WHEN I FELL IN LOVE
Chapter 21
It shouldn't come as a surprise if Erwin loves Lela, because this is something Jayadi and I have been thinking about for months. And, I think, my reaction was a little overwhelming this morning, when I heard Erwin say it. What kept me from thinking was, what did Erwin tell me for? Does he want my support? From me? Just be right!
But at least, the situation is clear now. Erwin is my competitor. It will be a tough fight, considering Erwin is an accomplished speaker.
According to some psychology articles I read on the internet, it is written that: the weakness of women is in his ears. Women are easily lulled by praise directed directly at him, or spoken vaguely. This is the problem! His problem! His problem! His problem! “Double Shots Iced Shaken Espresso!” I shouted, subconsciously, from above my bed. Aki looked back, I forgot there was Jayadi, and she looked at me confused, then I was embarrassed.
“Lah, napa Bang? Just ngagetin,“ asked Jayadi.
“Ah, it's nothing Jay. What I just said, it's a magic spell in the movie I saw yesterday. I was just trying to remember him,“ my reason.
“Oh. Why the horror, rich food menu name is Bang?”
“Yeah, where do I know,“ reply me. You're right Jayadi, you're right. Ii'm sorry.
I moved from the bed, to the floor, and then sat cross-legged. Jayadi is in front of me. Since then he has been helping with Fitri's schoolwork. Fitri was assigned to make a pantun by his teacher, and of course, Jayadi was the right person to ask for help on this.
“You are very kind to my sister, Jay,“ I told her.
“Tadi, how to join visit with Erwin, Bang?“ ask Jayadi. His gaze remained focused towards the book on the floor and his hand continued to write word-by-word with a black pen in his right hand. His position was bowing, like he was prostrating.
“Pas just came out of the office, Erwin invited me to coffee at Mall Kedaton. Yeah, I'm following. Maybe we were there for about an hour. Afterwards Erwin said, he had a sudden rush. So, we did not so we join visit,” reply me. I said the real thing.
I saw Jayadi smiling amusedly when I heard my answer. A reasonable reaction. “Buset! Didn't he say coffee from the beginning? Continue, while chatting, what is Bang? "
“Erwin said, he likes Lela,” I replied, straightforwardly, without further ado.
Of course Jayadi straightened his body, then looked at me with a confused face mixed in shock. Again a reasonable reaction. “ Which is Real Bang?“
“Ngapain I lied to you, Jay?”
For a moment Jayadi was silent, he looked like he couldn't believe what I was saying. There is a little mismatch here. Jayadi who from the beginning was suspicious of Erwin's behavior in front of Lela, even he was the first to ask about the possibility if Erwin liked Lela; surprised, like disbelief.
After that, we talked a lot about the possibilities that will happen next. Does Lela love Erwin? Or, will Lela accept Erwin's love? This is the topic we talked about last night. Nauseate? Yeah, very sickening. To be honest, I hate talking about all this with Jayadi, as if I'm some kind of gossip pusher who likes to talk about other people's lives. I feel cheap, fed up, and ashamed of myself. Without me realizing it, I've already made a fort with Jayadi. Those who reject the love story of Erwin and Lela, will end happy ending. It's not like me. But let this sin be made, tonight only. Only to offer bitter heart for not accepting the reality that happened. The fact that I feel angry at myself, the coward! Erwin is not wrong, at all! There is nothing wrong with people falling in love. Let everything go tonight. To vent my true anger to others who fall in love with the same woman I love. How humiliating!
