal is good for me so that I can give birth to my baby without anyone knowing.

This pain I was feeling, all that I was a nightmare, that I wanted to end immediately. I hate this fact, because it is so bitter that I cannot swallow it. I swear I am a good person. I'm a fine woman not a seductive woman or like the others.

But why did God test me like this, why did God bring me together with that man, why did I have to meet Nathan, if only to leave his seed, why not another woman, why should I. When I met the top everything was destroyed and took away all my own, my life, the peace of my life, and my family, all because of him, I hate, I hate

that guy's.

I'm fucking crazy. I don't even know where he is right now, if I could meet him maybe my heart wouldn't hurt like this, my soul wouldn't be like this I beg I want to see you. I want to say that I am carrying your baby, I beg you to come to me, I cannot bear all this suffering alone.

I want to rub my eyes, try to look back, but he's gone, it's just my illusion it turns out, he accidentally touched me, fucked me, took the honey from my body, took my virginity, took my, after that he left me in this opening.

If he were, I'd love to have him hurt, scratch his face, cut off all his pride, and say as a result of his actions my life is ruined, my life is not left, there was only a tear left.

As it is today, I really can't do anything more, which I know I have to leave this house, grandfather has kicked me out, no one dares to refute grandfather's strength, no one dares, grandpa's words were still like a magic wand that could conjure anything.

Finally with a heavy step and a sick heart. I Slowly stepped out of my palace and mansions, out of my house, where I was born, out. I am no longer a member of this family. What about my life now, now everything has no meaning anymore.

I walked slowly while occasionally staring back. I'm turning. I want to see if Grandpa will call me? Whether Mama will come to pursue, whether to need me, I go further and further, but they do not pay attention, I was wasted in vain by my own family.

God please send it all out, I'm so afraid, I'm so afraid to live alone, I can't if I have to endure all this suffering myself, what should I do, how should I?

Even now I can only cry, I traced my steps away from leaving my family, I finally went to Indonesia and wanted to settle there, according to grandfather's orders. I will not waste all the kindness of my grandfather who let me carry my baby, I love this baby, my baby is innocent, the sinner is his father. I really love this baby God, give me a baby who can understand my feelings, love me, and obey me.

Because until now, I could do nothing but pray to you. The journey from Korea to the city of Bandung Indonesia is very far away. But along the way I felt a lot of people were watching us. I always dress up at will but that doesn't mean I'm not pretty, I'm very pretty, but now my beauty doesn't even make Nathan look for me.

Very depressing. Even I was looking for Nathan, and Nathan wasn't looking for me.

Seriate.